Here's fine i imagine, hehe. unless maybe the topic is energy work while nekkid or something :P
Started working with energy (consciously and more seriously) in 2001. Although really I can't think of a time when i wasn't on some level. I don't have a brand ideology exactly, at least no published one. Not to be confused with a lack of practice/study/etc. Just, I might reference any ideological framework/discipline to convey an idea, or maybe even a movie, hehe. A lot of what I think or have done or do is novel in approach.
Discussing things is tricky at times, a lot of times. The more you explore on your own, the more you run into frame of reference, common-ground, & terminology problems. You end up having to define ideas in order to define terms, which in turn describe an idea, which serves as the basis for an idea yet again removed.
I guess you could say my start was with psi vamp stuff, but the core of what i explore really evolved into something more like tantrik HGA work. Which kinda branches into ideas which I'm not sure how to discuss. Which probably paints a lurid or strange impression, unless you know a fair amount about what tantra & HGA actually are.
Some 17 or 18 years ago i had a website on shielding, which was considered the best on the topic. I just picked a single topic and extrapolated on it exhaustively. Originally I imagined it as part of a large body of specific topic explorations, but it proved to be quite a lot of work to make an extremely detailed and complete presentation of just the one topic. I haven't actually used shielding in a very very long time though. I just kinda grew away from it as an approach. The underlying concept kinda falls apart in other levels of, uh... lets call it meta.
I've been a bit distant to the community. But I kinda miss discussing interesting things.
What'd you want to discuss? I mean, "energy work", yeah. But, that's a thousand amorphous threads of thought to pick from. Anything particularly?
Hmm, maybe i should take more initiative. Ok, I'm garbage at healing or TK. And I'm not completely sure why, other than they don't fascinate me as much as some topics. But I like to think i can do things without it being a central focus.
You have much more experience than I do with things of a tantric/sex magik nature. I can say that much just knowing myself, without knowing anything further about you.
My own genesis of work started in 2009, and has prospered in the 11 years since. Though, like you, the fundmentals are something I've been neglecting in recent years. I too lack a reference in one specific discipline, but have been doing my part to analyze, intuit, and adapt. Anything you reference, I can either identify with, understand intuitively, or research, so don't worry about that. Use movies or even games if you feel the need, I won't laugh.
Hell, I've spoken with someone who thought the contents of Alice in Wonderland and the Persona games were designed by a higher being and sourced from a deep occult truth.
I was trained by a psi vamp as well, though I wouldn't have described myself as one. I drew from my own energy and from this and other spheres, rather than draining others. The whole concept of "life force" is nebulous at best, so I didn't want to interfere with how it worked in others for the sake of fuel. My work began on the basest fundamentals of sensing with one's mind, that which one cannot easily "see" with the five senses. It was described as "energy," but I shy away from that term because of its confusing relation to physics. What I purport to control is not a force that achieves "work" in a physical sense; it is a subtler and more insidious influence. From those roots, I developed a working relationship with shielding like you have, learned to construct psychic/envisioned objects from those wards, and even developed a means to combat entities that had less than beneficial intent. More on that later.
From a different teacher, though closely related to the concept of vampirism, I learned a method for entering into the mindscape of others, observing and interpreting the contents, and even learning to manipulate them to a limited extent.
I have achieved deep meditative states and nudged my way into the most superficial use of what some call Siddhis -- including but not limited to telepathy.
I would welcome discussion of any of the things I've just described, but I do also have some questions.
Rather than ask you how you use shielding, because I realize the folly in that, I wanted to ask for clarification on what you meant by "the underlying concept...falls apart in other levels of...meta." Aside from that, I would ask if by "TK" you mean telekinesis, and if so, what your experience with yourself/others using that has been. I myself have not witnessed true use of that ability.
I have also gotten into healing, mainly through the bridge of empathy and massage training. "Faith" or willpower-based healing has not worked well for me, without some kind of bridging structure.
I also wanted to thank you for getting in touch with me and continuing this discussion! I so rarely get to talk about this kind of stuff.