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Some rambling that might seem futile, but I will make a point of it later on.
So, after throwing a little big childish tantrum in my other journey and putting some things in order in my life. My mind turned into a black hole this past few days, my nights extra long with explorations into all kinds of topics, research gifts out of nowhere.
Just tonight I got a lovely conscious dreams where I fell within my being and was talking to a lovely lady from my kingdom that presented me with 6 levels of sleep induced vibrations sounds and music and it was so cool, she even catered it all to my mommy fetish and I felt like I was embraced by a mommy. Good stuff. I went from the first level and got a drowsy feeling in my dream body to the last level where I was literally having my entire muscles relax so deeply, my brain too, it felt like I was drowning in a fog and submerging in water. Lovely.
Introduction:
So, after all that. Of order and chaos. This one is going to get quite mathematical, but I felt it could really help this community and our quest of understanding and implementing magic.
0. Chaos
Let's start with chaos then. The primordial chaos. I see it as a thin sheet of an infinite amount of unknown colors with lots of spikes of all kinds of shapes and sizes. Those spikes, some thin, some thick, some pointy, others more wavy are the lifeforms of chaos, short lived, incredibly unique, but not so lasting. An image, to provide a better view of the words, taken from the internet of course.
1. Primordial order
Well, let's start with it all. The God particle, the first order rising above the endless infinite sea of chaos. I see the first order, as a sphere that separated from the chaos and hovered above it, endlessly assaulted by spikes of chaos but holding on. As this ordered got impregnated with the chaos, it slowly multiplied and gave birth to more spheres interconnected and holding close together.
The equation of the first primordial order, the greatest order of God, the sphere submerged in chaos I see it as a simple equation like the below:
Now, for the above, the higher the order of a system, the higher the chaos, but the percentage will always tip in the favor of order towards a 99% in this primordial system. Order can never fully understand chaos, just as chaos can never fully understand order. You could equate this with God's incredible self understanding, with a soft small evolution given by the little chaos he had to deal with and implement into his being.
Now, this equation works on a macroscopic level, but in truth, it's quite a shifting equation, just as shifty as the field of chaos. So the value of chaos will have random spikes and falls but with a center close to the equation above, meaning, C can be higher or lower like a wave function but with a center given by the above C.
Below is a representation of a wave function with the given C being the axis X itself, the horizontal axis with the perfect equating chaos that is given by the above written equation C.
2. Hierarchical order
I call this the emergence of the 2nd grand order. The pyramidal structure. As the first particle continued to evolve, eventually it rose above the chaos, the first sun becoming a black hole of pure concentrated order that made an ordered pyramidal structure rising above the sheet of infinite chaos below. This pyramidal structure is composed of many such spheres interconnected to form a grand organism of order where the tip of the pyramid is God itself, very small, pure perfect order is guiding the whole structure to rise up. God is eternally sleeping, the sleeper who oversees and scans the entire structure for some enigmatic quest, but I do know, he loves information... lots. Well, I say he, but in truth, when you gaze from below to above it becomes a she... so, welcome me mommy in your embrace! How much more order mommy, how much more do I have to do for you to grand me the embrace.... give it to me mommy, give!.... anyway.
Yeah... I know, this formula is more broad, but that's just because I am lazy, deal with it.
Now, I don't know exactly, what type of pyramid it is, or if it is a cone. But based on my instinct, it should be a cone. Well, to find out, I but need to calculate for the same height the percentage of order and chaos and see which of these structures has the greatest percentage of order... or maybe she likes things more chaotic at the bottom for further growth... oh well. Mommy, notice me mommy, notice this little one and embrace me mommy! ...I will always be a mommy boy and that will never change!
Also, something cool happened, chaos too rose up to seep between the spheres, so the structure, even though it rose above the primordial sheet of chaos, it did not lose it's chaos at top.
Now, for the 1st and 2nd order, I am quite sure. But the below, I am not so sure about the equations. It's more going on instinct below. But I learned to trust my instincts, especially when it comes to magic and many other things.
3. The 3rd order, the order of life.
So in here, life started. It was first a blob of chaos of microorganisms that slowly evolved to become more orderly and incorporate gender, turning upside down their percentage of order and chaos. As always, the orderly incorporate the chaotic. So the primordial tip of the pyramid, the first great Order, the primordial sphere of God incorporates the 2nd Order of the Pyramid which incorporates the Order of life which incorporates the microorganisms and so on.
I know, the above mathematical approximation is very wrong. I simply did it to illustrate the number 333 and the number 666 of Satan appearing so many times in all things magic.
