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My life has always felt like an anomaly to myself. Whether it was a need to feel special or an actual observation at the oddity of my life I seem to always find myself in situations in which people would say “i cant believe that” Whether its seeing something a dozen times others spend their whole life without seeing, in a case of finding a small field of four leaf clovers. To experience professional find only on rare occasions, in a case of breaking a single bone in a situation where people'd broken many. I constantly find strange things in my waking life. And in my dreams.
I've always had very complex dreams as a child growing up. I remember one dream I had when I was a child at my mom's house. There was a hole in our backyard next to a tire swing that was there before we got the house. In my dream me, my mom, and my little brother were all digging in the hole excited at the prospect of something amazing below. Suddenly as we were digging the ground fell below me and I fell into darkness. It was pitch black and I seemed to float in the darkness. And in the darkness I saw a glimpse of something, a giant creature with scaled skin briefly wondered past my vision. I didn't get a good look but what I did see was like a leviathan passing only a few feet in front of me, and then I woke up.
Another dream I had was walking through a lush paradise forest. I followed an unbeaten path made through the vegetation pushing past branches and came to a clearing in which I found a small lake fed by a waterfall at the other end of the shore where I was standing. There was a man standing on a rock in front of the waterfall, his face was shrouded by a white bright light. In my dream I had the innate understanding that this was god. He rose in the air and raised his hands and a giant wave rose from the water and crashed down on me and I woke up.
The last dream I'll mention from my childhood is one where I was exploring the woods in my backyard and went to an old burning barrel and found a treasure chest full of gold. When I woke up the next day I went to the location and found a red backpack with guns and bullets in it. Being only a child at the time I brought the bag home and showed it to my mother who called the police to report the weapons which had been reported stolen and used in a robbery.
The reason I tell you this is because of recent occurrences I've experienced. Growing up I've always been fascinated with the occult, magic, and the spiritual. Collecting things like crystals and talismans or items I felt had innate spiritual energy. I'd try different rituals I'd found tutorials for to try and tap into this spiritual energy and awaken something in me but nothing extravagant ever happened as I'd hoped growing up.
Approximately 8 months ago I started practicing meditation and trance. I prepare by turning off all my lights, putting on my headphones, then covering my mouth with a face mask to prevent dust from getting in and covering my eyes with another eye covering so only my nose is not covered. I'll lay on my back blankets covering me up to my neck and pillows to support my head. I'll also light incense of sage and sandalwood. Then I'll find something on my phone to help me go into trance. I started out with a song I like playing on repeat, then I moved to Tibetan singing bowls and most recently I've been listening to this 852hz sound mix when I go into trance.
I use a mix method of the breathing exercises and body scan technique to pull myself into the trance. Breathing exercises is taking a deep breath in with your nose imagining good energy filling your body and exhaling through your mouth imagining bad and stressful energy leaving your body. While you do this you do the body scan technique which is staying completely still and focusing on one end of your body at a time working your way up releasing all the tension in your muscles. I usually start at my toes, then feet, then ankles, calves knees thighs etc. And if you do it right you should start to feel as if your body is going numb, disappearing.
Once your body has completely or almost completely "disappeared" you exercise thinking of nothing. This is the hardest part. You want no internal monologue, no emotion, no picturing anything. It sounds easy but the secret is not to focus or force thinking of nothing because when you try to think of nothing then you're thinking about thinking of nothing failing the exercises.
The reason I tell you this is because I've gotten some insane results from doing this that's made me question my own reality many times over. The first time I successfully did this method I fell into a trance and felt like I was floating off my bed. I was still completely conscious but my body felt as if it started to levitate off my bed and flashing lights of bright beautiful colors filled my mind. I felt completely at peace and when I woke up the next morning I felt as if I slept the best sleep in my life which is a common occurrence with this meditation.
The next weird occurrence was a dream I had where I continually kept waking up in a dream each time fully convinced I was waking up for real. I'd wake up in my own bed, start my day as normal then wake up in a different life as someone else and start my day as if I've lived this life my whole life before waking up in a different bed and do it again.
