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This is basically my first time actually making an account on a forum like this and putting myself out there instead of just lurking like usual, but I figured this could be an interesting thing to be involved with, so hello people
Annnd I guess this is where I talk a little about myself and where I come from.
I'm actually from a Catholic family, but they weren't the hardcore type, so luckily for me it wasn't like living in some anti-occult concentration camp all my childhood like the case is for a lot of others.
All my parents really cared about, is that I just had faith in God and "keep my eyes towards the heavens" generally speaking, regardless of anything else. And it should be noted that I definitely do those things, because that kind of mindset is pretty much what became the foundation of my aspirations and practices later, just taken to the extreme beyond the borders of mundane religion.
Anyways, personally speaking I wouldn't say I'm Catholic myself, but I did at least appreciate the experience a bit as I grew up and it did play a role in inspiring my own spirituality and occult interests.
Basically, I was brought up in the church like most people are when I was young, but..... as I was growing up, the more I started to feel that there had to be more to everything, that religion just wasn't cutting it. I enjoyed it, but it felt incomplete - it didn't really actually explain a whole lot, and it mostly just seemed like convenient, simple mythology in lieu of an actual understanding of divinity and the spiritual foundation of the universe.
It may or may not have truths and reality mixed in with it, but it mostly just started to seem like a well-accepted folk tale that glossed over what should be a rather profound and complex topic, just for the sake of propping up some typical religious ideology instead.
Don't get me wrong though, I'm not saying Christ never existed, heaven and angels and demons don't exist, and things like that, because I am definitely confident in the existence of those sorts of things, I just doubted the way religion paints it so simplistically, I doubted the "religion" part of it itself and the narrative around it.
So anyways, while I was still a young teen, my doubts began to inspire an interest outside religion, and while at first that only amounted to surfing the internet for supposed angel pictures/videos/folklore like a typical child would, it eventually grew into dabbling with occultism for real after a few years.
It started with me testing the waters in witchcraft and some kinds of chaos magic, but it didn't really feel right for me, nor did it actually give me what I was looking for. I was particularly drawn to the idea of angels, celestial mechanisms, and heavenly concepts, I wanted to understand more about it and felt like finding a way to "participate" in that in a sense, so I inevitably moved passed those other things after a while and kept on digging.
Finally though, I stumbled upon the Kybalion and Agrippa's books on occult philosophy, and it was just a total godsend and revelation for me. It just perfectly fit that niche that I was looking for, and that's how I got hooked into Western esotericism.
At first I found myself interested in the popular ceremonial magic aspect and practicing theurgy in that way, because, of course, holy rituals and invoking angels and all that stuff seems cool and proper, right?
Well I never really got the chance to practically participate in most of that stuff, because I was too afraid of doing those kinds of practices at home with my family there, even with their openness.
However it didn't end up mattering anyways, because not too long later as I continued researching and surfing occult forums, I ended up having Franz Bardon's works finding their way onto my lap, namely the Initiation Into Hermetics and Practice of Magical Evocation books, and the IIH basically became my bible and the foundation of my practices ever since (and also what inspired my preference for direct magic over ritual magic), while the latter became something to save for the future whenever I moved on from the IIH and had the circumstances to practice ceremonial stuff.
It certainly has been a long road with many years since then, with lots of development and maturity gained along the way, but of course it's going onward still, with plenty of ambitions left to drive it.
Anyways I realize this introduction is getting wayyyyy too long, so yeah there we go, I think I'll leave it at that for now
Hiya everyone, nice to be here.
Annnd I guess this is where I talk a little about myself and where I come from.
I'm actually from a Catholic family, but they weren't the hardcore type, so luckily for me it wasn't like living in some anti-occult concentration camp all my childhood like the case is for a lot of others.
All my parents really cared about, is that I just had faith in God and "keep my eyes towards the heavens" generally speaking, regardless of anything else. And it should be noted that I definitely do those things, because that kind of mindset is pretty much what became the foundation of my aspirations and practices later, just taken to the extreme beyond the borders of mundane religion.
Anyways, personally speaking I wouldn't say I'm Catholic myself, but I did at least appreciate the experience a bit as I grew up and it did play a role in inspiring my own spirituality and occult interests.
Basically, I was brought up in the church like most people are when I was young, but..... as I was growing up, the more I started to feel that there had to be more to everything, that religion just wasn't cutting it. I enjoyed it, but it felt incomplete - it didn't really actually explain a whole lot, and it mostly just seemed like convenient, simple mythology in lieu of an actual understanding of divinity and the spiritual foundation of the universe.
It may or may not have truths and reality mixed in with it, but it mostly just started to seem like a well-accepted folk tale that glossed over what should be a rather profound and complex topic, just for the sake of propping up some typical religious ideology instead.
Don't get me wrong though, I'm not saying Christ never existed, heaven and angels and demons don't exist, and things like that, because I am definitely confident in the existence of those sorts of things, I just doubted the way religion paints it so simplistically, I doubted the "religion" part of it itself and the narrative around it.
So anyways, while I was still a young teen, my doubts began to inspire an interest outside religion, and while at first that only amounted to surfing the internet for supposed angel pictures/videos/folklore like a typical child would, it eventually grew into dabbling with occultism for real after a few years.
It started with me testing the waters in witchcraft and some kinds of chaos magic, but it didn't really feel right for me, nor did it actually give me what I was looking for. I was particularly drawn to the idea of angels, celestial mechanisms, and heavenly concepts, I wanted to understand more about it and felt like finding a way to "participate" in that in a sense, so I inevitably moved passed those other things after a while and kept on digging.
Finally though, I stumbled upon the Kybalion and Agrippa's books on occult philosophy, and it was just a total godsend and revelation for me. It just perfectly fit that niche that I was looking for, and that's how I got hooked into Western esotericism.
At first I found myself interested in the popular ceremonial magic aspect and practicing theurgy in that way, because, of course, holy rituals and invoking angels and all that stuff seems cool and proper, right?
Well I never really got the chance to practically participate in most of that stuff, because I was too afraid of doing those kinds of practices at home with my family there, even with their openness.
However it didn't end up mattering anyways, because not too long later as I continued researching and surfing occult forums, I ended up having Franz Bardon's works finding their way onto my lap, namely the Initiation Into Hermetics and Practice of Magical Evocation books, and the IIH basically became my bible and the foundation of my practices ever since (and also what inspired my preference for direct magic over ritual magic), while the latter became something to save for the future whenever I moved on from the IIH and had the circumstances to practice ceremonial stuff.
It certainly has been a long road with many years since then, with lots of development and maturity gained along the way, but of course it's going onward still, with plenty of ambitions left to drive it.
Anyways I realize this introduction is getting wayyyyy too long, so yeah there we go, I think I'll leave it at that for now
Hiya everyone, nice to be here.
