[Help] I Am In A Very Bad Situation About Occultism

[Anomander Rake]

For what purpose you were do magical invocation

I didn't any invocation. I am sort of beginner. I am into occult for two years. I read books etc for a long while, then started meditation. I didn't big rituals, because of my family. But I did meditations and little magical things. I did all of them with joy. Now, nearly nothing changed about my life.

Why did I these things? Good question. My life was without any purpose. Occult's itself was my purpose. In old times, I hadn't any path but now I have a path. I am reading a book about my path. Its english, english is not my native language, and the book is too hard to read. Ritualistic and old words. On top of the book being difficult, with my current situation, I'm reading extremely slowly. :/ I didn't read it for weeks.

 

[Spiritual doctor]

I have one idea just study about magic how it works read books and magical theories by searching old manuscripts and then after study ask anything that you can not understand by this way you develope the knowledge how magic work and try some small magic by your own formula

I didn't any invocation. I am sort of beginner. I am into occult for two years. I read books etc for a long while, then started meditation. I didn't big rituals, because of my family. But I did meditations and little magical things. I did all of them with joy. Now, nearly nothing changed about my life.

Why did I these things? Good question. My life was without any purpose. Occult's itself was my purpose. In old times, I hadn't any path but now I have a path. I am reading a book about my path. Its english, english is not my native language, and the book is too hard to read. Ritualistic and old words. On top of the book being difficult, with my current situation, I'm reading extremely slowly. :/ I didn't read it for weeks.

 

[Zelator2148]

I asked myself the same question in the 1980s. At the time I was helping a few people by doing banishings and some talismanic magic, but that was intermittent. I was interested in performing invocation for self-enhancement and was doing a little astral work, but had no reason whatsoever to get into evocation. Leading up to that period I had been involved with astrology, tarot and Qabalistic studies, so I stuck with those and let the rest go. Then, in 2017 after having been a forum moderator for a few years, I started my own divination blog and the need to write something regularly inspired me to become involved in things I might never have approached otherwise, such as geomancy, lithomancy, horary astrology, Lenormand, playing-card cartomancy, I Ching and reading a ton of literature on those and similar subjects. It helped to keep my practice at near-peak immersion.

 

[iaegous]

If u can't do any divination to enlight the situation, it's ok, maybe firstly do a series of soft cleanings, both yourself and your magical spaces, and start from that point so you can reset a bit and feel if it's there...

Don't put labels on yourself regarding your magical working process. Don't hustle for results. You're a magician (or any title you want) and that's for life.

You can go outside for some days, every day to comune with ur local spirits, bring some offerings, just listen and be still there. No need for anything ritual, you can stablish more connection this way with what surrounds u than doing evocation with non familiar spirits.

Maybe it's the opposite and you just have to live a bit, enjoy pleasure in every way it encounters u. Find art or love, do or don't do stuff, be young and silly. Honor divinity that way. No agendas.

Be a couch magician for a while. Read and plan.

Find help if needed.

 

[Anomander Rake]

I have one idea just study about magic how it works read books and magical theories by searching old manuscripts and then after study ask anything that you can not understand by this way you develope the knowledge how magic work and try some small magic by your own formula

I am reading books. I mean, I used to. I used to just reading books (not much book but at least, I read) without practice, or small practices. Now it is too hard to read. I am still trying to read even if just one chapter.

 

[therootbeersprite]

Burnout happens, and so does feeling disconnected from one's practice. It happens. The very first step is to give yourself grace and acceptance about this. Easier said than done, I know, but feeling guilty about being disconnected is only going to lead to a feedback loop of disconnecting you even further. Just leave it be for a while, don't try to force it, try not to judge yourself for doing so. Work on connecting to the mundane world around you, and connecting to yourself. When you're ready, truly ready, it will come back to you with joy.

Also, it's okay to feel sad about this loss of connection. It's been a keystone in your life for years. It's okay to feel confused and lost without it. Just don't fall for the trap of blaming yourself for it. Acceptance is key, just like any other kind of grief.

 

[JJB5]

Like others said, take a break for awhile. Things seem to click when you aren’t trying so hard

 

[akenu]

I asked myself the same question in the 1980s. At the time I was helping a few people by doing banishings and some talismanic magic, but that was intermittent. I was interested in performing invocation for self-enhancement and was doing a little astral work, but had no reason whatsoever to get into evocation. Leading up to that period I had been involved with astrology, tarot and Qabalistic studies, so I stuck with those and let the rest go. Then, in 2017 after having been a forum moderator for a few years, I started my own divination blog and the need to write something regularly inspired me to become involved in things I might never have approached otherwise, such as geomancy, lithomancy, horary astrology, Lenormand, playing-card cartomancy, I Ching and reading a ton of literature on those and similar subjects. It helped to keep my practice at near-peak immersion.

This is something that keeps bothering me. When I do something for a longer period of time, this voice goes, "Are you just a fortune teller now?" or "Are you just a healer now?" It was the same with the Enochian Magick: "It's not actually you doing anything; it's the spirits".

Have you experienced this voice? And if so, how have you dealt with it?

 

[Zelator2148]

That's a good question. I went looking in my old blog posts for evidence that I had ever addressed "the voice" and found a quote from Jung: “Who has vocation hears the voice of the inner man; he is called.” That's pretty much where I've come to over the last 15 years. When I returned to professional practice in 2011, I made a conscious decision to "just be a fortune-teller" after having done personal self-awareness and self-development work with the tarot and astrology for the better part of 40 years. I found that it's what most clients are interested in. I like to say "they already know who they are, they just want to hear what's going to happen." Since that time I've added Lenormand cards and horary astrology to my primary divination toolbox. I've never looked back.