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I don't invoke for material things and this is why.
Have I had Magick go horribly wrong before? Yes. When I first started doing the LBRP, in 2015, I began having a lot of dissociation and syncronicities. I had a dreamlike memory where I ran into my elementary school psychologist, he came up to me, recognized me, came up to say hi, I remember feeling anger (I never feel emotions in dreams) things went blank and I remember telling him "If you were really sorry then you would kill yourself." He then committed suicide around the time when I had the dreamlike memory occur. I then quit practicing Magick for a few years until I could better handle myself.
Shortly either after or before that I have another memory where I connected with a state of consciousness where I could see how an event would lead to a reaction months if not years, I wrote this message which I don't remember writing, I saved it and kept it all these years.
"No external god, teacher, doctor, angel, magician, therapist, mentor, or friend can heal me, for the healing work can only be done by me. I can't wait for life to come and cure me of my problems, suffering and defects, a miracle isn't going to be granted by an angel, for the only one who's capable of my own healing is the god that resides inside my mind, body, spirit and soul. That god is me."
The only thing I invoke for is to better know and understand myself. I think it works.
Can someone explain what the fuck happened the first time I practiced Magick?
About this, I did ask Lucifer to let me know what happened exactly so I could. "take responsibility for my actions" and he kept on telling me to let it go and said "Forgive yourself for the part you played, but give those who you believe you harmed the advocacy of their own choice"
I just may have killed someone with Magick and I don't even know if I did. I should at the least take responsibility and know for sure so something like that doesn't occur again.
Have I had Magick go horribly wrong before? Yes. When I first started doing the LBRP, in 2015, I began having a lot of dissociation and syncronicities. I had a dreamlike memory where I ran into my elementary school psychologist, he came up to me, recognized me, came up to say hi, I remember feeling anger (I never feel emotions in dreams) things went blank and I remember telling him "If you were really sorry then you would kill yourself." He then committed suicide around the time when I had the dreamlike memory occur. I then quit practicing Magick for a few years until I could better handle myself.
Shortly either after or before that I have another memory where I connected with a state of consciousness where I could see how an event would lead to a reaction months if not years, I wrote this message which I don't remember writing, I saved it and kept it all these years.
"No external god, teacher, doctor, angel, magician, therapist, mentor, or friend can heal me, for the healing work can only be done by me. I can't wait for life to come and cure me of my problems, suffering and defects, a miracle isn't going to be granted by an angel, for the only one who's capable of my own healing is the god that resides inside my mind, body, spirit and soul. That god is me."
The only thing I invoke for is to better know and understand myself. I think it works.
Can someone explain what the fuck happened the first time I practiced Magick?
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About this, I did ask Lucifer to let me know what happened exactly so I could. "take responsibility for my actions" and he kept on telling me to let it go and said "Forgive yourself for the part you played, but give those who you believe you harmed the advocacy of their own choice"
I just may have killed someone with Magick and I don't even know if I did. I should at the least take responsibility and know for sure so something like that doesn't occur again.
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