Hello everyone! I am looking for a way to become physically superior to any human being in terms of pure physical strength,develop insane fighting skills. The reason I am doing this is because I want freedom, you can do whatever you want and be not feared of consequnces because who can really hurt or avenge you if you are this strong,not to rely on anyone. The best depiction of what I want comes from Apostles from Berserk. They were led to such edge where they sacrificed part of their humanity to become completely free,to not obey to any man. I really need such type of strength,I don’t care where it comes from-pact with demon,sacrifices,maybe some ancient spells. This desire of strength is in my head all the time 24/7. Don’t get me wrong i have a pretty good fighting skills which I developed by myself,boxing for around 7-8 years and i can handle the average human without any problems,even trained people. I just genuinely don’t like this sport or any other combat sport,to be clear I don’t like violence at all and would rather spent this time on something else instead of beating someone and getting beaten up and because of this mindset I can’t go further,I feel like I reached the top of what I can reach with my own actions and will, no matter how hard I try I can’t change this mindset and come to next level. For me it is just overwhelming that there are some people out there who spend all their time to become physically strong and would use this advantage to intimidate you,such people are quite arrogant and require ton of respect from you. I am talking about people like proffesional fighters,soldiers etc. Fuck it,I don’t want to bow to anyone,but as I said i just can’t go further without help from aside. I already tried to contact Varnaxis,I read post Lady-Eva and it seemed like this spirit is willing to help those who are desperate,but for some reason I didn’t get any answer or felt presence of spirit,I also tried to contact different demons using partial envocation from Gordon’s Winterfield book Demons of Magic and I am not sure that it really worked. To be honest I don’t really like this thing with “noticing” symbols and answers from demons,It is quite hard to understand whether it was real answer or some coincidence and this doesn’t mean nothig at all. I a bit skeptical about it,maybe because I neve truly experienced something supernatural in my life,something that won’t leave doubts about its nature. I also tried this manifestation ,didn’t work aswell.Of course maybe it just takes more practice to see results,but I don’t want spent years on it. What woudl you recommend? And please don’t tell me to “focus on something else instead of strength” type of advices. I already do and spent a lot of time thinking about it,understanding that I need it! of Are there any people who can help? Perhaps teach me? What spirit I can contact to gain such power?
Last edited by a moderator:
