This Journal is to account for the changes, synchronicities, and other consequences that will come about from my Journey into the occult ritual sphere.
I have very little hands on experience with the practice, with my only spiritual accomplishments being that of someone who meditates regularly, and has only last week memorized the LBRP. Like all people, I like to consider myself unique. I have had no direct supernatural experiences in my life. No nights out seeing something that should not be, nor have I ever encountered a ghost, spirit, fae, jinn, or other being. Nor have I ever felt a “energy” when doing a ritual, or muttering psalms and sutras. Despite this complete lack of contact, I do believe in them. I believe that ancient people were not stupid when they burned weeks worth of food to honor a god or spirit, I believe that almost every culture creating a Magick practice was not done out of pure “primitive superstition”. I know that there is something beyond the veil, even if I myself am Blind to it.
One of the reasons why I might be Blind is my lack of dreams. According to various cultures and peoples, dreams are the gateway into the next stage, and despite a childhood of all consuming night terrors, I have had no dreams whatsoever since I was around 12 years old.
Despite my own Blindness, I have encountered those who are not. Most in the way of your average sensitive person, they know some things they should not, and are able to sense the presence of other beings, they have told me this before. I had also had a rather strange encounter with a Korean Shaman who warned me of a very particular camping trip I had not told her about, and indeed, that very camping trip I did become extraordinarily sick and was sent to the hospital. This was one of the foundational moments that led to my belief, even if I cannot see it, that does not mean it is not there.
My own partner is a sensitive person, she has stated many past encounters with spirits, and she herself has had some uncanny intuition. However, since we started living together, she has not encountered or sensed another anomalous spirit. I had a brief hypothesis about this occurring thanks to something that blocks me, and yet I never voiced it myself, partially out of worry that if it left my lips it would become true regardless of whether or not it was before leaving them.
But that has also been a theme, apart from the Shaman incident, the people I have encountered that are more sensitive have directly told me that they don’t encounter spirits around me. Urban exploring local haunts has brought very little fruit in regards to encounters, something I am hoping direct rituals improve.
Finally, after all of my ceaseless rambling I get to the purpose of this journal. I am Blind, I know that, but I do not believe it is a permanent condition, hell, it may even be a benefit in some cases. Regardless, I am going to go headfirst into the Occult, specifically ceremonial magick, my long time love, and hopefully document my cases. Even if I do not feel a presence (Which i am yet to), I will exude intent, and track that intent thoroughly. If my intent is made true in the world, then even if I do not See, I can still enact magick.
I am unsure of the etiquette of the forum, as this is my first one, but if you are allowed I do give permission to readers to comment on this journal, whether that be their hypothesis to my Blindness, possible benefits it could bring me on this journey, recommendations for books/rituals, or just general comments. And if you made it this far, thank you for dealing with my ramblings, there will be many more as I continue.
Jack.
I have very little hands on experience with the practice, with my only spiritual accomplishments being that of someone who meditates regularly, and has only last week memorized the LBRP. Like all people, I like to consider myself unique. I have had no direct supernatural experiences in my life. No nights out seeing something that should not be, nor have I ever encountered a ghost, spirit, fae, jinn, or other being. Nor have I ever felt a “energy” when doing a ritual, or muttering psalms and sutras. Despite this complete lack of contact, I do believe in them. I believe that ancient people were not stupid when they burned weeks worth of food to honor a god or spirit, I believe that almost every culture creating a Magick practice was not done out of pure “primitive superstition”. I know that there is something beyond the veil, even if I myself am Blind to it.
One of the reasons why I might be Blind is my lack of dreams. According to various cultures and peoples, dreams are the gateway into the next stage, and despite a childhood of all consuming night terrors, I have had no dreams whatsoever since I was around 12 years old.
Despite my own Blindness, I have encountered those who are not. Most in the way of your average sensitive person, they know some things they should not, and are able to sense the presence of other beings, they have told me this before. I had also had a rather strange encounter with a Korean Shaman who warned me of a very particular camping trip I had not told her about, and indeed, that very camping trip I did become extraordinarily sick and was sent to the hospital. This was one of the foundational moments that led to my belief, even if I cannot see it, that does not mean it is not there.
My own partner is a sensitive person, she has stated many past encounters with spirits, and she herself has had some uncanny intuition. However, since we started living together, she has not encountered or sensed another anomalous spirit. I had a brief hypothesis about this occurring thanks to something that blocks me, and yet I never voiced it myself, partially out of worry that if it left my lips it would become true regardless of whether or not it was before leaving them.
But that has also been a theme, apart from the Shaman incident, the people I have encountered that are more sensitive have directly told me that they don’t encounter spirits around me. Urban exploring local haunts has brought very little fruit in regards to encounters, something I am hoping direct rituals improve.
Finally, after all of my ceaseless rambling I get to the purpose of this journal. I am Blind, I know that, but I do not believe it is a permanent condition, hell, it may even be a benefit in some cases. Regardless, I am going to go headfirst into the Occult, specifically ceremonial magick, my long time love, and hopefully document my cases. Even if I do not feel a presence (Which i am yet to), I will exude intent, and track that intent thoroughly. If my intent is made true in the world, then even if I do not See, I can still enact magick.
I am unsure of the etiquette of the forum, as this is my first one, but if you are allowed I do give permission to readers to comment on this journal, whether that be their hypothesis to my Blindness, possible benefits it could bring me on this journey, recommendations for books/rituals, or just general comments. And if you made it this far, thank you for dealing with my ramblings, there will be many more as I continue.
Jack.
