Journal God Has Threatened Me?

[albie]

I post some very odd images that I make on Twitter. For instance I posted a pic of Christ on the cross but with Freddy Krueger's head superimposed upon Christ's face.

(I had seen the word RUE in his name. The remaining letters spelled out GREK FRDDY...of greek friday. I searched the term online and it came up with a page for GOOD FRIDAY. When christ was crucified.

So I planned to make a picture of God...maybe being a TAD blasphemous...and firstly, as I typed GOD into a search engine the autocorrect kept changing it to GODADDY! Apt?

I managed to put in the correct word and when I did a book fell of a nearby shelf--I do all my internetting in the local library.

I went to look at the book. It was about a company called NEEDLERS. They were a local company who made sweets.

GULP!

When I was around ten I was sucking one of their boiled sweets--for maybe a minute-- and for some reason swallowed it whole. It didn't choke me but it lodged in the back of my mouth. I couldn't get it out. I was like that for ten minutes. I tried to swallow it a few times but it wouldn't shift. It was horrible. I felt it would be there forever. I was pacing up and down in worry. Eventually I was sick and out it came. Even though it was out I still kept pacing nervously--as if it were still there.

Years later I developed a fear of swallowing which still affects me now. I cannot drink out of a cup--I have to use a straw and only for a minute before the panic stops me.

Did God do that to me? Did he make the book fall off the shelf as a warning that he may do it again if I made a weird picture of him?

Or was it my own deeply ingrained fear plus a bit of telekinesis that made that book tumble?

 

[Yazata]

I moved this into the Journal section. Please keep any following posts in this thread because this really is not relevant to the LHP section

 

[albie]

I moved this into the Journal section. Please keep any following posts in this thread because this really is not relevant to the LHP section

Oh. I thought as I was messing with God...sorry.

 

[Wintruz]

Did God do that to me? Did he make the book fall off the shelf as a warning that he may do it again if I made a weird picture of him?

No and no.

The cost for acting out of alignment isn't a book falling from a shelf but a slow, corrosive descent into delusion and entropy (energy leakages, unable to function properly, etc.). This is reversed (again, slowly) after getting serious and starting to act in alignment.

 

[Ziran]

was it my own deeply ingrained fear plus a bit of telekinesis that made that book tumble?

.... there's another possibility.

What you're describing would validate the significance of the art you're producing. If God is angry, then your art had touched a nerve, assuming God has nerves, and that means your art is potent, which is what you desire? If so, then what you're describing on the surface sounds bad, but, in your case is a measure of success which could be encouraging a delusion hiding in plain sight.

It's "parrallelomania", seeing far-fetched parallels or correspondences as likely when they're unlikely as a form of wishful thinking.

It's also the "sharp shooter" fallacy if you're only considering the one type of phenomena in isolation of the many outliers. In other words: " anyone can be a sharp-shooter, if they're only counting the bullseyes." In your case, you could be only counting the phenomena which would indicate an angry God in isolation of many counter-examples.

 

[HellenaHex]

I don’t think God, as in the Christian deity, is mad at you. There are far worse things happening in the world and he just allows them to. But I am sorry swallowing is so stressful for you. That is unfortunate.

 

[Umi0]

I mean, if you think about it. The christian God had to endure far worse things than a few silly pictures made for fun. I don't think God is angry at you, but if you think you're doing something wrong... Why not stop for a while to not get all that self blame?

Your mechanism of thinking, I had it too before I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia, well, after a not so nice episode but I am fine now, I even take the pill far less regularly and have quite an alright life, not perfect, but good. You're doing your work, as we all are, but if it gets too much, maybe a bit more grounding and slowing down of your life will help a bit. Too much information overload and spirit can and will cause madness. Especially information that spark a conflict of beliefs within yourself, although your spirit grows through that, but there is a price, as with all things here.