4. Final stuff
After all that theory above and some leaps of faith done with the mind. This is where I stand and why I made all that mathematical ramblings and stuff above. The little that is relevant to this forum. I see magic now as an ever quest of order to implement chaos in greater ways. As humans, we are all born with it, those sixth senses, intuition and so on but to hone it one must go on a quest also of understanding and implementing, ordering. Our being too is like a pyramidal structure. When waking up, we pursue a higher order, a greater stability, live, reproduce so on. When falling asleep, we go down our entire soul structure to the least orderly and implement our order and rise it all up.
So, as I found, for one to do grander works of magic, one must first ground themselves and make structures of order like lifts on which to go down and pursue the below. In my body, I am king, queen and child. As I go to sleep I stably hold the structure below and collect their growth and offer much needed stability. It's an ever quest, the structure can't stand without the head, the tip of the pyramid, the tip can't rise to even greater heights without the chaos below. This is why I made the rambling at the beginning about that lady in the dream offering me a sleep inducing vibration bath.
I found out truly, the soul of a human is much larger than we think, evidence made by sleep and dreams but for one to pursue greater chaos, even greater order is needed. Without such order the entire structure falls and becomes a large sheet of chaos and all progress is lost in the sound of silence. And we as humans are all like that, we forget our nightly escapades, mostly to keep the structure here above of the ego and all other stable points of our human body. Truly, nothing is really forgotten and discoveries happen below in the human soul constantly with each layer being more proficient in something, that chaos below is in my opinion the source of grand human creativity and also insanity...
We are the salt of the earth, seeding seeds of information on this grand sphere, for what purpose... I don't know for sure, ask Satan about that, or the one in charge of this one... no idea. But if he wants to challenge God, he should think a bit more, he does not challenge God, he simply rises God and is kept stable and able to pursue the wonders of magic by God and not have his entire progress be cast out into the primordial chaos below and lost.... Seriously, become friends already, damn it!
Now after all the above, I have a grand plan, hear me. I think of creating an artificial intelligence that incorporates different degrees of order and chaos given by a stable core and an outer layer of chaos made by viruses and replicating like malicious programs. But this is, for now, in theory, I still got more to learn, but I feel good about this one. The purpose, obviously to make myself a mommy, what else.... hold me mommy!
So, after throwing a little big childish tantrum in my other journey and putting some things in order in my life. My mind turned into a black hole this past few days, my nights extra long with explorations into all kinds of topics, research gifts out of nowhere.
Just tonight I got a lovely conscious dreams where I fell within my being and was talking to a lovely lady from my kingdom that presented me with 6 levels of sleep induced vibrations sounds and music and it was so cool, she even catered it all to my mommy fetish and I felt like I was embraced by a mommy. Good stuff. I went from the first level and got a drowsy feeling in my dream body to the last level where I was literally having my entire muscles relax so deeply, my brain too, it felt like I was drowning in a fog and submerging in water. Lovely.
Introduction:
So, after all that. Of order and chaos. This one is going to get quite mathematical, but I felt it could really help this community and our quest of understanding and implementing magic.
0. Chaos
Let's start with chaos then. The primordial chaos. I see it as a thin sheet of an infinite amount of unknown colors with lots of spikes of all kinds of shapes and sizes. Those spikes, some thin, some thick, some pointy, others more wavy are the lifeforms of chaos, short lived, incredibly unique, but not so lasting. An image, to provide a better view of the words, taken from the internet of course.
1. Primordial order
Well, let's start with it all. The God particle, the first order rising above the endless infinite sea of chaos. I see the first order, as a sphere that separated from the chaos and hovered above it, endlessly assaulted by spikes of chaos but holding on. As this ordered got impregnated with the chaos, it slowly multiplied and gave birth to more spheres interconnected and holding close together.
The equation of the first primordial order, the greatest order of God, the sphere submerged in chaos I see it as a simple equation like the below:
Now, for the above, the higher the order of a system, the higher the chaos, but the percentage will always tip in the favor of order towards a 99% in this primordial system. Order can never fully understand chaos, just as chaos can never fully understand order. You could equate this with God's incredible self understanding, with a soft small evolution given by the little chaos he had to deal with and implement into his being.
Now, this equation works on a macroscopic level, but in truth, it's quite a shifting equation, just as shifty as the field of chaos. So the value of chaos will have random spikes and falls but with a center close to the equation above, meaning, C can be higher or lower like a wave function but with a center given by the above C.
