Book Club Recommended Reading List for Chao-Animist Necromancy

[MorganBlack]

Chao-Animist Necromancy, my half-joke fancy name for just Traditional Western Magic and Witchcraft, with some modern adaptations.

For newcomers who have not yet ambered in cruft their personal operative myths... I say start with Chaos Magic, then move into practices that make you calm and focused.

In trad sorcery you get what you bring, so start with Mitch Horowitz's - '30-Day Mental Challenge'.

Do it until you have control over your imagination and are not a bitter, sniveling asshole. (As we all start off as). I consider this equivalent mastering the Practicus Grade, and the element of 'Water' in the Golden Dawn system.

In trad sorcery you get what you bring, so bring your best self, as they say

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In his book ' Pieces of Eight' chaos magician and shamanic practitioner Gordon White gives his recommend reading list for a minimum credible Rune Soup chaos magic library.

There is Magic, which is a very different category from the things that are merely magical. This list goes a a long way to help newcomers to learn which is witch is what. Many practitioners and seekers tend to smear it all together under the ubiquitous word Persian loan-word "magic" , so I appreciate White's breakdown into more distinctive and useful categories.

I have some of my 2025 essential reading I'll add below, but I think this list is super solid, and I'll post it here unedited first.

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Rune Soup Chaos Magic Library
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Chaos Magic
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Liber Kaos – Peter J Carroll
Liber Null & Psychonaut – Peter J Carroll
Psybermagick: Advanced Ideas in Chaos Magick – Peter J Carroll
The Apophenion – Peter J Carroll
The Octavo – Peter J Carroll
Epoch: The Esotericon and Portals of Chaos – Peter J Carroll & Matt Kabryn
Pieces of Eight – Gordon White
Necronomicon - Simon (edited)

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Western Magic and Witchcraft (Practical)
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The Magical Treatise of Solomon or Hygromanteia – Ioannis Marathakis
The Lesser Key of Solomon – Joseph Peterson
Apocalyptic Witchcraft – Peter Grey
The Greek Magical Papyri in Translation – Hans Dieter Betz
The Book of St Cyprian: The Sorcerer’s Treasure – José Leitāo
Book 4 – Aleister Crowley
Three Books of Occult Philosophy – Henry Cornelius Agrippa
The Orphic Hymns - Apostolos N. Athanassakis and Benjamin M. Wolkow
The Chaos Protocols – Gordon White

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Western Magic and Witchcraft (Historical/Contextual)
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Geosophia - Jake Stratton-Kent
Grimoires: A History of Magic Books – Owen Davies
Lucifer: Princeps – Peter Grey
Star.Ships: A Prehistory of the Spirits – Gordon White
Mystical Origins of the Tarot – Paul Huson
The Quest for Hermes Trismegistus – Gary Lachman
Thrice Great Hermetica and the Janus Age – Joseph P Farrell
Magic, Witchcraft and Ghosts in the Greek and Roman World – Daniel Ogden
The Classical World – Robin Lane Fox
Comparing Religions – Jeffrey Kripal
Aleister Crowley: The Biography – Tobias Churton
The Ancient Mysteries – Marvin Meyer
The Sacred and the Profane – Mircea Eliade
The Origins of the World’s Mythologies – E.J. Michael Witzel
Sinister Forces vol 1, 2 and 3 – Peter Levenda
The Red Book – C. G. Jung
Techniques of Graeco-Egyptian Magic – Stephen Skinner
Techniques of Solomonic Magic – Stephen Skinner

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Psi and Science
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The Science Delusion – Rupert Sheldrake
Consciousness Beyond Life – Pim Van Lommel
Science and Psychic Phenomena: The Fall of the House of Skeptics – Chris Carter
Authors of the Impossible – Jeffrey Kripal
Cosmic Trigger vol 1 – Robert Anton Wilson
Permaculture: A Designer’s Manual – Bill Mollison

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UFOs and Spirits
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Supernatural – Graham Hancock
Dimensions – Jacques Vallée
Confrontations – Jacques Vallée
Forbidden Science vol 1, 2 and 3 – Jacques Vallée
The Super Natural – Jeffrey Kripal and Whitley Streiber
The Trickster and the Paranormal – George P. Hansen
Final Events – Nick Redfern
Food of the Gods – Terence McKenna

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Economics and Probability
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Antifragile: Things That Gain From Disorder – Nicholas Nassim Taleb
The Drunkard’s Walk: How Randomness Rules Our Lives – Leonard Mlodinow
The Internet is Not the Answer – Andrew Keen
Get a Job, Build a Real Career and Defy a Bewildering Economy – Charles Hugh-Smith

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Morgan's 2025 Additional Recommendations
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Essential Core Concepts
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-- Karen Armstrong - A Short History of Myth (2005)
-- Patrick Harpur - Daimonic Reality: A Field Guide to the Otherworld (2003)
-- Patrick Harpur - The Secret Tradition of the Soul (2011)
-- Dr. Gregory Shaw - Hellenic Tantra: The Theurgic Platonism of Iamblichus
-- Porphyry - On Images
--Ramsey Dukes - SSOTBME Revised

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Chaos Magic / New Thought
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-- Mitch Horowitz - 'The Miracle Club: How Thoughts Become Reality'
-- Mitch Horowitz - '30-Day Mental Challenge'
-- Neville Goddard - All of his Law of Assumption (avoid all the Law of Attraction people who add unnecessary imaginative constructs)
-- Peter J. Carroll, and others - This Is Chaos: Embracing the Future of Magic
I higly recommend Chap. 8 by Ivy Corvus: Thread Theory: A New Chaos Approach
This is shocking close to to my own theories and practical addition, and hits on what is overlooked point in the entire practice.

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Grimoires ( Classic)
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-- Grimorium Verum
-- Pietro d'Abano - The Heptameron
-- Abraham of Worms - The Book of Abramelin
-- The Sworn Book of Honorius (Liber Juratus)
-- The Picatrix

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Contemporary Books
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-- Stephen Skinner - The Goetia of Dr Rudd
For a less-spooky-than-GV pratice Skinner's book will introduce you to the archetypal ritual structures of Western Magic.
-- Joseph Peterson and Stephen Skinner, all books,
Pay attetnion to their work re-covering and translating primary sources of the traditon.
-- Jake Stratton-Kent
For his historical takes reviving the Greek thread of Goetia. But most importantly , read for his general operative stance attitude toward practice. Game knows game.
-- Aaron Leitch - Secrets of the Magickal Grimoires
Read for a much excellent attempt to comprehensively and concisely get a handle for what is going on - the symbolism and the living embodied poetry of Goetia and ceremonial magic overall .
-- Jake Stratton-Kent - Pandemonium
-- David Rankine - Claves Intelligentiarum
-- Jake Stratton-Kent - The Sworn and Secret Grimoire (Night School)

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Philosophical / Theological / Practical (Classic)
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-- Iamblichus - On the Mysteries of the Egyptians, Chaldeans, and Assyrians (De Mysteriis)
-- Michael Psellus - On The Operation Of Daemons (De Operatione Daemonum)
-- The Chaldean Oracles
-- The Corpus Hermeticum
-- Plato - Timaeus
-- The Bible - For those approaching necromancy / Goetia from a Judeo-Christian mythic framework. Those with religious Christo-trauma from growing up in the big box brand American churches, start with the Book of Revelations, and the Psalms (which preceed Chistianity.
-- Agrippa - Three Books of Occult Philosophy
-- Pseudo-Agrippa - The Fourth Book of Occult Philosophy

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Conjure, Hoodoo, Brujeria, Hechicería' - New World Witchcraft (Practical)
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-- Harry Middleon Hyatt - Hoodoo, Conjuration, Witchcraft & Rootwork Vols. 1-5
-- Catherine Yronwode - Hoodoo Herb and Root Magic
-- Brother Moloch - Online. For all the advice he gave us Gen-Xers coming out of the 1990's Boomer lodge magic head trip.
-- Malcom Mills - Potion Book (stolen and published by Herman Slater)
-- Starr Casas - Old Style Conjure: Hoodoo, Rootwork, & Folk Magic

Almost there!
-- S. Jason Black (with Christopher S. Hyatt ) - Pacts with the Devil
-- Tarostar's "witchcaft" books -
- Knocking off points for presenting (er, or "appropriating". as the kids say these days) New World Conjure / Brujeria as European "pagan" witchcraft.
But whatever , it was the 1980's and people knew next to nothing. And his work is still useful in a sorecerous practice

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Morgan's Essential Core Concepts Addendum
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-- George P. Hansen - The Trickster and the Paranormal

Since this was on Gordon's list I originally didn't add it, but on second I wanted to highlight it here.

I can't recommend Hansen's book highly enough. Be sure to read it along with the others in this category, then watch connections bubble up in your brain.

Where it fits.
The more paranormal dynamic and characteristics of evocation come into play when you bring thought-beings (daimons, spirits) 'out' , of the 'Mental Plane' and 'down' into to the colorful and chaotic Carnival of the Sublunar World. There they take on bodies that are made of the more tempestuous astral flux.

The Trickster element comes into play in the practive here, mostly becasue of the chaotic emotions that come with indivduality this far 'down' into Duality. This is the point where the more traditional tools will start to make a lot more sense .

Mastering you emotions is key here. You can also rile them up for spiritual warfare protected targets, but that hits in advanced sorcery techniques that is not without some danger

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Joshua Cutchin - Ecology of Souls: A New Mythology of Death & the Paranormal

This book stands on it own. I should probably make a category called...

Essential Late-Stage Core Concept
(Don't open until a couple of years of strictly agnostic practice)

I wasn't going to add this one, but when it was requested, I gave in.

Not becasue it bad. But becasue hits too close to home. And may swap out all useful practices the way the G.D.'s talk about become a Exempt Adept created generations of occult LARPing.

When I read it I was honestly shocked how close the descriptions of abductions mirror some of the more extreme of my own experiences using the Grimorium Verum. Reading this book was like, "Oh, thank God it's not just me." I don't do aliens, so tended to avoid this material for most of my magical career.

I still go back and forth about whether I should talk about this more. It makes me sound like I am on drugs, or insane. I do not have a history of mental illness, do drugs in ritual, and am very much the neurotypical, if a creative one.

And I hate talking about my experiences - and not all of them were so extreme - becasue I feel all that really accomplish is denying other people the opportunity to have experiences all their own.

Mine are really not important for anybody, and as should nobody else's be , except maybe here, as maybe a broad category of experience related to the Underworld Initiation. So I will leave out the salacious details and stick with the bigger picture.

Cutchin's work investigates in exhaustive detail what can resemble the deep end of practicing the Grimorium Verum, so closely that I feared having The Event (or whatever) would become the next "Look at Me, Super Magus!" (like the HGA, or Crossing the Abyss, or astral projecting into the shrubbery). So that in a year or so , scads of new demonic "traditions" would pop up talking ALL about it, and trying to sell you "magic" courses full of tattoo flash and imagination exercises guaranteed to give you the Underworld Initiation—if you just believe hard enough.

(FYI: Belief is not necessary. If you practice the GV, you do not need to project your hopes and ego into it. Take it at face value. No need to colonize your intellect with occult puffery)

I also can't say this may apply for people using the other grimoires, but the "pact-based" grimoires are deeply chthonic. If the Lesser Key is you in the Underworld looking at the Stars (see JSK and Stellas Daemonum), then GV is more like you in the Underworld looking at the Stars, but through MORE Underworld.

Even practicing GV, I can't say it presents a linear, deterministic way to guarantee to trigger this event. It doesn't. I suspect it has to happen at a certain point in your life, in your own mythic journey, when you are passing through the Death Card or at the cusp of the Dark Night of the Soul, or and need to change... AND you "step into ritual" - either accidentally, like the UFO abductee's do - or on purpose, as we magicians do.

I will say the extreme theophanic manifestations are both not necessary for practical sorcery, but when they happen, they vastly more like UFO abduction-by-daemon than visionary in-your-head experience. You will come back changed. And maybe with a power or two.

Again, I'm not going to give many specific details, what the demon looked like when he appeared in my room, where I was "taken," (not that I believe my body wen anywhere. The demons can crate "illusions" in your brain anytime they want). I will say very positive things was done to me, had some illnesses healed, it was very dramatic. When I "came back" and I instantly was joyful, ecstatically happy for about three days.