Another occurrence is similar to the lamp story on reddit dreaming of living a whole life just to notice you're in a dream and waking from it.
The last 2 occurrences of strangeness I've experienced have been the most intense.
The first of the 2 I found myself walking into a dark room with 2 chairs and a mirror on one of the walls. There was a dark figure completely made of darkness sitting in one of the chairs and I had the innate understanding this figure was my subconscious. I sat down in the other chair and talked to it. It was a two way conversation with a thing that had its own answers and questions that weren't my own. It asked me what I wanted from my meditations and I said I wanted to be more focused, committed and determined in life and we sat and talked about how I was doing in my life and how I could achieve what I wanted. I noticed a noise or a stirring coming from below us and asked what was below. It told me I didn't want to go down there because if we did we'd never come back, it's something older and more primal than the universe itself. I felt a malice or a sense of discomfort coming from the figure and tried to break myself out of the trance but felt compelled and unable to wake up. So in this dream-like meditative state I started to pray to any gods or powers to help get rid of this thing. After I prayed it vanished and I got up out of the chair and walked away from that area and slowly woke up from my trance.I looked at the clock and only 2 hours had passed.
The last occurrence was 2 nights ago as I write this.
I recently sustained an injury that made it uncomfortable to sleep normally in bed so I've been sleeping in my recliner instead of my bed because I find it more comfortable. And that night I did my preparations for my trance and during the trance I woke up in my chair and got up to use the restroom. I noticed that my fridge was missing and rubbed my eyes because I figured I was still a little groggy and it was there, then the same thing happened with my kitchen counter. And then I realized awake but still asleep I hadn't gotten out of my trance. So I broke myself out of trance and woke up and got out of my chair. And the same thing happened. I started to realize I was genuinely stuck in trance. I had set my alarm clock to go off before bed to wake myself up for a doctor's appointment and while I was continually waking up in my trance I could hear my alarm clock going off in the "real world" through my dreams. I was legitimately stuck unable to actually wake up each time thinking this was the real one.
I eventually broke free and was able to wake up for real but the whole experience in and of itself was extremely weird and left me unnerved and I haven't stopped thinking about it
Last night I also had a disturbing dream not related to a trance but still stuck with me.
I was in my apartment and I had a rash on my left shoulder that started getting worse. I was itching and it showed up on different parts of my body, it started to puff up and grow and I ran to the bathroom to look at it in the mirror. It started to puff up so much, getting more painful and eventually popped with puss and blood. It felt painful even in my dream. I picked at it and pulled out a weird chunky piece of flesh that sort of looked like gills. I remember my mom showing up at my place and was stressed about something else and hysterical. I showed her what was happening to me and she just said in a dismissive tone “that's not good”. I took the fleshy bloody gill piece I picked from my wound and reached up to the top of my fridge to grab a plastic sandwich bag to put it in, but when I grabbed a plastic bag I found other bags that already had the same fleshy gills in them that I didn't remember putting there.I threw the old bags away thinking to myself “these aren't good anymore” Still I grabbed a bag and put the fleshy gills inside.
I then went to the bathroom mirror again to look at myself in the mirror. I vividly remember looking at myself and seeing myself in the mirror and the whites of my eyes were a dark bloodshot red and my pupils were black and there were drops of blood leaking from my tear ducts, nose and mouth. I turned my head to look at my ears and a smoky clear puss started flowing out of my ears.
I ran to my mom pleading with her to take me to the doctor's and she said she didn't want to deal with this right now, I told her "mom look at my eyes, I need to go to the doctors" I had to convince her to take me to the doctors and she finally agreed. I went to grab the bag that had the piece of fleshy gills to show the doctor when we got there and started walking up to my mom who was now asleep curled up in my bed.
And that's when I woke up. When I woke up my heart was racing.
I plan on continuing my meditative trance practices and incorporating protective talismans and grounding devices and methods in hopes of protecting myself spiritually in the future. Before all this i had doubt in my mind that perhaps there was no higher power and the physical is really all there is. But after these moments all but a gram of my doubt exists.
