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How do i do this....
Hello.
Okay, it's something.
I am a long time lurker of various forums like this, of course i dare not say i saw them all but damn i saw a lot of them, however i don't actually "like" the usual sort of people you would find on this type of subject (you know the type.) so i never approached any before.
So why here why now? After the crash of Zlib i came to respect work and effort put into actually maintaining and learning as a community away from
a parent site like reddit (ew) and such, but does this forum have any resources i couldn't readily find on shadow libraries..?
one exhaustive dive later
Okay, you got the good sh** i admit it.
So i will try to add a voice both as a thanks for all the uploads and my own good,
I have spent a good part of a decade compiling and going over many resources, most of the big names, lots of the contemporary authors
i read an article of an author complaining about piracy, somewhere in there he said
"They don't even read the books, they just endlessly hoard them" somehow i took it personally enough to put in the time and actually read everything
i download, i was just unlucky enough for that book to be Dee's Monas Hieroglyphica.....
Went a bit off track, another question i imagine is a good icebreaker, how did i get into the occult?
Well i imagine like many or all of us here i was certainly born with it. My roots are in the Balkans and that's a whole other can of worms for another thread,
had my fair share of experiences i did not know how to explain, even had a Babushka actually curse me ( i was this chubby crazy kid living in it's own universe, she called me over into her yard, primed me up like a chicken for slaughter then rubbed off a burning cigarette on my shoulder while chanting, doing the weird eye thing, the whole shebang - she then calmed me down and sent me on my way, i legit forgot about the interaction until years later, i don't think much of it)
But my real drive was my Grandmother. She had dementia and i spotted the moment in her eyes when it clicked, forgetting and remembering.
From that scare i had decided to do what i can and avoid that, although plenty spiritual i am also pragmatic and... well sorta militant, even if magick was real
asking God or anything else to hand you a win is against my nature.
So i hit the books and became a bloodhound, particularly for mentalism, hypnotism, psychology. And only then did i take the turn into the occult for real.
Really, my homework in mentalism has been and remained a big advantage compared to so many would be practitioners.
Anyway!! If i have to classify my self i have seen some call it "gothic" , being a sort of freepicking from multiple disciplines for whatever is adaptable to my self.
Like i said, probably over a decade in the making i threw my best years in and doubled down on research, it is now over. Certainly i will go for more but there comes a time when one must practice what they preach, i have a whole inventory of operations ready to begin but something is holding me back, i drew it up to being lazy but as time flies by i confess to some doubts.
To be more specific, my area of interests would start with Sekhmet and i suppose Hecate but only them, i see you clutching your crystals about to @ me but i highly doubt we are thinking of the same thing. Also i have a single Goetia i keep close to my heart on account of us having the same name. I lean into the left hand path (minus the scooby doo villain mentality), little bit of Tibet, sprinkled with Chaos. seasoned by the likes of William Gray and a few more.
To put it simply i excel at personal things, trances ,pathworking, augmentation, servitors, sigils, . Also i am not one of those "science" types that plague the Chaos ranks.
I am chatty and certainly open to questions and conversations at anytime, just don't expect me to share my whole practice, i've grown quite protective of it and the work it took.
Aaaaaaaaand... that is all. I noticed these threads are meant to be a hi and bye so i apologize for the long post, You may now begin to adore me.
Hello.
Okay, it's something.
I am a long time lurker of various forums like this, of course i dare not say i saw them all but damn i saw a lot of them, however i don't actually "like" the usual sort of people you would find on this type of subject (you know the type.) so i never approached any before.
So why here why now? After the crash of Zlib i came to respect work and effort put into actually maintaining and learning as a community away from
a parent site like reddit (ew) and such, but does this forum have any resources i couldn't readily find on shadow libraries..?
one exhaustive dive later
Okay, you got the good sh** i admit it.
So i will try to add a voice both as a thanks for all the uploads and my own good,
I have spent a good part of a decade compiling and going over many resources, most of the big names, lots of the contemporary authors
i read an article of an author complaining about piracy, somewhere in there he said
"They don't even read the books, they just endlessly hoard them" somehow i took it personally enough to put in the time and actually read everything
i download, i was just unlucky enough for that book to be Dee's Monas Hieroglyphica.....
Went a bit off track, another question i imagine is a good icebreaker, how did i get into the occult?
Well i imagine like many or all of us here i was certainly born with it. My roots are in the Balkans and that's a whole other can of worms for another thread,
had my fair share of experiences i did not know how to explain, even had a Babushka actually curse me ( i was this chubby crazy kid living in it's own universe, she called me over into her yard, primed me up like a chicken for slaughter then rubbed off a burning cigarette on my shoulder while chanting, doing the weird eye thing, the whole shebang - she then calmed me down and sent me on my way, i legit forgot about the interaction until years later, i don't think much of it)
But my real drive was my Grandmother. She had dementia and i spotted the moment in her eyes when it clicked, forgetting and remembering.
From that scare i had decided to do what i can and avoid that, although plenty spiritual i am also pragmatic and... well sorta militant, even if magick was real
asking God or anything else to hand you a win is against my nature.
So i hit the books and became a bloodhound, particularly for mentalism, hypnotism, psychology. And only then did i take the turn into the occult for real.
Really, my homework in mentalism has been and remained a big advantage compared to so many would be practitioners.
Anyway!! If i have to classify my self i have seen some call it "gothic" , being a sort of freepicking from multiple disciplines for whatever is adaptable to my self.
Like i said, probably over a decade in the making i threw my best years in and doubled down on research, it is now over. Certainly i will go for more but there comes a time when one must practice what they preach, i have a whole inventory of operations ready to begin but something is holding me back, i drew it up to being lazy but as time flies by i confess to some doubts.
To be more specific, my area of interests would start with Sekhmet and i suppose Hecate but only them, i see you clutching your crystals about to @ me but i highly doubt we are thinking of the same thing. Also i have a single Goetia i keep close to my heart on account of us having the same name. I lean into the left hand path (minus the scooby doo villain mentality), little bit of Tibet, sprinkled with Chaos. seasoned by the likes of William Gray and a few more.
To put it simply i excel at personal things, trances ,pathworking, augmentation, servitors, sigils, . Also i am not one of those "science" types that plague the Chaos ranks.
I am chatty and certainly open to questions and conversations at anytime, just don't expect me to share my whole practice, i've grown quite protective of it and the work it took.
Aaaaaaaaand... that is all. I noticed these threads are meant to be a hi and bye so i apologize for the long post, You may now begin to adore me.