The changes in my personality since then have made me far more kind, forgiving, loving. Hardly the bitter asshole 1990 - 2010 Luciferians pose as.

... but it me took a while to deal with it - in good ways and weird, life-changing ways. The powers I came back with helped me navigate the psychopaths in the corporate world. But the changes also triggered my need for a life change. I did was quit my corporate life, and set out on my own, and started a 3D animation company.

 

[ZAXCY]

Love the Epoch shout out - fresh to the occult defs saving this list to flesh out my library

 

[Angelkesfarl]

I also can't say this may apply for people using the other grimoires, but the "pact-based" grimoires are deeply chthonic. If the Lesser Key is you in the Underworld looking at the Stars (see JSK and Stellas Daemonum), then GV is more like you in the Underworld looking at the Stars, but through MORE Underworld.

"I am very interested in your perspective on 'The Trickster' element within the practice. We call this type of energy—which manifests when entities 'descend' into our material world—'The Fluctuation of Raw Nature.' The mastery over emotions that you mentioned is exactly what we call 'The Stillness of the Commanding Self' (Sukun al-Nafs al-Ammara), ensuring that the entity does not hijack the practitioner’s consciousness.

My question to you, as a friend searching in the same forest: Do you believe that the 'Pact' in the GV (Grimorium Verum) provided the protection during your healing experience? Or was it your 'Mental Discipline' (the Mitch Horowitz challenge) that enabled you to return safely with a kinder heart?

Thank you for sharing this part of your 'flesh and blood' knowledge with us, and not just mere paper and ink.

 

[MorganBlack]

'The Stillness of the Commanding Self' (Sukun al-Nafs al-Ammara),

Ah, exactly! You impress me here. In the 'The Stillness of the Commanding Self', we find much we agree on. In the Western System - well, before everyone went atheist - , we seek an expression through Christ as Love and remaking the world - to translate that for people who are more pagan, and people of other faiths, this "refinement of the soul" can be see in a more shamanic sense of "self-coherence" and "right relation" to other sentient beings. This is the New World indigenous way of seeing these processes.

Theurgy, in my opinion, is actually Sublunar . It is an illusion for the benefit of your Nephesh - your animal-intstinctual/ body soul - so it can better reflect the Light of God. (Pagans will say "the gods" which is fine, same deal, to my Panthiest mind. ) . Our Nephesh is very much like a child. You don't yell at the child who is holding a knife. You offer them a piece of candy, and trade the hurtful blade for a sweet thing.

Mitch Horowitz 30-Day challenge, devotional prayer in the Catholic "reality" , was well as the Catholic practice embracing kindness, love, compassion, forgiveness, grace and charity , and a Zen Buddhist meditation practice works here for me.

Chistianity is the "baby steps" as we learn to have a calm soul - after that you are prepered for the next part, IF you are to follow it ! You call Angels! Daimons! And the whole sublunar show - but without homecoming "obsessed" - the word word is "possessed" which is not wrong but very negative word here. The daimons are "Soul" they help shape your soul.

The daimons are not "tricksters" but the nature of the Sublunar world is one of the wild forces of nature in the Astral Flux beneath the Moon... it is tricksey like the weather or wild animals are tricksy. Also, we all have many selves-identities. You are not the same person when engaged with your family as when you are at work at the office. When "Under the moon" we are subject to many dreams.

In New World sorcery this quality is used to get their most aggressive manifestation for spiritual warfare. You call them into a "dream" where everyone is drunk , gunpowder cracks and smokes, fires burn, alchohol is set aflame, and what you get is their most aggressive manifestations and send them to deal with hardened spiritual targets.

Once they are "brought down" the whole process becomes much more of an advanced practice. Maintainting a "cool" head, avoiding anger, is part of the practice here. From a New World perspective, anger attracts the "bad" - the hungry dead , muertos, diabs (legit devils), the things that live in the Underworld.

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which manifests when entities 'descend' into our material world—'The Fluctuation of Raw Nature.'

Yes! That is actually very sophisticated. I totally agree here. In the Western system, 'The Fluctuation of Raw Nature' sounds like what would be thought of as the flux and tides of the Sublunar world—the realm 'beneath the Moon.'

