Rituals, resistance + timing

[kiki]

I have a kind of - it seems like a stupid question. So I've been into the more research, studying, learning side but I have a real struggle with the ritual and with just maintaining the right supplies and I often feel like when I need to engage in a ritual I never have the right herb or colored string or the right colored candle or like I'm just messy with it or I mix up directions and if I'm not sort of already energetically in a space where I feel really connected it's very difficult for me to set intentions or cast spells. I often feel like my timing is off.

I kind of wonder if maybe there's a more deep-seated belief here that I have some kind of a fear of casting rituals. Or maybe I believe I'm going to mess it up and that's why it manifests as this kind of energetic friction. Or if for me I'm just somebody that's built with the Constitution that needs to go more with the flow and be less pedantic about things and stop trying to do what everybody else is doing.

I've tried so many times to do something to help me transition through a particular season when everybody else is going through it, but I often find that my flow tends to be at a different rhythm than the collective and someties even the opposite.

 

[Morell]

I've tried so many times to do something to help me transition through a particular season when everybody else is going through it, but I often find that my flow tends to be at a different rhythm than the collective and someties even the opposite.

This what you say seems to be important. You are unique person so it makes sense that what works for others might not work for you and that is fine. You are obviously facing blocks telling you that something is wrong and some self-reflectin is definitely in order.

I suppose that you are rather beginner and that's fine. I suggest to start simple. Even just lighting a candle, drawing a sigil on small paper, charging it and burning it with flame is full scale ritual, very simple and just as effective. Add some meditating to master your focus and you get quite a good system to work with. Even slaves during history were able to do magic with whatever they had, even with nothing. So you can do the same. It's not about the tools, but about the forces you wish to connenct with.