[Help] How important are emotions/emotional intelligence to the Occult?

[Jarvis]

Hey folks, I'm a beginner when it comes to occult stuff, I've mostly just been reading haven't done any actual practice yet.

One thing that concerns me is I am autistic and have really bad alexithymia (I am unable to identify my emotions) and also have low emotional IQ. Because of this emotional disconnect I don't have the greatest sense of self... I don't know myself very well.
And it's not (to my knowledge) from trauma. I was just born this way, as long as I can remember, with alexithymia. It's not rare in folks with autism either.

Another impact I feel because I am not in touch with my emotions is that my life or very being is shallow. I feel I have no depth, and that along with being emotionally stunted I am spiritually stunted. Like it's not just emotional intelligence I am lacking. I think that's why occult draws me in, I want to know myself better, and become more, have a deeper meaning.

I'm wondering if you guys have any advice for me, and if I should stay away from certain paths in the occult due to my issues. The specific practice that I have found most interesting to me so far is Thelema.

 

[FireBorn]

First, welcome to the forum (make sure you make an introduction post). Second, I am also Neurodivergent (ADHD). From the ND perspective, it can absolutely be a superpower in the occult space, depending on how your ND manifests.

I know a couple other practitioners who are autistic. Obviously there are differences, but it isn't the barrier you might be afraid it is. And it shouldn't be.

I would say for starters that most of the literature you will read is written by Neurotypicals for Neurotypicals (a lot of occult literature assumes a certain kind of cognition, emotional language, and introspective style that may not fit cleanly). If you are good with that, easy peasy for you.

Just keep that in your mind as you navigate from here, it may matter more depending on how your autism manifests for you. In other words, it might be a small thing, it might not.

Dont be afraid to try different methods. Just because one method, or system doesn't work for you, dont look at it as YOU failure. It's just data. Try a different system or method.

Some pick it up fast, some do not. It isn't a race. It is not a race. It is not a race. lol

Go, read about Thelema. Check it out. If it resonates, keep going. There are lots of systems, lots of flavors. It really depends. We live in such an amazing time in history where we can actually choose for ourselves amongst many systems. Our forefathers did not always have that choice. So yeah, check em all out. Resonance is what you are looking for. Not popular, not trendy, resonance.

Good luck!!