somewhat a presentation...my story.

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hi! so, you can call me "morgs". im fairly new to witchcraft, and very much uncultured. i stumbled across this forum (it's the first time ever i sign in into one) by casuality. i was looking for a way to access to a book people say it's valid enough to get a first approach to la santa on reddit, and after stumbling on links for various esoteric libraries online, i clicked on the one that redirected me here. so, up untill now the informations i found on her and her cult (???) (is this how's it called?) are on youtube and a small percentage by direct devotees on tiktok but ofc i know that i need to do personal study so that's why im here. i'll precise im italian, sicilian to be exact, and have no connection whatsoever (as far as i know) with mexican/native american heritage. so you might be wondering why her? well...i'm not really sure. when i firstly dreamt of her in may or june i was in a very bad mental health state. i had just recently tried to [...] and my mother took me with her to her workplace in pantelleria, a small island between sicily and tunis. in the weeks between the deed and the dream i had just...innocently started to reconnect with my inner child by picking up things i remembered i liked to do. mainly artistically related. meanwhile i also reconnected with a very dear friend who i knew practiced and had a lovely relationship with lucifer as a guide (didn't think about that at the beginning, i was just missing my friend, just later on i connected the dots) plus, i very impulsively bought the first tarot deck i could find in my small city. ignoring the fact that i dont like spending money on things that are not that essential . ofc when i came back home i was very happy because i had procrastinated years on buying one because of that reason, so... i kind of considered my step towards what i had always wanted to do but managed to find stupid excuses not to. so yeah, that's it. then the dream happened meanwhile in pantelleria with my mother. let me know if you would like a recall of the dream if that's interesting for you. but the thing is that before someone mentioned that name in the dream, i had never come across it. so i was very confused. i talked about it with my friend, who for context is argentinian/brazilian, to have an opinion on the matter. well, since then we talked more about esoteric and occult matters; of course i don't want to exploit her AHAHAAH asking contiuous confirmations because of my poor knowledge and insecurity, so yeah...im here. clearly la santa is not the only one im researching on. i think this might be all. having "the hermit" as the central arcana and the code 9-9-18 in the destiny code might be a plus to know me, as well as the fact that since a child i have been deeply tuned in with my dreams and all that come with it. i hope to find a good comunity here where i can learn and expand my habilities.