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I didn't know what to label this. Just I feel lighter than I have in almost a year. I did some spellwork and some occult work maybe it helped. Lots of prayers and tears. I been fighting a lot of grief and pain. However I made peace with a situation that caused me a lot of grief. I don't know what happened. I talked with the person who helped caused the situation and felt lighter but still heavy. Then I went to bed. Had a weird but vivid dream that made no sense. Yet for some reason felt like it had everything to do with the situation. Woke up and finally everything clicked what I needed to do and say to move on lift the weight off my shoulders and I felt like I am content and finally at peace.
I still have a lot of grief and trauma regarding other issues. I still feel like it's going to be a rough next few months as there'll be a lot of changes in my life. I still worry about a lot. I still feel lonely. But right now...I feel free like I can handle it. One situation feels like it's been solved a weight gone and everything else feels lighter and bareable. I've decided to cultivate this feeling this energy and use it to keep on the path of moving foward.
I thank the gods for this. And I pray they help give me the strength and wisdom to face the troubles I got coming up. It's a lot but I can handle it. I'm happy. I'm free. I feel content and my mind has settled finally after months of warring. The pain is lesser then it was and I can run. I can sing and dance. Maybe now I'll have the energy to finish the occult books I been trying to read and rework my belief system. Maybe I can post about disability and the occult like I been meaning to.
I'm feeling hopeful for the future the light I been seeing is very bright and I feel like smiling again without forcing it.
I still have a lot of grief and trauma regarding other issues. I still feel like it's going to be a rough next few months as there'll be a lot of changes in my life. I still worry about a lot. I still feel lonely. But right now...I feel free like I can handle it. One situation feels like it's been solved a weight gone and everything else feels lighter and bareable. I've decided to cultivate this feeling this energy and use it to keep on the path of moving foward.
I thank the gods for this. And I pray they help give me the strength and wisdom to face the troubles I got coming up. It's a lot but I can handle it. I'm happy. I'm free. I feel content and my mind has settled finally after months of warring. The pain is lesser then it was and I can run. I can sing and dance. Maybe now I'll have the energy to finish the occult books I been trying to read and rework my belief system. Maybe I can post about disability and the occult like I been meaning to.
I'm feeling hopeful for the future the light I been seeing is very bright and I feel like smiling again without forcing it.