Are you adventurous when it comes to your practice?

[Lucien6493]

I am a try before you die person. I build my own system, but if I see in another system something that I want to try, I try. I am not the person who thinks on forehand that something can be a risk. If there is a risk, I want it at least to discover myself. So I am a little bit like a stubborn toddler. But that has it's origin:


I had the example of my dad who encountered one spirit in his life that is coming back every once and a while. He is scared from it and I knew that from early childhood. I made myself the promise to be never-ever so scared for a spirit like my dad was. I simply refuse it to walk away and live in fear. (and it is not needed anyway)

As for magic systems: before I started to study them, I already had my own methods and had already build a large part of my local witchcraft. All not really based on techniques but more on a state of being. I will not give up that, but new elements give me some new views and experiences. I like the learning that comes with it. Having an own system sounds wild and exiting, but is isn't. Most of the time I am just watching what happens after doing the magic, letting things grow, just sit and think with my cup of coffee at hand. My magic fits in the somewhat quiet slow rural life. ('m a villager, not a fast living city-person)

The path chooses the person, not the other way around, otherwise when the instructions in the book say deosil and we go widdershins just on a matter of principle (like I most certainly did) we are maybe not fully protected? My mentor, who really was a wicked witch if ever there was one, gave me a hand puppet once. I would have been about six, at the time, and was absolutely terrified of ghosts. She had a name for that puppet. She called it "der Beltzen Bub" (the black boy). She also gave me a Halloween mask to go along with it and told me that if anything ever frightened me when I was home alone I should put it on and call on the Beltzenbub, for he would forever be with me. Knowing what I know now, it's not lost on me into whose care she put me, but I never once felt protected; always guided and watched over. Oddly enough, magick was always the safe-zone that I could never break into, not understanding that it had been doing me all along.