[Help] Magick or other type of ritual/technique to lower my body’s guard for hypnosis memory recall?

[Ruzarik]

TL;DR -

Newbie here!

Went to a hypnotist who specializes in memory recall and past life regression to have her assist me in potentially recovering blocked out memories of a specific event in my childhood life that seems to either be the direct cause of or just the beginning of my psychic/supernatural experiences. My physical body seemed to strongly resist it, I hit multiple roadblocks and even my higher self said move along nothing to see here.

Is there anything I could do to lower my body's guard or my higher self's guard so I can obtain more information for next hypnosis?

Thanks in advance!

Rest of the story:

During the beginning she had to make several attempts to get me into hypnosis, and my body felt physically painful. The back of my head which was resting against the chair comfortably moments before, now felt like I was resting my heavy head on a pebble about to burrow its way into my skull in such a painful way.
My lips were bone dry and I was DYING for a drink of water, even though moments before I was just fine and didn't need to drink water.
My back was aching and my neck was stiff as if I slept the wrong way twisted up in bed and woke up in a 90 year olds body. It took a very strong focus and willpower to stick to it and not give up my state of "gnosis" I think it's called.

She said it's as if everything in me was fighting from going into hypnosis.
Note: I've been in a dream-like state of meditation many times before and have met my spirit guide, higher self as well as other entities, so this isn't uncomfortable to me, not sure why my body was fighting this time. It was extremely difficult.

During the hypnosis, in her 4th attempt which was successful, I went into a memory from when I was a child and there was a shadow entity following the child version of me up the stairs. This made me realize it's a visible version of the feeling me my sister and mother all had growing up in this house. A deep very real sense that someone is following you up the steps. My family even till today agrees this really happened but we didn't talk about it until years later and realized we all had the same experiences in that old house.
The hypnotist who I will call 'J' asked me if I could go to the entity and see if it was willing to talk to me or tell me it's name. When I approached it, It turned towards me, and while I couldn't tell where it was looking because it was completely obscured by a hazy blackness, I had the sense that it was looking right at me. I asked if it could speak to me and tell me who it is, it said "No." With a very strong sense of finality.

J asked if I could ask if it was willing to talk about anything at all. I asked and it said "Nothing."

J then asked, ok if it's not willing to share anything with you, is it able to join us on this journey through your memories?, I asked and it didn't necessarily answer but it took my hand and we walked back onto the train which was the object taking me from memory space to memory space in this hypnosis J created.

It didn't seem to mind. It followed me right onto the train, and without asking it to, sat down across from me on the left side of the isle facing forward which was the same direction I was facing in on the right hand side of the isle.

J then proceeded to have the train go to my next memory and ask me what I could see thru the window, like she did with the last one, and I told her that now everything is black, everything went pitch black outside the window. If I focused I could see a very gentle snowfall, but no ground or any light was around me. She was seemingly caught off guard and wondering if this could be another roadblock. She asked if I could ask the entity anything else and it just stayed silent.

J decided to reset the area I was in and bring me back to the garden we started in as the safe point. Then she had me call on my higher self whom I've met multiple times and spoken to many times before. He appeared, and amongst the many subjects we talked about one stuck out the most. I asked him what was with the blockages and inability to access some of the memories that I wanted to understand more. He said in a fairly cryptic but friendly way, "you will grow and find the answers you're looking for if you continue moving forward, instead of wasting time looking backward".

When I told my other two psychics about that they were both in agreement that it was an unusual thing to say, and implied he could be obscuring something.

One even suggested that may not have been my higher self at all because it was such an uncharacteristic thing to say. I'm not sure how I feel.

So, I reached out to the hypnotist again to see if we could make another attempt in a couple months but wanted to see if there were any rituals, magick or techniques I could use to get my body or my higher self or whatever could be the cause of these blockages to stop resisting and provide some truth and information?

 

[Morell]

You should listen to your higher self, honestly. Though I can tell that the hypnotist was good and experienced. Impressive work.

Since your higher self is talking to you, you can ask it for instructions what should be done about the problem you have. Higher self usually has access to the memories but also sees the lessons that you need to go through. Since you have communication, you can ask for guidance. If anyone would know what do to the best, I think it would be the higher self.

 

[AbammonTheGreat]

I'll give you my two cents as I'm a hypnotherapist and I specialize in working with mediums...

