From my own technical perspective I relate such perceptions to what has been called the "Active Intellect". This is associated with what some historical occultists called "frenzies" or "mania", which is one of the keys to a "prophetic consciousness". These can be pretty tricky distinctions based on levels of knowledge and understanding.
However, without more information on how you achieve a "certain state of mind", whether this is a result of study, or ritual practice, or a natural inclination, I can not say much more about it. I could vaguely say you might be mediumistic, but that would depend on how your experience extends into other experiences.
interesting… The light sparks will just come, when i need. Im not shore how i get to this state of mind, because it just happen. It is natural, so much i can tell, because this have been with me since i was 3-4 years old, so for as long as i can remember.
When i was little it started accouring after some traumatic episodes i think, and when i was feeling alone and that nobody loved me, this lightning sparks got my attention, and i felt loved and relaxed knowing that a bigger force than a mother or father was there for me.
Later its been like a guidance, when im on the right path it would show and gave me confidence to hold my path that it would be worth it in the end, that i must not give up.
I could also see numbers, always 11:11 or 22:22. and a little spark to get my attention to the numbers somehow i think.
Last time i saw this light, and 11:11 came also was a couple weeks ago. I was then ready to take care of myself, after long period of nothing «magick» happening to me. I was just doing some yoga and listening to my favorite energic music i hadn listen to for a long time, and was doing greetings to the sun, breathing in all the energy and just connecting with the rythm of the universe and all being. And then a spark of light and 11:11.
The servitors/tulpas i make appear as balls of light/orbs when not taking on a form. When they are active, i have seen them as flashes of light. I get the impression many entities default or true form is an orb, and they take on humanoid forms to identify themselves to us. You would have to do divination to find out exactly what you are seeing. They certainly sound very positive.
Thanx, i must check it out, ive never heard of servitors or tulpas.
