As I am entering soon into Theoricus, the Qabalistic world of Yetzirah, apparitions appear more real supposedly.
My body and mind are not as they used to be, and I've had multiple life stressors in a given year for a decade straight.
So, life meaning and purpose, from deity to man are what I search for now.
Sex, drugs and rock n roll are not prime assets in life for me in my mid fifties.
I'm continuing to Portal from Zelator now, at the pace of 6 to 12 months per grade.
One magical aim.
To evoke successfully the angels 9f the zodiac as I enter into a fair knowledge from none in astrology, the shem angels.
A second magical aim.
Self purification, all vices turned to virtues, and living a virtuous life for the glory of the Most High God.
A third magical aim.
To pursue the Philosophers Stone.
A fourth magical aim.
To have a strong will and control of the aura.
The fifth Magickal aim.