The physiological responses are a very normal part of hypnosis though they aren't normally uncomfortable unless your hypnotist was directing them to be, the body can be resistant to hypnotism if you have a hard time letting go of control and may throw up those abreactions as a way to resist getting put into hypnosis. However, on the weirder side of things. One client with a rather nasty spirit attachment got incredibly stiff and looked like they were almost in pain as the spirit that was attached to them did not want to be discovered... more on this later...

The response from your higher self seems pretty typical, I am not sure what modalities your hypnotist uses or is trained in. If they are more clinical you may need some outside help but if they are on the woo-ier side of things you may want to ask them for some diagnostics on your energy body, aura, etc etc. Something I have learned working with people in these situations, where theres some type of blockage is that there is either an attachment by an entity or a gap/gash in the subtle light/energy body due to karma or trauma.

You say something happened in your past. Your physiological reaction leads me to believe that you may have a type of breakage in your subtle body that something that doesn't want to be discovered is attached to you through. So this is where the diagnostic becomes important, there are lots of different modalities for this (reiki/tuning forks... etc etc...) as a ritual magician I personally use spirit conjuration to run diagnostics but you need to be looking for the part in your body (and i'm going to assume its the neck based off your description) that the gap/gash is. Now this gash is related to some type of life event or sometimes past life event but its an external one that provides access for spirits and astral entities to get to you. Once you find the gash you need to address it through initiatory proceedings or shadow work, so for example "this gash in my neck was caused by a mother wound because my mom was crazy abusive, so I will initiate into Venus". If it's past life or karmic then it needs to be addressed through ancestor work (this gash is because my ancestors have always been persecuted, i need to break the cycle and let go of their attachments for them). Once the gash is fixed, which takes some time magically speaking, you then need to approach the removal of the spirit attachment that's causing the blockage/blacking out. That is something your hypnotist is going to have to work with you on as it involves learning exactly what it is that doesn't want to be discovered so you can throw it out.

 

[Ruzarik]

You should listen to your higher self, honestly. Though I can tell that the hypnotist was good and experienced. Impressive work.

Since your higher self is talking to you, you can ask it for instructions what should be done about the problem you have. Higher self usually has access to the memories but also sees the lessons that you need to go through. Since you have communication, you can ask for guidance. If anyone would know what do to the best, I think it would be the higher self.

My Higher Self told me the following:

The shadow entity, as well as another entity which is not obscured by a shadow that I've spoken to before a few times, are both from a group of "observers" who my Higher Self did not name, and told me there are benevolent, benign and malevolent groups of observers out there and that I need to be careful with communicating and inviting them in as to not allow the wrong ones to get attached to me.

I asked what could I do to continue moving forward and what that meant

He said I need to practice more until I am "adept" and can easily move in and out of this state without a companion needed.

He said I need to focus primarily on becoming adept kind of as quickly as possible because in my current state, I am "broadcasting" to all interested parties that could earn me unwanted and potentially dangerous attention from I guess malicious entities.

I said what could I do to help in this way he said I could travel to certain areas and meet folks that could point me down the right paths or teach me things or I could help them in ways and he showed me 4 points via bird's eye view of Earth:

Upstate NY, specifically highlighting what looks like black river wild forest area which is odd

Slightly Northeast of Orlando Florida, no idea what's going on there

A spot north east outside of Texas, after looking up the spot on a map it appears he was showing me directly over multiple Native American Reservations in Oklahoma

And a bizarre spot: we floated over a location in southeast Asia, along a coastline and then a border appeared and he told me south of the border was Thailand and north of the border was Burma, but I thought to myself "isn't Burma bordered with India, not Thailand?" And he said "No, this is Burma" and I looked it up on a map later and turns out I was confusing Bangladesh with Burma, whoops. He said go to this area between the two countries
I looked it up and it's Khao Laem national park, turns out there is a bhuddist temple there that floods during half the year and is famous for being an "underwater Buddhist temple"

He said once I become adept, I'll be able to meet others like me in my meditative state or even astral projected or lucid dreaming states, and that we are all supposed to meet up and work together to wake humanity up to these abilities that can be taught, though some have them innately or were given them.

Behind him I'd seen a ripple in the pond which was at the edge of the garden, and when he was done telling me all this he said "I know you've noticed something there, you ought to know what it is." And I asked "what is it?" And he said "it's better if you look for yourself" and so I went into the water and put my head down beneath the surface and it was a giant eye staring at me. No idea if there is symbology behind this or if it's representative of "the observers" or what. But it was strange. Didn't feel menacing or evil or friendly. Neutral? I guess I could say?