I joined quite some time ago, not really sure when, but probably a couple of years ago. I posted a couple times, but then I left because I felt like a kindergartner attending college. Figured I needed to learn a bit more on my own.
This was the place I thought might have some answers for me or at least might could point me in the right direction, but in light of what's happened since I was last on here, I'm not sure anymore. I wasn't even sure I had the right place at first, but I managed to login and then found that the forum had been hacked since I left.
So... on to my questions. I'm looking for info on alien encounters, for lack of a better term. I've had some experiences that fit the alien abduction scenarios, but I'm really feeling that there's more going on than what I'm seeing/hearing as possible explanations. The standard theories just seem to fall way short. I'm not convinced at all of there being physical extraterrestrials involved, though I'm not ruling it out, either. I just feel that's too simple. There's layers of deceit or illusion of some kind involved. And the explanations I've seen so far seems to be contrived and manipulative. I feel like I'm missing something.
I've read some of Karla Turner's stuff, and that's more like what I'm looking for. I particularly liked _Masquerade of Angels_ and how it pulled layers of deception off a person's experiences. I could relate to several things in that book. But most of the more recent stuff I've found smacks of disinformation to me, like dramatized versions of history that only contain kernels of truth.
Occult is all about hidden knowledge, so I was hoping that some people here might could help me out in some way, even just to recommend books or blogs or something.