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I came across Universal Mastery youtube channel 'accidentally', (synchronicity) and found many hours of useful material.
Another professional magician I thought? Well yes, and strait up 'black', very honest about what he does. Most useful to me is where he discusses natural law, or what really come down to what I see as the operational parameters. Curse an innocent, like someone who just ticks you off-bad juju for you amplified x10, might not even hurt the target. Curse someone who has seriously transgressed against you, to the point where you are inconsolable-the target gets a good full taste of your vengeance, and so do you, but no more than x1. And in doing do, it burns out your grievance and you feel exhausted, but better. Now this is interesting to me, in that as being strong fire sign, I have never found it easy to forgive, and even when I thought I had, I really had not and would keep 'unforgiving'.
Religion told me to forgive, and ultimately it's necessary to move on, but this is the second occultist vlogger who promotes cursing as part of the forgiveness process.
My 'cursing' thus far is simply to write down how I feel about it, and read it out aloud with as much power as possible, which was forbidden, so seems super edgy at first.
When I was small, I was not allowed to have emotions and if any of my stuff was broken by my siblings, I never had any attempt by anyone to make the situation 'right' so the hurt of loss runs deep. I go through periods of not feeling until it resurfaces.
It's the original abusers, parents, authority figures, the school system itself and bullies that really cut, not being able to do anything (powerlessness) made God into a torturer, it created a skewed sense of right and wrong. I know it's all about polarity but some seem to push it so far as to what I struggle to call anything else but evil.
A phrase game to me today:
Dark good.
Surely if you use dark good defensively it equates effectively to the same use as defensive physical force?
I am maturing pretty fast and have managed to become an 'arsehole' on demand much better that I used to, to be assertive and avoid being used, all technically LHP. I don't pretend to be nice, but I am 'good'. I tell folk what they need to hear or I don't bother. I do it out of ultimate love, even if the immediate stings. It's not made any easier by social anxiety and deranged attacks by the germ phobic.
Justice is important to me and much needs to be put right. I have an issue with a slumlord now who seriously needs straitening out. Thinks he's clever. He's been screwing people out of money and neglecting property maintenance for years, as well as being outright threatening and intimidating. Made me sick. He wouldn't care if I died and my corpse stank out the place.
Perhaps his father beat him with a belt everyday, it doesn't give him the right to destroy my life.
I realised he's insecure, a problem I also have to handle. So if I were able to err...arrange something unpleasant, it would core me out too x1, I guess.
I find LHP horrifying and fascinating but don't want to trash myself spiritually, like feeding existing problems. Heh, I'm already trashed. I have had enough of being a victim. What would Jesus do? Knotted rope...
Another professional magician I thought? Well yes, and strait up 'black', very honest about what he does. Most useful to me is where he discusses natural law, or what really come down to what I see as the operational parameters. Curse an innocent, like someone who just ticks you off-bad juju for you amplified x10, might not even hurt the target. Curse someone who has seriously transgressed against you, to the point where you are inconsolable-the target gets a good full taste of your vengeance, and so do you, but no more than x1. And in doing do, it burns out your grievance and you feel exhausted, but better. Now this is interesting to me, in that as being strong fire sign, I have never found it easy to forgive, and even when I thought I had, I really had not and would keep 'unforgiving'.
Religion told me to forgive, and ultimately it's necessary to move on, but this is the second occultist vlogger who promotes cursing as part of the forgiveness process.
My 'cursing' thus far is simply to write down how I feel about it, and read it out aloud with as much power as possible, which was forbidden, so seems super edgy at first.
When I was small, I was not allowed to have emotions and if any of my stuff was broken by my siblings, I never had any attempt by anyone to make the situation 'right' so the hurt of loss runs deep. I go through periods of not feeling until it resurfaces.
It's the original abusers, parents, authority figures, the school system itself and bullies that really cut, not being able to do anything (powerlessness) made God into a torturer, it created a skewed sense of right and wrong. I know it's all about polarity but some seem to push it so far as to what I struggle to call anything else but evil.
A phrase game to me today:
Dark good.
Surely if you use dark good defensively it equates effectively to the same use as defensive physical force?
I am maturing pretty fast and have managed to become an 'arsehole' on demand much better that I used to, to be assertive and avoid being used, all technically LHP. I don't pretend to be nice, but I am 'good'. I tell folk what they need to hear or I don't bother. I do it out of ultimate love, even if the immediate stings. It's not made any easier by social anxiety and deranged attacks by the germ phobic.
Justice is important to me and much needs to be put right. I have an issue with a slumlord now who seriously needs straitening out. Thinks he's clever. He's been screwing people out of money and neglecting property maintenance for years, as well as being outright threatening and intimidating. Made me sick. He wouldn't care if I died and my corpse stank out the place.
Perhaps his father beat him with a belt everyday, it doesn't give him the right to destroy my life.
I realised he's insecure, a problem I also have to handle. So if I were able to err...arrange something unpleasant, it would core me out too x1, I guess.
I find LHP horrifying and fascinating but don't want to trash myself spiritually, like feeding existing problems. Heh, I'm already trashed. I have had enough of being a victim. What would Jesus do? Knotted rope...
