Solve et coagula... Et solve.

[PinealisGlandia]

After my most recent breakdown and restructuring, I'm finding myself remarkably resistant to breaking down again for the next cycle. Has anyone noticed this happening to themselves at a stage in their growth cycle?

I'm just finding myself to be really content with how things are. Maybe this cycle the changes are more gradual? There is still shift in my life, it's just small things. But internally, really, I find myself very crystalized. And I don't want to stagnate.

The rule of life is "move or be moved", so I suppose the topic of discussion is: How do you keep yourself in a state of change when you feel like everything's fine the way it is?

edit: Sorry to the mods if this belongs in Q&A. It felt like a mix between that and a journal, so I stuck it in general, hope that's okay.

 

[AbammonTheGreat]

I do find it difficult some times. Sometimes the putrefaction isn't as black as it once previously was, sometimes I have a hard time removing the dross, discerning what the dross is. The fire sometimes never gets hot enough and I'm sitting there bashing my head against a wall begging for death while still holding on to amalgams. Sometimes I think of previous sublimations and alloys, and expect to see silver but am looking at iron.

But I think this comes down a lot to lust for results, impatience, and lack of presence. I need to focus more on being involved in the transmutation and letting go of any expectations, even those informed by my previous experiences. I need to just trust that the performance of the work is more important than the product. What we practice is an art. And while the science of our art is useful for technique our demiurgy is largely variable to space and time. I harbor a black hen and the beauty of its union with the cock is not within the insemination but in how they dance with each other, it is not for me to choose how the cock fertilizes the egg but to accept the cock when it approaches my hen.

 

[Morell]

Honestly, if you try to keep constantly changing, you are making unchanging state of changing. I think that you need not only state of change, but also change that into state of stability and have balance of both, sometimes one sometimes the other. Even stability and unchanging is a change, sometimes.
Just like with activity and pasivity, if constantly active, you exhaust yourself, you need time of pasivity to rest and regains strength, stability is good for such regeneration so one is then at full strength and sharpness of senses when it's time to get changing again.