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I could use a guide on what the hell to do (pun intended) to remove junk I see inside me. It is a lot better than it used to be, but there is still some work to do. I am aware of 'mental health' and the crossover to spiritual things, that is the product of a lifetime of being held together by spiritual ducktape. There are no counsellors or shamans here, been on my own for far to long but can't do with crowds either.
I have used and received some esoteric Christian evangelist experiences, but that was long ago. There is power there, but only so much in certain ways. No one seems to get the aspects of deep healing at the root of the soul. All you need is Jesus. Bah! How many billions have heard that before they died the next day? I did get baptised though, full immersion (it is an initiation) and look fondly upon the image of Christ as I think it would have been in the early Gnostic church with no Bible. I still have outbursts of glossolalia, sometimes it seems good, sometimes not. I'm suspicious. I know I'm way to open sometimes. The places I've been, everything is God or the Devil, and sometimes from the way they behave I thought they wouldn't know one from the other.
I am paying attention to what egregores are pretty fast, as looking back, there's a lot of religious spirit stuff that was very contagious. In as much recently as 'visions' of 'Jesus' figure have appeared. No! Go away!
Somethings going on.
Christian ptsd and probable cptsd.
It was probably my mother black magicking me with her twisted prayer to reconvert me to her horrible childhood torture god. For someone who thinks witchcraft is evil she does a whole lot of it.
So yes, I could use some ways to remove actual entity's that trouble me, and keep them off, as well as the dissolving and working through of any illness. Particularly, Archonic squid things feeding of me. I'm tuned into my dreams at night and I am thankful to source for the work done. Pitched battles in the day that according to Josephine Mcarthy, are actually deep visioning.
Seeing a lot of of characters in black and white, I guess that's partly Asperger.
My occult 'accidents' turned out to be the right thing.
I would rather be the victor than the victim.
I hope that I can reset my spiritual life and being to at least a 'default' setting before abuse.
At this point I'm basically trying to fix the engine with it running.
I have had miracles before.
Is there a simple low level approach?
Mantras and so on?
I have used and received some esoteric Christian evangelist experiences, but that was long ago. There is power there, but only so much in certain ways. No one seems to get the aspects of deep healing at the root of the soul. All you need is Jesus. Bah! How many billions have heard that before they died the next day? I did get baptised though, full immersion (it is an initiation) and look fondly upon the image of Christ as I think it would have been in the early Gnostic church with no Bible. I still have outbursts of glossolalia, sometimes it seems good, sometimes not. I'm suspicious. I know I'm way to open sometimes. The places I've been, everything is God or the Devil, and sometimes from the way they behave I thought they wouldn't know one from the other.
I am paying attention to what egregores are pretty fast, as looking back, there's a lot of religious spirit stuff that was very contagious. In as much recently as 'visions' of 'Jesus' figure have appeared. No! Go away!
Somethings going on.
Christian ptsd and probable cptsd.
It was probably my mother black magicking me with her twisted prayer to reconvert me to her horrible childhood torture god. For someone who thinks witchcraft is evil she does a whole lot of it.
So yes, I could use some ways to remove actual entity's that trouble me, and keep them off, as well as the dissolving and working through of any illness. Particularly, Archonic squid things feeding of me. I'm tuned into my dreams at night and I am thankful to source for the work done. Pitched battles in the day that according to Josephine Mcarthy, are actually deep visioning.
Seeing a lot of of characters in black and white, I guess that's partly Asperger.
My occult 'accidents' turned out to be the right thing.
I would rather be the victor than the victim.
I hope that I can reset my spiritual life and being to at least a 'default' setting before abuse.
At this point I'm basically trying to fix the engine with it running.
I have had miracles before.
Is there a simple low level approach?
Mantras and so on?