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The plants are healing me. So much filth is coming out. Deep, 'unhealable' pain, gone.
The stuff that pushes people past sanity, drained away.
Some of it was horrific, with 'black trips' being indescribably bad, and the better being much more pleasant with lava lamp visuals, and the event with the 'singing' pigeons.
It might sound odd, but this has been an inside affair, having been unable to get out into nature, nature came to me when I opened the window. Pigeons are regarded as dull birds, but even they are worshiping the creator source, I realized that fully when I head them sing.
Golden teacher really does teach, and due respect should be paid to it, as any student ought to a good teacher.
It's a relationship.
I have found it important to be familiar with basic meditation beforehand, and a good measure of discerning of spirits, especially where possession is involved. and be aware of Ego/Egos, you will get to know yourself and must be prepared to do so, no matter how vile you are or consider yourself to be. This means going against any established social norms, which are as far as I am concerned in the west, bullshit anyway. There is precious little I would not want to change in this 'society' of lies and trickery.
But I do aim for balance, balance is important in a world so full of extremes. One ought to be familiar with psychological principles, Jungian stuff, though most of my wisdom is strait from source and confirmed with external media.
I have experienced some difficulty in 'getting myself all back together' after a trip, as each time something dies a death and the building blocks of the mind need reconfiguration. I suspect that it is related to deep and complex trauma, rather than being specific to simply using plant medicine.
The intention is of course important, as there are many entities that would try to derail your progress through an experience. The unwary are easy prey.
I would like to learn how to best go about following this path as a natural medicine man and an Autist, which gives special insight and ablity that it seem the NT world does not posses. Far from claiming perfection, there is a difference that goes towards explaing 'Shamans disese'.
Part of this is about learning how to heal myself from muscular skeletal dis-ease, which apparently has it's roots in a family curse. It's a priority as I can't drum like this and drumming appears to be a large part of the work.
That and I have had enough of this crap anyway.
There is the temptation to wallow in pity to stay 'disabled'' on a cultural level, it seems to be expected to put it on display as a trophy, but as far as I am concerned, the correct direction is up.
It's time to move on to the mother of all plants who is calling me. The thought of 'purging' alarms me, I never liked that but strangly post vomit after illness always felt better. Explains some of the indiginous cultures.
I found this video (with surprising ease) basically, I can anwser to all with a resounding yes!
So to conclude, I am not the same and I am glad of it, time to move on along this path and make connections. I could really use a mentor to become proficient.
Namaste
The stuff that pushes people past sanity, drained away.
Some of it was horrific, with 'black trips' being indescribably bad, and the better being much more pleasant with lava lamp visuals, and the event with the 'singing' pigeons.
It might sound odd, but this has been an inside affair, having been unable to get out into nature, nature came to me when I opened the window. Pigeons are regarded as dull birds, but even they are worshiping the creator source, I realized that fully when I head them sing.
Golden teacher really does teach, and due respect should be paid to it, as any student ought to a good teacher.
It's a relationship.
I have found it important to be familiar with basic meditation beforehand, and a good measure of discerning of spirits, especially where possession is involved. and be aware of Ego/Egos, you will get to know yourself and must be prepared to do so, no matter how vile you are or consider yourself to be. This means going against any established social norms, which are as far as I am concerned in the west, bullshit anyway. There is precious little I would not want to change in this 'society' of lies and trickery.
But I do aim for balance, balance is important in a world so full of extremes. One ought to be familiar with psychological principles, Jungian stuff, though most of my wisdom is strait from source and confirmed with external media.
I have experienced some difficulty in 'getting myself all back together' after a trip, as each time something dies a death and the building blocks of the mind need reconfiguration. I suspect that it is related to deep and complex trauma, rather than being specific to simply using plant medicine.
The intention is of course important, as there are many entities that would try to derail your progress through an experience. The unwary are easy prey.
I would like to learn how to best go about following this path as a natural medicine man and an Autist, which gives special insight and ablity that it seem the NT world does not posses. Far from claiming perfection, there is a difference that goes towards explaing 'Shamans disese'.
Part of this is about learning how to heal myself from muscular skeletal dis-ease, which apparently has it's roots in a family curse. It's a priority as I can't drum like this and drumming appears to be a large part of the work.
That and I have had enough of this crap anyway.
There is the temptation to wallow in pity to stay 'disabled'' on a cultural level, it seems to be expected to put it on display as a trophy, but as far as I am concerned, the correct direction is up.
It's time to move on to the mother of all plants who is calling me. The thought of 'purging' alarms me, I never liked that but strangly post vomit after illness always felt better. Explains some of the indiginous cultures.
I found this video (with surprising ease) basically, I can anwser to all with a resounding yes!
So to conclude, I am not the same and I am glad of it, time to move on along this path and make connections. I could really use a mentor to become proficient.
Namaste