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Story time.
I've been meaning to type this out for a few months now, tonite is the night.
It is the whole reason why I'm here in the first place.
December 2019,
I (Male, 17) [
︎ , ENTP ] met someone (Female, 15) [ 
︎ , INTP ] that killed me and awakened me. Like a Phoenix from the ashes.
Which is very fitting considering I am the Scorpio Sun, Mercury & Venus. And the original symbology of Scorpio was a phoenix (Now Eagle).
This relationship developed rapidly, we had perfect communication immediately, we mirrored one another in many ways,
we had the same patterns of thought that created a profoundly interlinked and multilayered connection, which brought intense attraction and
the full spectrum of human emotion.
In one line; my twin flame, a past-life karmic bond. Someone with which I felt an archaic sense of nostalgia. Time didn't exist when we were in each other's presence.
Even so, it all fell through. it was the right person, the wrong time.
She wanted me tokill myself, I didn't crack, her hate backfired.
It was brutal, super-concentrated evil, lots of energy.
I managed to integrate the pain & transmute it for my benefit.
I have no hate in me towards her, I shut down any ill thoughts my ego produces.
Because she was the last step for my full awakening. I know we both suffered a lot.
I'm just so sad that it ended like this, I know her pain.
October 31st, 2021
Was the last time I spoke with her.
Over the course of roughly 700 days she turned sour.
It went from complete wish fulfilment to a toxic prison, an energetic link chained to my back feeding off my energy. The light in me.
I could 100% feel my mental and emotional faculties being actively drained when in proximity, & especially after.
My psyche was being attacked, so I had to break those chains and cut off communication completely.
I had an actual lingering physical sensation, like a dull ache, emanating from the upper left side of my back.
Once it was done, I started having dreams with her, telepathic communications. We'd talk for a while.
The letter "A" mysteriously carved on the metal drain in my sink.
Moths appearing out of nowhere, one visited me at my window every few nights, for several weeks, last year.
One moth died in the ceiling light in my room while I was trying to remove it (Maybe I should take it out now?) :0
I still dream with her, I had 2, about 2 weeks ago, the latter being an unusually long lasting and profound dream.
I had a short day dream 4 days ago.
The catalyst for me finally typing all this out is that I saw her tonight at this climbing competition we both went to spectate.
When I got home, there was some poltergeist shit going on. A small aluminum tray flew off my kitchen counter behind my back.
A lid from this metal tea thermos just decided to jump off its container, again, just out of my field of view.
I go upstairs later to take a shower, and there was this tiny moth in my bathroom sink.
I think I've fleshed out the key idea of my story and my situation pretty well.
There is so much more that I could continue to write about; strange happenings, synchronicities, lingering wishes,
realizations, tarot readings, meditations, and the like.
Any advice or just acknowledgement would be cool
There's no way any normal person or therapist would be able to even begin unpacking this whacked out life path I'm on.
So I'm really happy to have found you guys!
I'll continue to update this with more details if y'all are intrigued. Helps Having people to bounce ideas off of.
Eternal Glory
I've been meaning to type this out for a few months now, tonite is the night.
It is the whole reason why I'm here in the first place.
December 2019,
I (Male, 17) [
︎ , ENTP ] met someone (Female, 15) [ ︎ , INTP ] that killed me and awakened me. Like a Phoenix from the ashes.Which is very fitting considering I am the Scorpio Sun, Mercury & Venus. And the original symbology of Scorpio was a phoenix (Now Eagle).
This relationship developed rapidly, we had perfect communication immediately, we mirrored one another in many ways,
we had the same patterns of thought that created a profoundly interlinked and multilayered connection, which brought intense attraction and
the full spectrum of human emotion.
In one line; my twin flame, a past-life karmic bond. Someone with which I felt an archaic sense of nostalgia. Time didn't exist when we were in each other's presence.
Even so, it all fell through. it was the right person, the wrong time.
She wanted me to
It was brutal, super-concentrated evil, lots of energy.
I managed to integrate the pain & transmute it for my benefit.
I have no hate in me towards her, I shut down any ill thoughts my ego produces.
Because she was the last step for my full awakening. I know we both suffered a lot.
I'm just so sad that it ended like this, I know her pain.
October 31st, 2021
Was the last time I spoke with her.
Over the course of roughly 700 days she turned sour.
It went from complete wish fulfilment to a toxic prison, an energetic link chained to my back feeding off my energy. The light in me.
I could 100% feel my mental and emotional faculties being actively drained when in proximity, & especially after.
My psyche was being attacked, so I had to break those chains and cut off communication completely.
I had an actual lingering physical sensation, like a dull ache, emanating from the upper left side of my back.
Once it was done, I started having dreams with her, telepathic communications. We'd talk for a while.
The letter "A" mysteriously carved on the metal drain in my sink.
Moths appearing out of nowhere, one visited me at my window every few nights, for several weeks, last year.
One moth died in the ceiling light in my room while I was trying to remove it (Maybe I should take it out now?) :0
I still dream with her, I had 2, about 2 weeks ago, the latter being an unusually long lasting and profound dream.
I had a short day dream 4 days ago.
The catalyst for me finally typing all this out is that I saw her tonight at this climbing competition we both went to spectate.
When I got home, there was some poltergeist shit going on. A small aluminum tray flew off my kitchen counter behind my back.
A lid from this metal tea thermos just decided to jump off its container, again, just out of my field of view.
I go upstairs later to take a shower, and there was this tiny moth in my bathroom sink.
I think I've fleshed out the key idea of my story and my situation pretty well.
There is so much more that I could continue to write about; strange happenings, synchronicities, lingering wishes,
realizations, tarot readings, meditations, and the like.
Any advice or just acknowledgement would be cool
There's no way any normal person or therapist would be able to even begin unpacking this whacked out life path I'm on.
So I'm really happy to have found you guys!
I'll continue to update this with more details if y'all are intrigued. Helps Having people to bounce ideas off of.
Eternal Glory