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- Aug 21, 2022
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First of all, my sincerest apologies for my absence, I have kind of stressed my body too far and had been attempting to take a break from the occult but I fear in doing so I have become weak and defenseless, and my past mistakes have come back once again. If any of you remember my last post I unleashed something truly vile on myself with what I now understand to have been very poor attempts at golemancy. I slowly got better over about two months, most likely due to the help and support I have received from you all on here. In my stagnancy I have been indulging myself in some naturally harvsted "spiritual pleasures" (keeping it vague for my safety). A few nights ago I was enjoying my personal time and may have taken things a bit too far and got a bit too comfortable with the lack of negative spiritual presences around me. I am not nearly as knowledgeable as you all about things such as 'astral projection" but I have never been so sure in my life that I. SAW. IT. I am talking full body dissociation I was able to observe myself and my surroundings from a more enlightened perspective and just as I was getting to enjoy myself I was suddenly horribly aware of that original mud statue sitting on my groin in a pile of dust. It was even more cracked and distorted than I remember it being when I burried that entity in my back yard. It suddenly made a horrific squelching noise and started crawling up my chest and face. I sear i felt it crawling on me even though I wasn't currenlty in my body and it slowly started to lose its form and "flow" into my mouth and throat. I couldn't breathe for what felt like eons as I felt that devil crawl down into my body and eventualy resting within my heart. I woke up in the most excruciating pain I have ever felt, as if my entire circulatory syhstem was on fire and my skin felt so dry and tight. zI know its in me, I knew i wasnt safe I shouldn't have let my guard down i feel it guiding the motions of my day and i know that it hates me. ever since this happened i swear Ive wanted more of them inside me. I feel the urge to eat CLAY. FUCKING CLAY. I dont know what to do and I beg of any of you to help me. I haven't dreampt since that day, all i see is darkness and im so so scared