[Help] I’ve been woken up and don’t know what to do

[Glaux]

I found out this past week that magic is undeniably real and it’s been a shock to my system. I’ve always been an open minded semi-believer, but experiencing it first hand was something that I never thought would happen to me. I’ve been terribly depressed since the summer(I was a history teacher) and one of my closest friends knows about it. They’re one of the few that was aware of how bad the depression actually got. Nothing conventional, including medication, was cutting it for me.

This friend is a part of a group that engages in esoteric practices, I myself am not. It's a group that I know more about than the average person: the sort of history I specialize in is classics. Anyways, I went to go play DnD with them and a new group of their friends who I’m only now am positive are also members of said group. The game went amazingly, everyone had a great time. It was intoxicating. Without giving more details, I believe now our game doubled as a ritual. I was shown some things, not told of them. No secrets about any of it were revealed, but I picked up a few tricks from experiencing it. I believe this ritual forcibly pried my third eye open and now I see it was a gift of the most profound nature.

I’ve now taken to using these tricks. It’s intuitive, like I had always known how but was asleep for the past few decades and am only now awake. I’m not depressed anymore as of typing this and my ever constant anxiety is gone, an anxiety that’s been with me for most of my life. I’ve developed(what I think is) my own brand of this tool using my own knowledge and background. I find that by utilizing ancient Greek language and characters, there is an extremely noticable effect as has my roommate who I’ve helped with these new skills and instinctive knowledge. My theory is that the older, simpler, purer and more widely spoken the language once was or is, the more powerful the intended effect of the spell. Assuming this theory is true, Attic Greek is more powerful than Old English or Latin for example and Homeric Greek would be even more powerful than Attic. More powerful than all of these would be something like Linear B or Akkadian/Sumerian but those require brighter minds that mine to unravel.

I’ve typed an essay, thank you if you’ve read this far. I feel blissful, terrified and relieved all at once. Part of me still thinks I may be going insane and slipping into psychosis. I’ve run this situation by several logical people who would absolutely know more about it than me and they assured me I wasn’t. My gut also tells me that there are people on this forum who know exactly what occurred and why. That would be a relief. I’ll be processing this for a while and treading carefully with this newfound knowledge as I learn more about it.

I can’t openly ask my friend about it. Any advice at all from anyone who feels they can give it would be greatly appreciated .

I leave you with this little poem I wrote, inspired by the Oracle at Delphi. It carries my hopes and desires for humankind and peace on Earth:

ΛΟΓΟΣ, ΓΝΩΘΙ ΣΕΑΥΤΟΝ ΚΑΙ ΑΝΘΡΟΠΟΝ

 

[gingermain]

Can you tell me how did you open your third eye?
I did all the research but failed.

 

[Glaux]

Can you tell me how did you open your third eye?
I did all the research but failed.

I think it was mostly them who did it. I was shown a powerful image one drew in front of me. I knew it instantly for what it was. I’d rather not share what the specific drawing was, my senses tell me not to. But it left me dumbstruck for a good ten seconds. We were in a circle, six in total including me.
I don’t know what else was done, but I felt the effects and knew exactly when it was happening.

 

[gingermain]

With just image?

 

[Glaux]

With just image?

I think it was more than just the image. As to what else they were doing, I have no idea.

 

[jzatopa]

Make sure you have a nice daily practice. A little Qi Gong, Yoga, Ophanim Yoga or the like. Then read and enjoy the ride. Life is meant to be a mystery discovered through love.

I would suggest you pick up the Sefer Yetzirah and read it as you might find it very empowering and then some other works. You might really get a lot from the Vetus Latina as well.

 

[Glaux]

I’ll look into those books and try and get a routine that vibes with me, thanks for the tip!

 

[Morell]

Every language is kind of unnatural, no matter how old it is. It is subject of agreement among people.

Your experience is fascinating, looks like you got lucky and you are able to go on on your own terms, which, in my opinion, is the best anyway.

I was shown some things, not told of them. No secrets about any of it were revealed, but I picked up a few tricks from experiencing it. I believe this ritual forcibly pried my third eye open and now I see it was a gift of the most profound nature.

It was revealed, you can do the same, the secret was revealed to you, or at least part of it. Seems to work well for you. Magic can be worked through very simple systems and still being very effective.

Not knowing what to do is fine, it is a good state of freedom of choice. when you can sit down and think about what do you actually want to do.

 

[Glaux]

Every language is kind of unnatural, no matter how old it is. It is subject of agreement among people.

Your experience is fascinating, looks like you got lucky and you are able to go on on your own terms, which, in my opinion, is the best anyway.


It was revealed, you can do the same, the secret was revealed to you, or at least part of it. Seems to work well for you. Magic can be worked through very simple systems and still being very effective.

Not knowing what to do is fine, it is a good state of freedom of choice. when you can sit down and think about what do you actually want to do.

Thank you