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I have noticed an intense shift in the way I used to experience dreams, related to the entheogenic experiences I've had and specific periods in given periods of time, which boggles the hell out of me. From an ocean of significant dreams to a desert of oneiric nothingness.
I will separate these periods into personal phases:
1- Pre-Spiritual Experience Phase:
Had a very freaky sleeping experience. Would have a lot of batshit insane nightmares, hatmen visions, sleep paralysis and occasional insomnia. Dreams were usually recurrent and heavy, around persistent "areas" (a part of my hometown, the farm I grew up in, cities and hellscapes only seen in dreams, etc.) involving known people and unknown people/entities. Basically all disturbance, negativity and intensity with no control whatsoever.
2 - Ayahuasca Working Phase:
Started improving my sleep quality tremendously while participating in Ayahuasca rituals (every week), which basically eradicated my insomnia to this day. The intensity of my dreams skyrocketed, started contacting entities in many different oneiric places, participating in dreamscape spiritual endeavors, dealing with astral guardians, vampires, my ancestors, and if I had a nightmare it would be brutal and would influence my very day to day life.
All in all it was a period where the quality of my dream content went to the roof, it was like the previous phase on steroids, but with very rare negative/disturbing episodes. Since the sheer intensity of my psychic stimulation was starting to screw around too much with my mundane activities (felt tired after waking up, having sudden psychic experiences at inappropriate contingencies, etc.), and due to some other problems, I stop attending to the Ayahuasca rituals periodically and started going very sparsely (once a year, tops).
3 - Solo Working Phase:
The first few years after stopping attendance to Ayahuasca rituals were great regarding dream experiences. Started to study Jungian psychology and to make occasional, independent rituals with (and without) MJ, which led me to unexplored psychic content and palpable results (gnosis, further exploration of dreamscapes and entities, syncronicity events, etc.).
After some time it became a phase of a lot of mundane technical activities, grind and duty outside. And ever since I started to dedicate more to the outside world, my dreams seemed to hid almost completely from my consciousness. I sleep very well, yet the onirical magic became a thing from the past. Remembering a dream is a very very rare occurrence, having symbolically rich dreams...I mean, I don't even remember when was the last time I had one. I keep with my dream journal with very little to write in it (mostly nothing or "Eating some noodles/Walking mindlessly at home/Working") and my schedule of spiritual practices is still a constant in my life, but no results are manifesting in dreams anymore. I can sparsely reach some interesting thought-forms in hypnagogic states, but once I fall asleep, it's lights out.
Started practicing the lucidity website exercises and Basics of Lucid Dreaming thread content, with some success. However, the given lucid dream experiences were absolutely lame, mundane activities, with boring work colleagues, roaming in my city with nothing happening and the more I tried to squeeze some actual significance from it, the more frustrated I got. Like I went from a crazy Twin Peaks dark woods sort of dream experience to some The Office experience with spreadsheets and occasional work talk (if you get the reference). I managed to reach some level of control and lucidity, but something seemed to have annihilated the spontaneous spiritual undertones of my dreams. I haven't made any grand initiatory ritual or pact with entities, if that is the concern (of losing one's Soul or experiencing some ritual produced interference).
Conclusion:
My theory is that, since my life became very restricted (basically only study, work, some rituals and occasional short leisure moments) and symbolically poor, I stopped having the mental disposition to reach these dreamscapes and experiences consciously, although I'm an active practitioner. And I need help to re-enter this rich realm of dreams! I don't mean to control them or to be lucid within them right now, but to make the deep unconscious realms I once contacted re-emerge to my consciousness like it used to so spontaneously.
I have noticed an intense shift in the way I used to experience dreams, related to the entheogenic experiences I've had and specific periods in given periods of time, which boggles the hell out of me. From an ocean of significant dreams to a desert of oneiric nothingness.
I will separate these periods into personal phases:
1- Pre-Spiritual Experience Phase:
Had a very freaky sleeping experience. Would have a lot of batshit insane nightmares, hatmen visions, sleep paralysis and occasional insomnia. Dreams were usually recurrent and heavy, around persistent "areas" (a part of my hometown, the farm I grew up in, cities and hellscapes only seen in dreams, etc.) involving known people and unknown people/entities. Basically all disturbance, negativity and intensity with no control whatsoever.
2 - Ayahuasca Working Phase:
Started improving my sleep quality tremendously while participating in Ayahuasca rituals (every week), which basically eradicated my insomnia to this day. The intensity of my dreams skyrocketed, started contacting entities in many different oneiric places, participating in dreamscape spiritual endeavors, dealing with astral guardians, vampires, my ancestors, and if I had a nightmare it would be brutal and would influence my very day to day life.
All in all it was a period where the quality of my dream content went to the roof, it was like the previous phase on steroids, but with very rare negative/disturbing episodes. Since the sheer intensity of my psychic stimulation was starting to screw around too much with my mundane activities (felt tired after waking up, having sudden psychic experiences at inappropriate contingencies, etc.), and due to some other problems, I stop attending to the Ayahuasca rituals periodically and started going very sparsely (once a year, tops).
3 - Solo Working Phase:
The first few years after stopping attendance to Ayahuasca rituals were great regarding dream experiences. Started to study Jungian psychology and to make occasional, independent rituals with (and without) MJ, which led me to unexplored psychic content and palpable results (gnosis, further exploration of dreamscapes and entities, syncronicity events, etc.).
After some time it became a phase of a lot of mundane technical activities, grind and duty outside. And ever since I started to dedicate more to the outside world, my dreams seemed to hid almost completely from my consciousness. I sleep very well, yet the onirical magic became a thing from the past. Remembering a dream is a very very rare occurrence, having symbolically rich dreams...I mean, I don't even remember when was the last time I had one. I keep with my dream journal with very little to write in it (mostly nothing or "Eating some noodles/Walking mindlessly at home/Working") and my schedule of spiritual practices is still a constant in my life, but no results are manifesting in dreams anymore. I can sparsely reach some interesting thought-forms in hypnagogic states, but once I fall asleep, it's lights out.
Started practicing the lucidity website exercises and Basics of Lucid Dreaming thread content, with some success. However, the given lucid dream experiences were absolutely lame, mundane activities, with boring work colleagues, roaming in my city with nothing happening and the more I tried to squeeze some actual significance from it, the more frustrated I got. Like I went from a crazy Twin Peaks dark woods sort of dream experience to some The Office experience with spreadsheets and occasional work talk (if you get the reference). I managed to reach some level of control and lucidity, but something seemed to have annihilated the spontaneous spiritual undertones of my dreams. I haven't made any grand initiatory ritual or pact with entities, if that is the concern (of losing one's Soul or experiencing some ritual produced interference).
Conclusion:
My theory is that, since my life became very restricted (basically only study, work, some rituals and occasional short leisure moments) and symbolically poor, I stopped having the mental disposition to reach these dreamscapes and experiences consciously, although I'm an active practitioner. And I need help to re-enter this rich realm of dreams! I don't mean to control them or to be lucid within them right now, but to make the deep unconscious realms I once contacted re-emerge to my consciousness like it used to so spontaneously.