Here, the daimons are not 'tricksters' per se, but the nature of the Sublunar world is one of the wild forces of nature in the Astral Flux. We all have many selves. You are not the same person when engaging with your family as when you are at work in the office. 'Under the Moon,' we are subject to many dreams.

In New World sorcery, this changeful, reflecting quality is sometimes used to get their most aggressive manifestation for spiritual warfare. You call them into a 'dream' , a war dance party where everyone is drunk, gunpowder cracks and smokes, fires burn, and alcohol is set aflame. What you get is their most aggressive manifestations. Again, this can be seen in a New World 'shamanic' sense - and I am making this term up here - as establishing 'wrong relation' to do an enemy harm. The enemy is a personor group who is the initator of violcence, and so are therefore are already out of 'right relation,' and the magician is re-establishing it. The work is considered 'justified' but we still have to "come back" from it an reange with the comminity ythorugh kindess, gre, mercy, humility and all the sweet things we have worked so hard to make part of us.

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OK, the harder philosophical foundations aew bit harder to translate, even while we agree on best practices.

Mat Hadfield is a "Grim Verum guy" like myself, and he is doing a good very job elucidating the background Saturn-Time / Solar Decan Astro-Theology where the GV is "in".

Of Gates and Habitations: Pt I The Roles of Asmodai and Amaymon

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While is pleases me that it sounds like in practice we share similar operative 'modes,' the Grimorium Verum (GV) becomes confusing if viewed through a dualist theological ens. It doesn’t operate in a 'Good vs. Evil' binary; it operates in a Sublunar - Solar - Time one.

In the Western Esoteric and Orphic traditions, 'Lucifer' isn't the 'Beast' of the lower passions. Rather, he represents the specific Intelligence of the Divine Mind,even of " far away"of the the light of consciousness as it filters down through the Moon into the material world. To borrow a concept from the East, we can think of these Underworld daimons as 'Neoplatonic-Orphic Wrathful Buddhas.' From personal experience by myself and the TENS of people who actually use the GV, that is what they "do"

Their role isn't to lead the soul into 'sin,' but to act as a fire of the underworld, the volcano, that burns the 'gunk' off the soul. For those who engaged with the GV, the parts of their life or ego that prevent spiritual evolution are often scorched away. This is not pleasant but they are better for it. It is an 'Underworld' system because it deals with the foundations of our density.

For some of us - myself include - who are 'thick-headed' or particularly dense, the GV serves as a very accessible, albeit intense, initiatory system. Seeing the daimons in a Neoplatonic light helps temper the 'learning fire' of the work; it allows us to see the Intelligence manifest in the tempestuous Astral flux rather than just a theological 'Satan.'

In the Orphic Mysteries - which was just part of the Roman-Hellenic cultural matrix where Catholcism came about - the initiation journey is to refine the soul so it becomes light as air, ascending toward the Divine in Heaven, here conceived as the "nice part of the afterlife. . If the soul remains 'heavy' with the passions , regret, or 'The Grave,' it sinks into the denser layers of the afterlife - what the Greeks called Tartarus and later traditions called Hell.

I tend to agree 50 % with the cautious stance of the Church and many Sufi orders - most people shouldn't 'swim' in these raging currents. It’s like entering a raging river to test your mettle. These aren't places of theological torment. But the The Sublunar world is the "passions." and these tides can lead be realms of extreme self-obsession and petty material concerns, removed from the 'Face of God.' For me kindness, grace, and compassion are the rudders of the soul.

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Anwya, I really recommend reading this piece by Mat Hadfield 'Of Gates and Habitations'. When you come across the name "Lucifer" think of him in a different light than the embodiment of the animal world. It clarifies that the Underworld journey in the Grimorium Verum isn't a descent into sin, but a descent into the 'Foundational Memory' of the world.

Hadfield makes a point that I think aligns with your mystical practice: the Underworld is a place of Atmospheres. When we deal with these spirits, we aren't summoning 'monsters' from a cage; we are entering 'Habitations' - states of being that exist at the very root of the material world.

If you view Lucifer as the 'Beast' (the Nafs), you might miss his function in this specific system. In the GV, these figures act as Gatekeepers of the Threshold. They represent the 'Heavy Light' - he consciousness that remains bound to the Earth and the grave.

