It's been a while since I've dabbled, (I've mostly lurked here), I may keep trying and see what happens.
I'm glad you've found a deck, but if it isn't calling to you, then you might start looking for one that does. And don't dabble, practice daily if you can. Magick works best when you really put your heart and energy into it.
I'd say it's better to make a start with "what works" and tweak it later. Go with what piques your interest.
Basically, see if you can find a deck that "speaks" to you. How you relate to the designs is more important than what they actually are.
I agree with these remarks wholeheartedly. My first deck was the Dreampower deck (1st edition) by R.J. Stewwart and Stuart Littlejohn, which is a non-standard deck. I knew nothing about Tarot or magick, but I had become interested in Tarot because of a personal crisis. As soon as I saw the Dreampower box I knew it was for me. It is still my favorite deck to this day. It has always told me the truth, even when I didn't want to hear it.
I've only used the Book of Thoth once, but it worked well for me, even though I'm not a Crowleyite. Again, you just need a deck that speaks to you on a deeper level through the symbolism.
Another thing that helped me out was finding Robert Wang's book Qabalistic Tarot - though it is more geared to the Golden Dawn cluster it does delve into the history behind the images and compares RW, BOT, GD and Marseilles.
I have that book too, although I'm still reading it. I like it a lot, although he assigns water to Briah and air to Yetzirah, which is non-standard because it disrupts the pattern of the increasing densities of the Four Worlds as one moves down the Tree of Life. But that's an easy work-around, and overall it's a very good book.
As for the RWS deck, of course I have it and did work with it for a while, but it made me realize that I prefer decks with labeled pips. Also, Dr. P.F. Case wrote that Waite included blinds in the deck and that he (Waite) made changes based on his personal preferences [Case, Dr. Paul Foster,
The Tarot: A Key to the Wisdom of the Ages, p.20]. I recommend Case's book to anyone interested in a deeper understanding of the Tarot. The deck used by BOTA remedied these problems, and BOTA's students are expected to color in the cards themselves as part of their training, which seems like a fine idea for tapping into some of the deeper aspects of the cards.
Obviously, whatever changes or blinds there might be in the RWS deck haven't stopped generations of people from working with it successfully since it was first published in 1909.