Hi guys, I've been working on my journal and I need some examples from y'all about feelings. I've been documenting things I've been experiencing supernatural inside and out. I've been pondering the feelings you receive during supernatural events. So for example my newest feeling I've received while meditating is a sensation in my back. It feels like something slithering on each side beside my spine.
I want to know what kind of feelings you have had during supernatural events(ie meditations or rituals).
As an Elementalist, feeling is practically the focal point of the entire system, it is the primary instrument of measurement and operation for most work.
As such, there's far too many feelings intrinsic to the practice that I can't describe in detail without becoming tedious.
Of course, there's the cliché effects of each Element's power during the act of accumulation, whether it be the burning hotness of the Fire, the weightlessness of the Air, the icy cold of the Water, and the paralyzing weight of the Earth.
And then there's the spontaneous emotional manifestations that occur alongside these, but I've already talked about those things so much already on this forum and I would like to talk about something else for once, so I'll settle with this brief summary and shine some light on other things I've experienced that aren't so cliche instead.
One of these experiences occurred with the so-called Vital Force(vril, chi, whatever you want to call it).
This was many years ago, during a time where I was quite invested into practice with the VF instead of the Elements.
One day I sat up in my bed against the wall to prepare for an accumulation of the VF, which was a daily routine for me, but this time it went quite wrong.
The first few inhalations of the VF were relatively normal, but as I approached the next ones between 5-10, each inhalation started to build this abnormally overwhelming feeling on my nervous system that is hard to describe.
As I neared the 10-12 inhalations, I was forced to slow down because I started to have trouble maintaining focus and my control was being increasingly paralyzed by this building resonation throughout my body.
At the 13th inhalation, my body completely locked up under the pressure of this accumulation and I was entirely paralyzed, but then I also noticed my consciousness was starting to slip away - I was fainting.
The second I realized I was slipping into unconsciousness, I desperately started to expel the accumulation as fast as I could. The paralysis faded away, and my consciousness started regaining its foothold.
It took me the rest of the day to fully recover from the lingering effects, however.
I still don't quite know why this happened the way it did, but nevertheless it was an "interesting" experience to say the least, if somewhat terrifying.
Perhaps I simply accumulated with greater efficiency that day than what I'm used to, resulting in an overload that my body couldn't handle, or perhaps I accidentally accumulated the VF too much into my spinal column, creating a disproportionate pressure on the central nervous system.
Another thing I noticed while working with the VF around those times was that it hindered my ability to sleep.
If I did it before bed, I simply wouldn't be able to sleep for hours, and I also needed less sleep in general.
There are other notable feeling-based experiences I've had that I've considered sharing, but I'm uncertain if I want to share some of those more personal stories at the moment, and this is already more than a sufficient wall of text anyways, so I'll leave it as is for now.