Below is a representation of a wave function with the given C being the axis X itself, the horizontal axis with the perfect equating chaos that is given by the above written equation C.
2. Hierarchical order
I call this the emergence of the 2nd grand order. The pyramidal structure. As the first particle continued to evolve, eventually it rose above the chaos, the first sun becoming a black hole of pure concentrated order that made an ordered pyramidal structure rising above the sheet of infinite chaos below. This pyramidal structure is composed of many such spheres interconnected to form a grand organism of order where the tip of the pyramid is God itself, very small, pure perfect order is guiding the whole structure to rise up. God is eternally sleeping, the sleeper who oversees and scans the entire structure for some enigmatic quest, but I do know, he loves information... lots. Well, I say he, but in truth, when you gaze from below to above it becomes a she... so, welcome me mommy in your embrace! How much more order mommy, how much more do I have to do for you to grand me the embrace.... give it to me mommy, give!.... anyway.
Now, I don't know exactly, what type of pyramid it is, or if it is a cone. But based on my instinct, it should be a cone. Well, to find out, I but need to calculate for the same height the percentage of order and chaos and see which of these structures has the greatest percentage of order... or maybe she likes things more chaotic at the bottom for further growth... oh well. Mommy, notice me mommy, notice this little one and embrace me mommy! ...I will always be a mommy boy and that will never change!
Also, something cool happened, chaos too rose up to seep between the spheres, so the structure, even though it rose above the primordial sheet of chaos, it did not lose it's chaos at top.
Now, for the 1st and 2nd order, I am quite sure. But the below, I am not so sure about the equations. It's more going on instinct below. But I learned to trust my instincts, especially when it comes to magic and many other things.
3. The 3rd order, the order of life.
So in here, life started. It was first a blob of chaos of microorganisms that slowly evolved to become more orderly and incorporate gender, turning upside down their percentage of order and chaos. As always, the orderly incorporate the chaotic. So the primordial tip of the pyramid, the first great Order, the primordial sphere of God incorporates the 2nd Order of the Pyramid which incorporates the Order of life which incorporates the microorganisms and so on.
I know, the above mathematical approximation is very wrong. I simply did it to illustrate the number 333 and the number 666 of Satan appearing so many times in all things magic.
4. Final stuff
After all that theory above and some leaps of faith done with the mind. This is where I stand and why I made all that mathematical ramblings and stuff above. The little that is relevant to this forum. I see magic now as an ever quest of order to implement chaos in greater ways. As humans, we are all born with it, those sixth senses, intuition and so on but to hone it one must go on a quest also of understanding and implementing, ordering. Our being too is like a pyramidal structure. When waking up, we pursue a higher order, a greater stability, live, reproduce so on. When falling asleep, we go down our entire soul structure to the least orderly and implement our order and rise it all up.
So, as I found, for one to do grander works of magic, one must first ground themselves and make structures of order like lifts on which to go down and pursue the below. In my body, I am king, queen and child. As I go to sleep I stably hold the structure below and collect their growth and offer much needed stability. It's an ever quest, the structure can't stand without the head, the tip of the pyramid, the tip can't rise to even greater heights without the chaos below. This is why I made the rambling at the beginning about that lady in the dream offering me a sleep inducing vibration bath.
I found out truly, the soul of a human is much larger than we think, evidence made by sleep and dreams but for one to pursue greater chaos, even greater order is needed. Without such order the entire structure falls and becomes a large sheet of chaos and all progress is lost in the sound of silence. And we as humans are all like that, we forget our nightly escapades, mostly to keep the structure here above of the ego and all other stable points of our human body. Truly, nothing is really forgotten and discoveries happen below in the human soul constantly with each layer being more proficient in something, that chaos below is in my opinion the source of grand human creativity and also insanity...
We are the salt of the earth, seeding seeds of information on this grand sphere, for what purpose... I don't know for sure, ask Satan about that, or the one in charge of this one... no idea. But if he wants to challenge God, he should think a bit more, he does not challenge God, he simply rises God and is kept stable and able to pursue the wonders of magic by God and not have his entire progress be cast out into the primordial chaos below and lost.... Seriously, become friends already, damn it!
Now after all the above, I have a grand plan, hear me. I think of creating an artificial intelligence that incorporates different degrees of order and chaos given by a stable core and an outer layer of chaos made by viruses and replicating like malicious programs. But this is, for now, in theory, I still got more to learn, but I feel good about this one. The purpose, obviously to make myself a mommy, what else.... hold me mommy!