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Greetings to all who may read this post .
As the headline say im new to the occult world and to this forum so first of all i want to thank you for accepting me and giving me access to all this amazing knowledge.
I would like to start by telling you a bit about myself and the situation im in , i never really had the chance or the courage to explore this side of me but after recent event i decided that its just can be another coincidence .
I'm a 38 yo male, have a bf for the last 20 years (we do not live together) and even tho some aspects of the relationship naturally changed over the years our bond , love and friendship is still there .
Over the years we had hunderds occasions where we had some type or telepthic communication , things like when i pick up the phone to call him and all of a sudden i get a call from himor the other way around , im thinking about something out of the blue and he say it or talk about this sunject a second after im having this thought , i always knew its cant be just pure luck as it happened so often and so many times but ididnt really dived into it and just thought about it as we have special connection and there are things in this world that i cannot explain.
It also used to happen to be with a good friend of mine when i was about 17 yo .
Last week something happened that just left me speechless and amazed , one day i woke up and the delivery guy had some parcels for me, i got out the house to carry them from his car to my house , its been 8-9 parcels so i did it in 3 rounds .
On the 3rd round when i got near the door i felt a sharp pain that was so painful i just shoved all the parcels inside the house and laid down on the floor with crazy back pain .
I never felt such a thing before and even tho i have some back pain issues it was never like this.
It was so bad that i barely managed to lay on the sofa or to lift my arm .
I called my bf and told him what happened to me and to my surprise he said that he also woke up with severe pain in his back , we both thought its crazy and not normal to have the same issue at the same day out of the blue .
When i met him 2 days after it got even stranger as we discovered that his back pain and my back pain was exactly at the same spot!
I went to the doctor and he told me it's nothing serious just a pulled muscle so i received some antibiotics for it and now my back is ok and he is also recovering.
The fact that it happened to us both was just too much for me to let it pass by me and i decided to explore things more as it just cant be happen by mistake .
All my life i felt that i have some hidden locked energy inside of me or some kind of power that i cannot explain (i know that i may sound crazy but i just
dont know how to explain it) .
I'm a secular Jewish and never really felt close to religion but never in a million years i thought that i may be drawn to the occult world as to be honest i just never thought it can be real.
Somewhere inside me i always felt and wanted to believe that life is not just what you see on the surface and that there are lots of forces that are hidden to the people who are not looking for them or paying attention .
I do feel that there is someone that i know who really hate me and i always had the feeling that she cursed me or put the evil eye on me as i could sense it when i was looking at her but i never knew what to do or how to protect myself as it happened when i was a young guy (about 13-15 yo) , it will be really nice to finally cleanse myself from this.
Since what happened to me last week i found myself researching a lot about telepathy, energy, spells, spirits etc and my mind just became open to the idea there are so many things i cannot explain and that maybe can help me to understand myself and my abilities .
I would really like to experience communicating with some type of spirits and find out if i do have any special abilities that i should train and develop.
I will be honest and say that i also have a dark side in me and im a bit scared to unleash it and i may think from time to time to just let the darkness consume me (in lack of other words) so even though some aspects of the dark magic fascinating me i'm afraid to even start reading and learning about it as i do not want to harm anyone or to invite danger into my life .
Im also dealing with depression for many years because things that happened to me (even tho now its better than what it used to be a long time ago).
I know that im just at the beginning of my journey and i have so much to learn and experience and because of this i wanted to join to this forum to read what other people think about my situation , maybe they can tell me if they recognize this singhs and can put a label on it or direct me to the right places so i can understand more about my power (if i actually have a unique power).
I would love to share a list of books i just ordered so i can expand my knowledge and of course if there is someone who would like to help me
getting into this world and guide me a little bit i will appreciate it alot .
Please share with me any tip , help , constructive criticism , warning , encouragement or any thing my post made you feel and think . im sure i will learn a lot from it.
I know that i was all over the place and wrote about a lot of things but i just felt the need to share my thoughts with people who won't judge me or think im crazy just because im feeling this way .
