Hello, I go by the name Dracoo,
My story starts with meth, yeah don't look down on me
I used to be a music producer hiphop / trap basically. then after being hooked on meth I decided to stop after 5 years of working almost daily, had my studio built from 0. Throughout my journey, I got to know a alot of underground rappers, producers, musicians etc.. through out my journey I've met people who claimed to do black magic, some didn't etc. and days passed & this topic died. Then I got hooked on meth & my goals changed from graduating college (had 3 more courses to finish) to becoming a kingpin. I rented a room in a small apartment on a roof that had 2 rooms. The other room had a couple who I later discovered were satanic. They were very lovely & were actually my friends. at that time i believed in magic & satanism but didn't believe in cults at all, I thought that they were of fake practices that made money for the cult owner. I wasn't in that room 24/7, It was around 2 - 3 days per week I used this room for my drug deals & to grow my weed, & cook my meth. I fell into a psychosis & started seeing & feeling things that were not there & some how traumatized the couple. & untill this day I didn't have any interest with the other side at all. It all started when I start seeing keywords & instructions on my meth pipe. one time while on meth I was watching one of those succubus porn things once where they draw a star on the floor & have candles & a turned off tv screen and a book that had certain certain drawings, So one day I copied the same senario at home. I started seeing things like writings on the walls, hearing sounds, I had an rgb light turned to red color, & whenever I did something wrong the red light would turn off. like wearing a metal bracelet the light would stay truned on, when I remove it the led would turn off etc.. with the guidance of that led & writings on my walls I started placing metal objects in different places in my room, wore different colthes, made a pyramid out of chopsticks, lit under it a candle,thought it would give energy to the room, & when I got confusesd I would ask what to wear etc & followed the guideline of the red light & the writings that I saw on the wall. I also had a mirror and from that mirror I saw something like a panther due to all that shadows of the lights etc.., as soon as I was waiting for that panther to come out, my door went bang bang bang, until this day she says she felt that I was in danger, she was scared that I might have ODed.
Now I'm clean, for around 3 months, I follow up with a psychologist & a phsyciatrist but I still see wierd stuff around in different place, like the images I've attached below. I don't want to discuss such topics with doctors at all, so could someone tell me is that part of psychosis & I should use medical help, or is it something that we should discuss here,
Thanks for reading all that I really appreciate it
imgur.com/a/BrChNkj
My story starts with meth, yeah don't look down on me
I used to be a music producer hiphop / trap basically. then after being hooked on meth I decided to stop after 5 years of working almost daily, had my studio built from 0. Throughout my journey, I got to know a alot of underground rappers, producers, musicians etc.. through out my journey I've met people who claimed to do black magic, some didn't etc. and days passed & this topic died. Then I got hooked on meth & my goals changed from graduating college (had 3 more courses to finish) to becoming a kingpin. I rented a room in a small apartment on a roof that had 2 rooms. The other room had a couple who I later discovered were satanic. They were very lovely & were actually my friends. at that time i believed in magic & satanism but didn't believe in cults at all, I thought that they were of fake practices that made money for the cult owner. I wasn't in that room 24/7, It was around 2 - 3 days per week I used this room for my drug deals & to grow my weed, & cook my meth. I fell into a psychosis & started seeing & feeling things that were not there & some how traumatized the couple. & untill this day I didn't have any interest with the other side at all. It all started when I start seeing keywords & instructions on my meth pipe. one time while on meth I was watching one of those succubus porn things once where they draw a star on the floor & have candles & a turned off tv screen and a book that had certain certain drawings, So one day I copied the same senario at home. I started seeing things like writings on the walls, hearing sounds, I had an rgb light turned to red color, & whenever I did something wrong the red light would turn off. like wearing a metal bracelet the light would stay truned on, when I remove it the led would turn off etc.. with the guidance of that led & writings on my walls I started placing metal objects in different places in my room, wore different colthes, made a pyramid out of chopsticks, lit under it a candle,thought it would give energy to the room, & when I got confusesd I would ask what to wear etc & followed the guideline of the red light & the writings that I saw on the wall. I also had a mirror and from that mirror I saw something like a panther due to all that shadows of the lights etc.., as soon as I was waiting for that panther to come out, my door went bang bang bang, until this day she says she felt that I was in danger, she was scared that I might have ODed.
Now I'm clean, for around 3 months, I follow up with a psychologist & a phsyciatrist but I still see wierd stuff around in different place, like the images I've attached below. I don't want to discuss such topics with doctors at all, so could someone tell me is that part of psychosis & I should use medical help, or is it something that we should discuss here,
Thanks for reading all that I really appreciate it
imgur.com/a/BrChNkj