Hadfield suggests that the 'Underworld' is actually the Primal City. We go there not to become 'beastly,' but to understand the architecture of our own reality. But this is the job of the Orphic Hero, and not for the timid. As he notes, the journey is about 'the refining of the senses' within the darkness. It’s like the Barzakh - an intermediary zone where the soul meets the reflections of its own weight.

In this context, working with the GV is about reconciling with the base of the mountain, rather than just staring at the peak. It’s dangerous because, as you say, if one’s heart isn't refined, one gets 'stuck' in the density (the 'Hell' of the passions). But for the operator, it is a way to ensure that even the 'lowest' parts of the world are brought into the light of Divine Order."

 

[Angelkesfarl]

I tend to agree 50 % with the cautious stance of the Church and many Sufi orders - most people shouldn't 'swim' in these raging currents. It’s like entering a raging river to test your mettle. These aren't places of theological torment. But the The Sublunar world is the "passions." and these tides can lead be realms of extreme self-obsession and petty material concerns, removed from the 'Face of God.' For me kindness, grace, and compassion are the rudders of the soul.

Hadfield suggests that the 'Underworld' is actually the Primal City. We go there not to become 'beastly,' but to understand the architecture of our own reality. But this is the job of the Orphic Hero, and not for the timid. As he notes, the journey is about 'the refining of the senses' within the darkness. It’s like the Barzakh - an intermediary zone where the soul meets the reflections of its own weight.

Man, you carry all of this in your heart? You are very deep, my friend. In your journey, you have shown me the equivalent of Lucifer; in our tradition, we simply call it the first soul among seven souls. It is the 'Commanding Self' (Nafs al-Ammara)—that lying, sinful, wild, and reckless essence. It corresponds to the first 'Hot' element in the psycho-alchemical equation before it was weighted by the 'Dry' element in the conflict of beginnings promoted by all myths. For by the collision of two peers, the first male is born—wild and red, a fire that burns.

Here comes the 'Reproachful Self' (Nafs al-Lawwama); it is the 'Cold' in its first encounter with the 'Moist,' so the winds are fertilized by water droplets, and the rains fall wild and heavy upon the 'Dry' to dissolve its impurities and decompose its layers. Thus, the hidden spirit is cast into the seeds of thought and knowledge. Yet, it is a heavy, tense, and confused knowledge—to be precise—between its soaring origin and its diving mother.

The first astrological square is completed; the Sun has met the Moon, and the Fire has drunk from the springs of Water. The waves clash, and from the soul emerge the exhalations of knowledge—burning and illuminating. There, amidst the Barzakhs (isthmuses), all idols fall, and only one thing remains: You. You find yourself the greatest of giants, powered by your inner light springing from your pure source, through the knowledge of the First Originator, before whom there is no beginning for anything—He alone is the source of everything. His majesty radiates such light that no angel hears His words without fainting from His awe—except you, oh small in size, great in spirit.

In the internal mirror, you see the Barzakhs as they veil themselves with colors and curtains, and as they are pierced by lights. You die happy, only to be resurrected on the other side of the bottomless sea. There, you will find yourself empty of everything; no past to grieve over, no future to rejoice in—only You and Him. There, my friend, you reach cognitive perfection: Al-Itmi'nan (Tranquility/Peace). For it negates all confusion, greed, or lust. You return to your dust—which you left behind in your annihilation (Fana') beneath the Moon—to mix with your will and transform, so the Phoenix may rise, adorned in its colors. Demons and spirits are struck with awe at its sight; your words are fire, your breath is air, your feet are in the deepest dust of the ancient seas, and your hands hold the Sun and the Moon. Thus, you are the one submissive to Him by recognition, and His vicegerent (Khalifa) by will.

I do not need many books or the visions of writers; I wanted to meet you after a clash—do you know why? To see the Essence, not the Appearance. I meet you there, where the Barzakhs allow dreams to fade and embody realities. Every land has its Sage (Hakim), just as every tribe has its demon and its guardian angel.

Peace, my friend. Would you grant me a drop of Al-Wajd (Ecstasy/وجد)? For the cup of love is... I am..."