I hope to join these forums and participate to learn more from others here while continuing to share any odd spiritual occurrences i experience in the days to come
I've always had very complex dreams as a child growing up. I remember one dream I had when I was a child at my mom's house. There was a hole in our backyard next to a tire swing that was there before we got the house. In my dream me, my mom, and my little brother were all digging in the hole excited at the prospect of something amazing below. Suddenly as we were digging the ground fell below me and I fell into darkness. It was pitch black and I seemed to float in the darkness. And in the darkness I saw a glimpse of something, a giant creature with scaled skin briefly wondered past my vision. I didn't get a good look but what I did see was like a leviathan passing only a few feet in front of me, and then I woke up.
Another dream I had was walking through a lush paradise forest. I followed an unbeaten path made through the vegetation pushing past branches and came to a clearing in which I found a small lake fed by a waterfall at the other end of the shore where I was standing. There was a man standing on a rock in front of the waterfall, his face was shrouded by a white bright light. In my dream I had the innate understanding that this was god. He rose in the air and raised his hands and a giant wave rose from the water and crashed down on me and I woke up.
The last dream I'll mention from my childhood is one where I was exploring the woods in my backyard and went to an old burning barrel and found a treasure chest full of gold. When I woke up the next day I went to the location and found a red backpack with guns and bullets in it. Being only a child at the time I brought the bag home and showed it to my mother who called the police to report the weapons which had been reported stolen and used in a robbery.
The reason I tell you this is because of recent occurrences I've experienced. Growing up I've always been fascinated with the occult, magic, and the spiritual. Collecting things like crystals and talismans or items I felt had innate spiritual energy. I'd try different rituals I'd found tutorials for to try and tap into this spiritual energy and awaken something in me but nothing extravagant ever happened as I'd hoped growing up.
Approximately 8 months ago I started practicing meditation and trance. I prepare by turning off all my lights, putting on my headphones, then covering my mouth with a face mask to prevent dust from getting in and covering my eyes with another eye covering so only my nose is not covered. I'll lay on my back blankets covering me up to my neck and pillows to support my head. I'll also light incense of sage and sandalwood. Then I'll find something on my phone to help me go into trance. I started out with a song I like playing on repeat, then I moved to Tibetan singing bowls and most recently I've been listening to this 852hz sound mix when I go into trance.
I use a mix method of the breathing exercises and body scan technique to pull myself into the trance. Breathing exercises is taking a deep breath in with your nose imagining good energy filling your body and exhaling through your mouth imagining bad and stressful energy leaving your body. While you do this you do the body scan technique which is staying completely still and focusing on one end of your body at a time working your way up releasing all the tension in your muscles. I usually start at my toes, then feet, then ankles, calves knees thighs etc. And if you do it right you should start to feel as if your body is going numb, disappearing.
Once your body has completely or almost completely "disappeared" you exercise thinking of nothing. This is the hardest part. You want no internal monologue, no emotion, no picturing anything. It sounds easy but the secret is not to focus or force thinking of nothing because when you try to think of nothing then you're thinking about thinking of nothing failing the exercises.
The reason I tell you this is because I've gotten some insane results from doing this that's made me question my own reality many times over. The first time I successfully did this method I fell into a trance and felt like I was floating off my bed. I was still completely conscious but my body felt as if it started to levitate off my bed and flashing lights of bright beautiful colors filled my mind. I felt completely at peace and when I woke up the next morning I felt as if I slept the best sleep in my life which is a common occurrence with this meditation.
The next weird occurrence was a dream I had where I continually kept waking up in a dream each time fully convinced I was waking up for real. I'd wake up in my own bed, start my day as normal then wake up in a different life as someone else and start my day as if I've lived this life my whole life before waking up in a different bed and do it again.
Another occurrence is similar to the lamp story on reddit dreaming of living a whole life just to notice you're in a dream and waking from it.
The last 2 occurrences of strangeness I've experienced have been the most intense.