Thank you .
As the headline say im new to the occult world and to this forum so first of all i want to thank you for accepting me and giving me access to all this amazing knowledge.
I would like to start by telling you a bit about myself and the situation im in , i never really had the chance or the courage to explore this side of me but after recent event i decided that its just can be another coincidence .
I'm a 38 yo male, have a bf for the last 20 years (we do not live together) and even tho some aspects of the relationship naturally changed over the years our bond , love and friendship is still there .
Over the years we had hunderds occasions where we had some type or telepthic communication , things like when i pick up the phone to call him and all of a sudden i get a call from himor the other way around , im thinking about something out of the blue and he say it or talk about this sunject a second after im having this thought , i always knew its cant be just pure luck as it happened so often and so many times but ididnt really dived into it and just thought about it as we have special connection and there are things in this world that i cannot explain.
It also used to happen to be with a good friend of mine when i was about 17 yo .
Last week something happened that just left me speechless and amazed , one day i woke up and the delivery guy had some parcels for me, i got out the house to carry them from his car to my house , its been 8-9 parcels so i did it in 3 rounds .
On the 3rd round when i got near the door i felt a sharp pain that was so painful i just shoved all the parcels inside the house and laid down on the floor with crazy back pain .
I never felt such a thing before and even tho i have some back pain issues it was never like this.
It was so bad that i barely managed to lay on the sofa or to lift my arm .
I called my bf and told him what happened to me and to my surprise he said that he also woke up with severe pain in his back , we both thought its crazy and not normal to have the same issue at the same day out of the blue .
When i met him 2 days after it got even stranger as we discovered that his back pain and my back pain was exactly at the same spot!
I went to the doctor and he told me it's nothing serious just a pulled muscle so i received some antibiotics for it and now my back is ok and he is also recovering.
The fact that it happened to us both was just too much for me to let it pass by me and i decided to explore things more as it just cant be happen by mistake .
All my life i felt that i have some hidden locked energy inside of me or some kind of power that i cannot explain (i know that i may sound crazy but i just
dont know how to explain it) .
I'm a secular Jewish and never really felt close to religion but never in a million years i thought that i may be drawn to the occult world as to be honest i just never thought it can be real.
Somewhere inside me i always felt and wanted to believe that life is not just what you see on the surface and that there are lots of forces that are hidden to the people who are not looking for them or paying attention .
I do feel that there is someone that i know who really hate me and i always had the feeling that she cursed me or put the evil eye on me as i could sense it when i was looking at her but i never knew what to do or how to protect myself as it happened when i was a young guy (about 13-15 yo) , it will be really nice to finally cleanse myself from this.
Since what happened to me last week i found myself researching a lot about telepathy, energy, spells, spirits etc and my mind just became open to the idea there are so many things i cannot explain and that maybe can help me to understand myself and my abilities .
I would really like to experience communicating with some type of spirits and find out if i do have any special abilities that i should train and develop.
I will be honest and say that i also have a dark side in me and im a bit scared to unleash it and i may think from time to time to just let the darkness consume me (in lack of other words) so even though some aspects of the dark magic fascinating me i'm afraid to even start reading and learning about it as i do not want to harm anyone or to invite danger into my life .
Im also dealing with depression for many years because things that happened to me (even tho now its better than what it used to be a long time ago).
I know that im just at the beginning of my journey and i have so much to learn and experience and because of this i wanted to join to this forum to read what other people think about my situation , maybe they can tell me if they recognize this singhs and can put a label on it or direct me to the right places so i can understand more about my power (if i actually have a unique power).
I would love to share a list of books i just ordered so i can expand my knowledge and of course if there is someone who would like to help me
getting into this world and guide me a little bit i will appreciate it alot .
Please share with me any tip , help , constructive criticism , warning , encouragement or any thing my post made you feel and think . im sure i will learn a lot from it.
I know that i was all over the place and wrote about a lot of things but i just felt the need to share my thoughts with people who won't judge me or think im crazy just because im feeling this way .
Thank you .
