Honestly, I didn’t expect to see myself here, since I’ve been a skeptic all my life (and still am). However, life keeps hinting more and more that it’s time to pay attention and take a look at what’s hidden behind the veil.
I can’t sincerely say that I’m seeking knowledge for the sake of knowledge, or wisdom—and I’m a bit ashamed of that (doesn’t feel very respectable). Right now, I’ve turned to this for personal reasons— a desire, hunger and lust for material things has appeared.
To keep the thread active, I’ll ask a question to those more experienced and introduce myself at the same time: for a long time, I was devoted to the Light, but fate has knocked me down again—and this time it has planted real doubt. I’m tired of carrying the martyr’s cross; there have been too many trials for my kind soul. I picked up “Secrets of Magical Grimoires” and devoured it in one sitting. Now I find myself at a crossroads.
How did you find your path to the areas and directions of occultism that interest you and brought you success? Any advice for a beginner?