I also think that limitation makes us learn things that we can't in the bodyless state.
Still just wanted to type that stuff, as I really felt that way.
I think it comes with the weird combination of starting huge projects alone that you never could have without the current state of AI,
still you find out the limitation of whats possible real quick too.
So when comparing myself to other people (i know, fastest way to mental hell),
I could say many are more capable in their day to day than I am,
and still I am the one doing things they never could.
Wanted to say by that - It could also be that I subjectively am not capable of some things as well/fast,
and I constantly lap myself with being ahead and behind myself in my mind.
So I'm experiencing the monetary limitations with all I do constantly - those bleed down on anything.
That's just a temporary thing, but my ideas are usually pretty complex and need some funds.
So with some teammates or friends or any support at all with anything I do and want to do blabla -
you know how that goes & that's all the life challenge blue cruel water planet sand box torture game is all about.
FAFO - in good and bad ways, or not at all - bEiNg aBlE tO eNcOuRaGe CoOpErAtIoN and all that kumbaya soul progress bullshit -
When I look around - and start to interact (living around some capital focused city comparable to NY in small, a little soulless)
I really have to doubt who I want to cooperate for or against whom I should cooperate.
ANYWAYS
Also I am drawn to inner space, I think opening up some places artificially and then learning how to induce these without exterior help is a very useful thing. I'm sober all the time, just very rarely some psychedelic - and just in times of need and urgency some more of the nootropic kind,
to gain machine like indifference to the symptoms of my artificially kept alive body that has to sit infront of a screen to realize visions.
I think I just long for a certain state of development in civilization/societies that is possible since a long time,
just destroyed/gatekept/warped artificially by the enslaver guys. I kinda understand em' more and more the more I look around these western metropolis dumps with their brainrot inhabitation. You know, the kind of post-scarcity/ post prudish dogmatic state/division and restricting bs type of psycho parent surveillance state that allows for and encourages those ppl that are a little different, just lets them go mad in a good way (for example all kinds of science is completely devoid of true experimentation and bondaged in a web of payment streams and ideology), as well as art gets censored - and all that good pseudo proletarian lemon squeezer shit that is just the chariot for the useful turbo sheeple that are so eager to usher in their/our own demise.
I just want to work in the way that is possible in this day and age, but it's impossible.
Also I long for a certain wisdom paired with "work infrastructure" - a kind of dune-ish "after the ai-wars state of mind"-
a kind of "seriously not again this whole rise of religions thing again + artificial racism by identity politics" understanding that does not weaponize humans and basically everything for some gleefullyawaited apocalypse because some thing or some one said or sais so.
I just want to interact with reality directly sometimes, without the human body as a medium/limitation of it you know?
Still it's fun to be part of the monstrous process of manifesting things in this solid sandbox reality - this beautiful jihadi gulag grapist glyphosate glittering beautiful field with chemtrails in the sky and little birds making sounds sitting on the dirt that once formed beings full of dreams...
I just get tired sometimes u know?
