1st Mushroom Experience

[Milton]

Been contemplating Psilocybin for a long time as I heard about its "healing" properties to cure depression and its ability to "open the mind"
Pulled the trigger recently and decided to actually perform the experience today. 30 grams of fresh Golden Teacher mushrooms.
The experience was quite intense at first, sharp rivers of blood, castles of rage, red wings of thunder expressing anger .. Though I kept calm and navigated through that fine. I knew what was wrong with me and was expecting something of that nature.

The interesting part was seeing a giant faraway castle with a big black face above it (which I later realized was Mahakala). It didn't care about me and shoved me away. Later, there were small visions of life and rebirth in the forest (the typical experience we hear about). Then I saw Mahakala again. This sounds crazy. I surrendered and asked for answers, but I got the sense that I didn't deserve them and shouldn't demand anything. It knew I was of the Abrahamic God and expressed anger toward me.


During the trip I was trying to map what I saw, what was it what I saw, the Demiuge? Where is the Monad? Or are these.. just earthly entities? Why Mahakala?
I was “punished” for overthinking and for trying to control and map everything. I wanted the experience to end sooner.. and was punished for that too, as I was told that this isn't something I do then leave.


Overall I was calm. Just.. I don't know how to describe it. Wouldn't categorize it as "negative"

I was never interested in Buddhism. It might indeed be just hallucinations.. Though I won't lie and say that I am indeed interested now in it after this experience.

Mixed thoughts..

Yes call me crazy all you want, yet somehow.. I do not really regret the experience.

Is there any symbolism behind Mahakala? Carl Jung supposedly was into Tibetan Buddhism, though I never read him.

 

[stalkinghyena]

I am not familiar with Mahakala in particular, but my general understanding of the wrathful Tibetan deities is that they serve the function of the Buddha as parent pulling a child's hand away from a fire or from being hit by a car. Their action is harsh, swift and sudden, and can be painful, but it goes something like that saying from the movie Jacob's Ladder: "The demons are really angels, trying to set you free."

I had a really bad trip when I was a teenager that opened me to the immanence of pure cosmic personal horror. But I view this as an initiation. Later on, I came to understand the Nous, which could be equivalent to the Dharma, I guess.

It's amazing how many "people" live inside one's head, all of them thinking at any given moment that they are the real person when they take over the driver's seat. A bunch of dicks if you ask me, though forgivable in the sense that they manifestations of the ignorance that is necessary for corporeal cohesion. Psilocybin is a good too for exposing "them" and discerning their archontic functions. Not every one has time to sit for weeks under a Bodhi tree and hash out the illusions - but I have heard (and well... experienced) that Vajrayana is the Mahayana where you throw gasoline onto the fire.

 

[embitca]

During the trip I was trying to map what I saw, what was it what I saw, the Demiuge? Where is the Monad? Or are these.. just earthly entities? Why Mahakala?
I was “punished” for overthinking and for trying to control and map everything. I wanted the experience to end sooner.. and was punished for that too, as I was told that this isn't something I do then leave.

I have not been punished for it, but I find that when I am trying to "drive" the trip or when I start concentrating and focusing on something in particular it immediately starts changing while I'm "looking" at it, whereas when I let the mushroom lead it goes in a different direction. But I still tr and drive the bus most of the time I often do an audio recording of my trips and will try and audio journal it while it is happening. I should probably stop doing that and just get into the flow... but I'm not built that way. The mushroom keeps telling me to relax and let go, but she's understanding it takes me some time

 

[Firetree]

The 'clearer of obstacles ' ;

... a compassionate figure appearing in a terrifying form to guide individuals on the path to enlightenment by clearing ego and mental disturbances and 'transcending worldly limitations '

- for a good mushroom trip ; talk to the 'deva' first and relay your intentions for the 'operation' and ask for assistance !


I wanted to link to a reference on this but could not find one ... so I resorted to ;


AI Overview



Talking to the "mushroom deva" (or spirit/consciousness of the mushroom) before ingestion is a practice rooted in shamanism and psychedelic spirituality. It means establishing a respectful, intentional, and communicative relationship with the mushroom as a sentient, intelligent, or divine being rather than merely a chemical substance
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This concept involves treating the experience as a guided spiritual journey or a dialogue with a "teacher" or "trickster" spirit.

Core Meanings of the Practice

• Respect and Permission: It is seen as a formal request to the plant spirit to enter its realm, asking for safe passage, wisdom, and guidance during the experience.
• Intent Setting and Alignment: "Talking" represents aligning one's internal emotional and spiritual state with the intended purpose of the trip, helping to set a respectful, mindful context that may reduce the likelihood of fear or panic.
• Acknowledging Sentience: Many practitioners believe mushrooms are not merely biological organisms but interdimensional beings that hold ancient wisdom and act as a bridge between the physical and spiritual realms.
• The "Trickster" Aspect: The mushroom deva is sometimes seen as a "trickster" that requires respectful navigation, providing deep, sometimes uncomfortable truths, and testing the user's humility.
• Preparation for Healing: This act serves as a mental and spiritual clearing, preparing the user to receive the "medicine" (psychedelic experience) and to process it as a transformative, rather than just recreational, experience.
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In summary, this phrase means to approach the use of magic mushrooms with deep reverence, treating them as a sacred, conscious guide rather than a recreational drug.

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