I usually don't do this so you don't have to buy into any of it, might be my screwed imagination but I'm sharing this anyway.
You have indeed a few blockages but not from a space of suffering but from a space development.
What is yours is yours and nobody, no physical or astral entity can intervene and interrupt your spiritual development process as it is written.
The agreement you have for experiencing lack of resources, financial ones are part of your own template, your own path through which it continued because of the programming you are currently use.
Your external focus is consuming a lot of energy while you lose opportunities from your imediate awareness.
Richard is a name of one of your guides which does assist as much as possible with all sorts of financial issues you encounter.
Did you had a project for a business or a business idea which you did not followed through?
There are many aspects in place and right now your own energy is divided in multiple negative based beliefs... because of these energy you emanate, other energies joined your experience in order to help you build the reality you projected for yourself.
Twisted messages reach you and the reality is created as you focus on all these negative experiences.
How is your relationship with your father? (The question is somehow rhetorical as it does not need an public answer)
Your relationship with your father is generating a state of conflict and ultimately a powerful blockage.
I do apologize if my comment is crossing the line, it is what it is and I take full responsibility for the bs I type.
Again, you don't have to buy into any of it. From my perspective, lack of self-trust is reinforcing a negative belief that transgenerational karmic debt is dumped into your own reality, this life experience so you can transform it.
Yes, your absolutely right. Thankyou going out of your way to do so. It's the sort of thing that has helped me before.
I don't think you know the original causes as they deep and complex.
Getting this straitened out is important and a lot of things have tried to put me of writing.
It is largely relational bound up in mess. The blocks must move and there are blatant Demonic forces involved. I know about a lot of very nasty things and more are surfacing all the time, bound up in physical situations like money in cycles. It it like trying to break planetary orbit.
Richard is a name I heard of recently but was not sure at first. I have had to be careful of who or what is trustworthy. I am getting used to a lot of things I have always had in a better way than blind acceptance, I only recently found a method of testing spirits after struggling to get info.
This is a catch 22 situation to break out of.
I have had outside distractions from things like becoming legally homeless and sick from heat, or someone drilling walls, which have wrecked sleep.
There are spiritual, physical and external problems to counter.
There are some very deeply (deliberately) implanted thought forms that I would only share privately after being ridiculed for the truth, by telling others that said they could help me but could not, then turning on me. One can only take so much. These damn things directing events over and over again.
PM if you think you can help, I hope you can.
There are creative business idea that have been interrupted, largely by health and intrusion.
It's kind of foggy again but it will come clear.
I think its important for me to build a good sense of self right now and am expecting (and receiving) Angelic help, coming to terms with the past. It's a complex work.
As much as is seemed corrected with relationships, it turns out that it is still not properly forgiven or healed and I tried so much to get it right. The root of all this really is the father as you say. More shards keep coming up.
I might know what is wrong but not necessarily what to do, which is why i would like to get something Angelic underway that covers several areas at once.
Incidentally I have accidentally fasted in the past and become exhausted and things began to happen. It's too easily done with dis-ease and pain.