The first of the 2 I found myself walking into a dark room with 2 chairs and a mirror on one of the walls. There was a dark figure completely made of darkness sitting in one of the chairs and I had the innate understanding this figure was my subconscious. I sat down in the other chair and talked to it. It was a two way conversation with a thing that had its own answers and questions that weren't my own. It asked me what I wanted from my meditations and I said I wanted to be more focused, committed and determined in life and we sat and talked about how I was doing in my life and how I could achieve what I wanted. I noticed a noise or a stirring coming from below us and asked what was below. It told me I didn't want to go down there because if we did we'd never come back, it's something older and more primal than the universe itself. I felt a malice or a sense of discomfort coming from the figure and tried to break myself out of the trance but felt compelled and unable to wake up. So in this dream-like meditative state I started to pray to any gods or powers to help get rid of this thing. After I prayed it vanished and I got up out of the chair and walked away from that area and slowly woke up from my trance.I looked at the clock and only 2 hours had passed.
The last occurrence was 2 nights ago as I write this.
I recently sustained an injury that made it uncomfortable to sleep normally in bed so I've been sleeping in my recliner instead of my bed because I find it more comfortable. And that night I did my preparations for my trance and during the trance I woke up in my chair and got up to use the restroom. I noticed that my fridge was missing and rubbed my eyes because I figured I was still a little groggy and it was there, then the same thing happened with my kitchen counter. And then I realized awake but still asleep I hadn't gotten out of my trance. So I broke myself out of trance and woke up and got out of my chair. And the same thing happened. I started to realize I was genuinely stuck in trance. I had set my alarm clock to go off before bed to wake myself up for a doctor's appointment and while I was continually waking up in my trance I could hear my alarm clock going off in the "real world" through my dreams. I was legitimately stuck unable to actually wake up each time thinking this was the real one.
I eventually broke free and was able to wake up for real but the whole experience in and of itself was extremely weird and left me unnerved and I haven't stopped thinking about it
Last night I also had a disturbing dream not related to a trance but still stuck with me.
I was in my apartment and I had a rash on my left shoulder that started getting worse. I was itching and it showed up on different parts of my body, it started to puff up and grow and I ran to the bathroom to look at it in the mirror. It started to puff up so much, getting more painful and eventually popped with puss and blood. It felt painful even in my dream. I picked at it and pulled out a weird chunky piece of flesh that sort of looked like gills. I remember my mom showing up at my place and was stressed about something else and hysterical. I showed her what was happening to me and she just said in a dismissive tone “that's not good”. I took the fleshy bloody gill piece I picked from my wound and reached up to the top of my fridge to grab a plastic sandwich bag to put it in, but when I grabbed a plastic bag I found other bags that already had the same fleshy gills in them that I didn't remember putting there.I threw the old bags away thinking to myself “these aren't good anymore” Still I grabbed a bag and put the fleshy gills inside.
I then went to the bathroom mirror again to look at myself in the mirror. I vividly remember looking at myself and seeing myself in the mirror and the whites of my eyes were a dark bloodshot red and my pupils were black and there were drops of blood leaking from my tear ducts, nose and mouth. I turned my head to look at my ears and a smoky clear puss started flowing out of my ears.
I ran to my mom pleading with her to take me to the doctor's and she said she didn't want to deal with this right now, I told her "mom look at my eyes, I need to go to the doctors" I had to convince her to take me to the doctors and she finally agreed. I went to grab the bag that had the piece of fleshy gills to show the doctor when we got there and started walking up to my mom who was now asleep curled up in my bed.
And that's when I woke up. When I woke up my heart was racing.
I plan on continuing my meditative trance practices and incorporating protective talismans and grounding devices and methods in hopes of protecting myself spiritually in the future. Before all this i had doubt in my mind that perhaps there was no higher power and the physical is really all there is. But after these moments all but a gram of my doubt exists.
I hope to join these forums and participate to learn more from others here while continuing to share any odd spiritual occurrences i experience in the days to come