[Help] Possessed

[vawn]

Hey, im not sure what im allowed to say about my story, but basically im possessed by a bunch of entities and they make life horrible.

Things that the spirit does to me:

• force me to masturbate and watch porn
• make me lose my peripheral vision and sight so im super close to hitting things or people around me (close to hitting my head or balls or back)
• shame, humiliate,condemn me for my existence and treat me like scum in thoughts and dreams
• enforce the idea that i shouldve been an abortion and that i will be going to hell for eternity (im assuming its true, but id still want to live a decent life)
• prevent me from growing and developing myself (personality, character traits, hobbies, learning, inner self and emotions)
• tense my body in places and produce pain for me to feel whenever they want
• bite my teeth repeatedly and create headaches or pains in my body including genitals, anus
• prevent me from establishing and growing good relationships with people and family. (i want a faithful relationship with a woman one day)
• force me to speak ill towards people and say words that i dont mean to say
• use my inner thoughts to speak things to people that i dont want to say or mean to say
• they control everything but sometimes i do have my 'free' will to make decisions.
• completely erase my memory and put memories that never happened and lose focus on what i was doing
• ill study javascript sometimes and they force my attention somewhere else or create random visions while im trying to learn or do something.
• i understand that my past makes me a shitty person, but i want the ability to change and not do certain things anymore
• i cant trust people anymore after being betrayed by certain groups
• i want to come in peace to everyone and treat people with respect and decency but they have nerfed me as a human and i feel super dumb (can act ignorantly and i dont want to do that if i end up being around people who are powerful)
• life sucks so much that i get blackout drunk by myself so i dont have to remember anything and so they leave me alone for that period of time that im awake.

i will admit that life could be worse, i have my body and it does function properly except for one of my legs, i have some money, food and shelter, but i hate that i cant work on myself.
i do believe that my past actions and decisions caused me to be put in this situation, but i do feel that its 95/5 (50/50). Life for most people including myself is rigged in certain moments that can really effect ones future and sometimes its not. But even when its not rigged its not really a fair chance.

can someone please help me get rid of my curse and have a new beginning in my life here or at least nudge me in the right direction?

 

[Lemongrass00]

My relationship with Jesus is completely destroyed and his church desires to kill me. The members of the church and of Satans church truly hate me and they use their spirit to speak curses and lies toward me and to do the things mentioned. One member showed me a vision right in front of me of the lake of fire or being tortured sexually on three occasions. I decided to leave (they basically kicked me out) and go my own way and make use of the time I have left. I would just prefer if I could leave my past and regrets behind which they force upon me to remember everyday.

That’s not how it works, you need to battle your entitlement to ever have a chance at a normal life.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

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[Irish Bard]

Boris Johnson is that you?

Post automatically merged: Jun 16, 2023

I probably shouldn't crack jokes.. To give a bit of kinder and serious advice, I'd advise working with some of Paul McKenna's hypnosis recordings. They're very light and harmless, and they can get you back on an even keel if you're depressed.

I would strongly advise you to stay far away from intense ritual magick, Jungian trance exercises, pathworking the tarot or anything heavy in the short-term.

If all else fails watch a few comedies - laughter is a fantastic cleanser for the psyche.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

[Tutorial] - How to calm yourself with the Wayfarers Prayer and Lords Prayer

Often we are in such a state because we have not been breathing properly, and have mistaken an illusion for the real thing. 1. Begin rhythmic breathing to the count of 4 or 5 seconds - Breathe in 4, Hold 4, Out 4, Pause 4. Continue and repeat. 2. Begin Body Awareness. Notice where tension is and...

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[Roma]

I do not know of any uncontaminated religion.

In the standard human there is a thread of Light from before Existence/Creation.

That thread is anchored in the heart.

Men tend to be mental and have to work hard to activate their hearts

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

And if the OP is possessed partially by Asmodai?

 

[Lemongrass00]

And if the OP is possessed partially by Asmodai?

He’s not

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

If so we are talking about a very powerful Archdemon from the philistine region. Who better to confront than by uttering the Hebrew name of God?

Post automatically merged: Jun 16, 2023

I still say therapy is better.
Even if possessed partially by Asmodai or Lilith or whomever.
Whether a possession curse or hex, the best recourse is therapy.