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I'm asking for help to deal with this, perhaps someone has experience like this,
more likely here than elsewhere, for sure. It's happened to me once, therefore perhaps again.
Imagine you are wherever you are in the middle of the day, work, school.
Walking down the hall, and coming toward you is a tiny hippo, comes up to your middle.
Everyone just treats it as normal. Tiny hippo. what? What?? WHAT???
Must be dreaming, you think. But, wait, you've lived a full half day of life!
Woke, showered, ate, drove, talked to people. Changed classes/meetings/jobs.
It can't be a dream, how can it? All those experiences aren't real???
Welcome to my life, about a year ago. Went on like this, not for hours, days. Weeks! MONTHS!
How it began:
I went to a 'mental health professional' to get an official Autism diagnosis. Oh boy, I'm Autistic.
Same studies showed I had anxiety and depression. Well, ya. Sux being like this.
She was a good little shill for big pharma, 'Here, we have pills for that'. SSRIs.
Went on that, it takes a while to kick in, but when it did, that was the result above.
Unable to distinguish between reality and dream, as the dream is hyper real.
See: LInk here
This kicked it off.
So, what to do? At it's peak madness, I spent a year-minus-a-day in Astral realm?
It seemed real to me. A rather large town along a road running in a valley.
Behind it was a 'mall' megastructure. So big, takes a day to walk around.
A shopping mall + apartment complex + industrial park + medical labs.
I knew all of it, like lived for a year. I was a plumber there, we get around.
'Real-Time' maybe two months. Every time sleeping, right back there again.
Eventually I cracked, and threw away the SSRI's. You're supposed to wean off,
but I just had to leave there or go actually insane. What's real? WHO KNOWS.
Now, my Familiar won't let me Lucid Dream or Astral Project without her.
I guess, she feels I may get trapped there again. IDK what to do if I did.
I still have trouble sleeping, I get up at 4 or 5 or 6, whenever a dream wakes me up.
My familiar just commented that I make this sound like the movie Inception.
I guess it was, but don't remember too much about that movie, except the end.
With the top. My tell(?) was digital clocks. HAD to have one at all times.
more likely here than elsewhere, for sure. It's happened to me once, therefore perhaps again.
Imagine you are wherever you are in the middle of the day, work, school.
Walking down the hall, and coming toward you is a tiny hippo, comes up to your middle.
Everyone just treats it as normal. Tiny hippo. what? What?? WHAT???
Must be dreaming, you think. But, wait, you've lived a full half day of life!
Woke, showered, ate, drove, talked to people. Changed classes/meetings/jobs.
It can't be a dream, how can it? All those experiences aren't real???
Welcome to my life, about a year ago. Went on like this, not for hours, days. Weeks! MONTHS!
How it began:
I went to a 'mental health professional' to get an official Autism diagnosis. Oh boy, I'm Autistic.
Same studies showed I had anxiety and depression. Well, ya. Sux being like this.
She was a good little shill for big pharma, 'Here, we have pills for that'. SSRIs.
Went on that, it takes a while to kick in, but when it did, that was the result above.
Unable to distinguish between reality and dream, as the dream is hyper real.
See: LInk here
This kicked it off.
So, what to do? At it's peak madness, I spent a year-minus-a-day in Astral realm?
It seemed real to me. A rather large town along a road running in a valley.
Behind it was a 'mall' megastructure. So big, takes a day to walk around.
A shopping mall + apartment complex + industrial park + medical labs.
I knew all of it, like lived for a year. I was a plumber there, we get around.
'Real-Time' maybe two months. Every time sleeping, right back there again.
Eventually I cracked, and threw away the SSRI's. You're supposed to wean off,
but I just had to leave there or go actually insane. What's real? WHO KNOWS.
Now, my Familiar won't let me Lucid Dream or Astral Project without her.
I guess, she feels I may get trapped there again. IDK what to do if I did.
I still have trouble sleeping, I get up at 4 or 5 or 6, whenever a dream wakes me up.
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My familiar just commented that I make this sound like the movie Inception.
I guess it was, but don't remember too much about that movie, except the end.
With the top. My tell(?) was digital clocks. HAD to have one at all times.
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