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I've received a lot of therapy, I'm very self-aware. I've been in therapy since I was 7, in and out of hospitals, DBT, CBT, EMDR, I've had it all, I guess it's a weird thing to be grateful for, but having to learn this insight from an early childhood give me a lot of benefit in Magickal workings.
I think that a lot of conflicts in modern day society, are as a result of a reluctance to acknowledge the darker aspects of the psyche, I do have some pretty weird and uncomfortable delusions which as a conflict of this psyche, a lot of them involve thinking or feeling that I'm going to end up causing some kind of cataclysmic event against my own will, when I don't really want to destroy. This battle between good and evil, or order and chaos represent some pretty deep meaning on a primordial level of the consciousness.
One thing I've noticed in therapy and among therapists especially, is that there is a tendency to ignore, or be dismissive of the darker aspects of the psyche, I try to mention and process some of these delusions and there is this uncomfortably, or tendency to dismiss it. I know I'm not the Beast in the book of Revelations, I know I'm not Hitler, or some other genocidal dictator, I know I'm not going to be responsible for causing or influencing a genocide, but I have some pretty vivid delusions and fears over repressing these aspects of the psyche. I want to get down to the nitty gritty, the ugliness of myself. Working on myself isn't all love and light, peace and happiness.
It's kind of like how society views death, I think a lot of modern day social problems are due to this tendency to completely neglect these aspects of the psyche. Crime, murder, genocide, war, anger, rage, depression, hopelessness. They are the shadow coming out unconsciously because we neglect it instead of being aware of it.
On to the primary discussion topic, I've thought about including this in Left Hand Path, but it probably fits better here. Does there need to be a change in our cultural understanding in terms of how we view and understand these topics, especially among practitioners of therapy, health clinicians, etc? Instead of ignoring the shadow and neglecting it, should we view it as not fighting against it and opposing it, but learning to work with it and alongside it?
The topic when mentioning some of my unconscious fears usually goes something like this:
"I have delusions that I'm going to be responsible for a genocide in this life"
Therapist gets noticibly uncomfortable "Oh, let's work on and practice mindfulness"
Mindfulness isn't what I need, it's just pushing them aside, I need to learn to understand and comprehend my fears.
I think that a lot of conflicts in modern day society, are as a result of a reluctance to acknowledge the darker aspects of the psyche, I do have some pretty weird and uncomfortable delusions which as a conflict of this psyche, a lot of them involve thinking or feeling that I'm going to end up causing some kind of cataclysmic event against my own will, when I don't really want to destroy. This battle between good and evil, or order and chaos represent some pretty deep meaning on a primordial level of the consciousness.
One thing I've noticed in therapy and among therapists especially, is that there is a tendency to ignore, or be dismissive of the darker aspects of the psyche, I try to mention and process some of these delusions and there is this uncomfortably, or tendency to dismiss it. I know I'm not the Beast in the book of Revelations, I know I'm not Hitler, or some other genocidal dictator, I know I'm not going to be responsible for causing or influencing a genocide, but I have some pretty vivid delusions and fears over repressing these aspects of the psyche. I want to get down to the nitty gritty, the ugliness of myself. Working on myself isn't all love and light, peace and happiness.
It's kind of like how society views death, I think a lot of modern day social problems are due to this tendency to completely neglect these aspects of the psyche. Crime, murder, genocide, war, anger, rage, depression, hopelessness. They are the shadow coming out unconsciously because we neglect it instead of being aware of it.
On to the primary discussion topic, I've thought about including this in Left Hand Path, but it probably fits better here. Does there need to be a change in our cultural understanding in terms of how we view and understand these topics, especially among practitioners of therapy, health clinicians, etc? Instead of ignoring the shadow and neglecting it, should we view it as not fighting against it and opposing it, but learning to work with it and alongside it?
The topic when mentioning some of my unconscious fears usually goes something like this:
"I have delusions that I'm going to be responsible for a genocide in this life"
Therapist gets noticibly uncomfortable "Oh, let's work on and practice mindfulness"
Mindfulness isn't what I need, it's just pushing them aside, I need to learn to understand and comprehend my fears.