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Well, this should be fun.
I am being callously bullied and discriminated against by a narc landlord and the inept lackey manger over parking...in my parking space I pay for.
Its too big! We dont like it. A how dare you breath situation, in a damp squat of a house I am paying for.
Oh yes! And Autism, CPTSD and more plus I cant walk or stand properly. I actually don't really care about that anymore directly, it's more the indirect hatred for being different/disabled. It's hard not to conclude that people are universally stupid, not that they start out that way necessarily, but through the school system become amazingly stupid as the connection to source is repeatedly severed until they forget the spiritual completely. All by design. And some of us cant 'fake it till we make it', cos were to exhausted trying stay alive. It's more like 'fake it till you flake out'.
If they are not stupid then they must all be evil. There are exeptions of course.
As for magic, well I have a ton of potential but no real training, plus I am being blocked by internal problems I am seeking shamanic help for.
It's unrealistic to pretend I can fix all these problems with a wand, even if others can. I have justice issues to correct, a thread running through them all for a lifetime. There must be a curses still active, sneakily hiding in there somewhere. There has to be somehow to make this right.
I see how it's all connected, that's the strong psychic part working.
I swore I was going into natual or 'white' magic, but what that is seems to vary in opinion. And compared to starving to death or ever facing insomnia again, it makes tempory possesion in Voodo look appealing. But I have already had my brain scambled big time so, probably best not to. Not so much fear, just caution...
I hate posession, yuk yuk yuk. I'm still on a healing path to discover the mythical 'normal'.
What exactly could be done to fix the simple things like finding and maintaining peace, having enough money when you cant work and getting a home where I can be secluded without any one troubleing me?
It's really basic stuff that without it, there is no spiritual life, and with no spititual life, only bad habits, depression, addictions and no shields agains hungry ghosts.
Am I a buffet to them? If I dont get my spiritual work on, in two/three days I am in trouble as crap surfaces in me and I start getting icy chills.
It's exactly like the Vulcans in startrek, if they dont meditate they go nuts in a carnal orgy.
It is this that has made me reconsider where I ought to be, somehwere truly free, unlike the freedom that you pay for (sorry America).
I recently discovered there are Bhuddist monastaries in America that are open to people with disabilities and so on, which is good as the majority of mainstream Bhuddism seems to blame stuff that happens on to you. Biggest thing here again is financial. I would love to go for the Americana interest, especially the big steam choo choo's and the midwest.
Bhuddism that acknoledges deep truama from deliberate actions is what I might consider, but that doesnt seem to rock with their convenient worldview of Karma.
Thailand looks a very good option for the spiritual and my simple material needs.
Oh boy, what to do, is there a magical solution?
I am being callously bullied and discriminated against by a narc landlord and the inept lackey manger over parking...in my parking space I pay for.
Its too big! We dont like it. A how dare you breath situation, in a damp squat of a house I am paying for.
Oh yes! And Autism, CPTSD and more plus I cant walk or stand properly. I actually don't really care about that anymore directly, it's more the indirect hatred for being different/disabled. It's hard not to conclude that people are universally stupid, not that they start out that way necessarily, but through the school system become amazingly stupid as the connection to source is repeatedly severed until they forget the spiritual completely. All by design. And some of us cant 'fake it till we make it', cos were to exhausted trying stay alive. It's more like 'fake it till you flake out'.
If they are not stupid then they must all be evil. There are exeptions of course.
As for magic, well I have a ton of potential but no real training, plus I am being blocked by internal problems I am seeking shamanic help for.
It's unrealistic to pretend I can fix all these problems with a wand, even if others can. I have justice issues to correct, a thread running through them all for a lifetime. There must be a curses still active, sneakily hiding in there somewhere. There has to be somehow to make this right.
I see how it's all connected, that's the strong psychic part working.
I swore I was going into natual or 'white' magic, but what that is seems to vary in opinion. And compared to starving to death or ever facing insomnia again, it makes tempory possesion in Voodo look appealing. But I have already had my brain scambled big time so, probably best not to. Not so much fear, just caution...
I hate posession, yuk yuk yuk. I'm still on a healing path to discover the mythical 'normal'.
What exactly could be done to fix the simple things like finding and maintaining peace, having enough money when you cant work and getting a home where I can be secluded without any one troubleing me?
It's really basic stuff that without it, there is no spiritual life, and with no spititual life, only bad habits, depression, addictions and no shields agains hungry ghosts.
Am I a buffet to them? If I dont get my spiritual work on, in two/three days I am in trouble as crap surfaces in me and I start getting icy chills.
It's exactly like the Vulcans in startrek, if they dont meditate they go nuts in a carnal orgy.
It is this that has made me reconsider where I ought to be, somehwere truly free, unlike the freedom that you pay for (sorry America).
I recently discovered there are Bhuddist monastaries in America that are open to people with disabilities and so on, which is good as the majority of mainstream Bhuddism seems to blame stuff that happens on to you. Biggest thing here again is financial. I would love to go for the Americana interest, especially the big steam choo choo's and the midwest.
Bhuddism that acknoledges deep truama from deliberate actions is what I might consider, but that doesnt seem to rock with their convenient worldview of Karma.
Thailand looks a very good option for the spiritual and my simple material needs.
Oh boy, what to do, is there a magical solution?