So first the knowledge: Disclaimer I cannot recall if I put this on this site years ago or not...<br>1. A wand can be programmed to program other objects more speedily.<br>2. If wanting to learn, say telekinesis, then program a quartz with your programming wand so that with a spirit that teaches the arts' blessing with energy one simply absorbs the energy to ensure that one can master the art...just do not forget to ask the entity how to operate the ability. Ultimately, with tools at the ready this method is much faster than if one is learning an ability at a time rather than one at a much quicker pace!<br><br>Now about my curse...: Since 2009, I have been trying to complete off and on the training in Konstantinos book Summoning Spirits so I may see and here and practice my first ceremonial Summoning (as a self aware full who wishes to acquire wisdom in this life to avoid the ending up unwisely choosing the alternative in the next I a 30 year old man wish to Summon Umabel for the aforementioned wisdom. Every time I try to get far enough, as I only got as far as all before tattwa scrying and got into the non "in color" scrying, I get so in my madness, incapable of getting the job done...If I so much as attempt the "Crisis Magick" found in Damon Brands' book in order to get motivated I cannot succeed...nothing I do seems to work and I fear for my very soul as I know in this life I was under such magick induced delusions that I took till 29 to just get my head in part on straight enough to realize I was not in my friendless state superior than normal...amongst other embarrassing delusions... Seeing as I am incapable of helping myself I am hoping someone(s) will read this and in appreciation of the knowledge I gave out would be willing to help me in return... Any help would be much appreciated.