@Yazata ,
I loved those videos. My vote? The mask is perfect. What I like about these are, they
feel authentic, genuine, and expressing your true nature. I love that. The audio was clear enough for me. I had no trouble understanding you with the one exception of the "Hei" of Hei-Gimmel-Aleph.
Regarding the content, I've mentioned elsewhere here in more detail, that, coming from a jewish background
then learning about the HGA, I understand it as the MZL in hebrew. Generally pronounced MAHzuhl ( spelled "mazel" ) in american english. In israel, they pronounce it, m'ZAHL. Technically it would be pronounced mah'z'AIL.
Understanding the HGA concept as the MZL ( mem-zayin-lamed ) syncs up nicely with what you were saying about the connection of the HGA with configruation of the constellations at birth for each individual. The form of the letters themself ( mem-zayin-lamed ) sync up nicely. The pronounciation syncs up nicely. The writings of the jewish sages about the MZL sync up nicely. I feel rather strongly that this is the original source of the HGA concept.
However, if there is something in your heart/mind/soul ( psyche ) which is curious, inspired, vitalized by hei-gimmel-aleph, I think that's significant. I think it has value, and I think it should be explored. Hei-Gimmel-Aleph exists in the hebrew bible 10 times in 10 verses. As you noted, it only exists 1 time independently in the book of esther. The other occurences are split 6 / 3. 6 times the verses are referring to hei gimmel-aleph-lamed, "the-redemption". The other 3 are, imo, outliers. Those 3 hei-gimmel-aleph combinations are coming from a plural conjugation of gimmel-yud-aleph ( a valley ) where the yud is omitted, "the valleys" hei-gimmel-aleph-yud-vav-tav. Energetically, the word should include the middle yud, but in plural it is almost always excluded. The full spelling, by the way, is written in the torah scrolls in 2 kings 2:16. If that's included, the count of occurences is not 10, it's 11.
From this, I think, there is viable connection between the HGA and the Hei-Gimmel-Aleph-Lamed. Redemption is the act claiming a token which was promised and issued to the individual. In america, we have these things called coupons. I'm not sure if they have them anywhere else. A coupon is something that is in a newspaper, or a magazine, ( back when those print periodicals were circulated regularly ) which would offer a discount on the purchase of something. "$0.50 off dove-soap" "By one get one free". At the bottom of the coupon in fine print, there would be the conditions for "redeeming" it. It would usually say, "1 per customer, redeemable by {date}".
Just as the coupon is issued to the one who purchases the print periodical to be redeemed; I agree, the HGA, as you said, is issued to the individual at birth. The relationship with the HGA is offered, promised, to each and every individual if they choose to redeem it. This syncs up, again, with the ancient MZL concept in jewish myth/legend/lore.
Regarding the active/passive dichotomy, specifically in relation to establishing a relationship with the HGA... Yes. I agree 100% with what you said. The words used in my community are "will-to-bestow" for the active component, and "will-to-receive" for the passive component. What I think you're observing, and what I think you were expressing in the video, is the paradox of the passive component. It is still active. It is actively, intentionally, being passive. It is still "willful". It's not negligent. It's not ambivalent. It is consentual. It is the will-to-receive. Silence, ambivilance, is not consent. It is not the will-to-receive.
The jewish philosophers and mystics, just as you said, describe establishing the relationship/connection with the divine in gender focused language, masculine-and-feminine. They describe a consummation, using veiled, somewhat modest, erotic imagery to describe the interplay of the two partners ( finite-being / inifinite-divine ), simultaneously, pushing-and-pulling. There is an arousal from below, which simultaneously produces an arousal from above. He rises to meet to her, she lowers to greet him... the one brings a drop, the other brings a fountain... etc. The culmination, however, is produced, as you said, if I understood you, when both partners are
twisting. They are both taking a role, and then reversing those roles, pushing, and pulling, turning and turning and turning again, and they are rising together like the vine you saw.
This goes back to the will-to-bestow and the will-to-receive. Life, energy, vitality is flowing when the will-to-bestow is becoming the will-to-receive and the will-to-receive is becoming the will-to-bestow, simultaneously. This consistently produces an energetic relationship with the divine. That was the goal of the jewish philosophers and mystics. Connecting with, ( redeeming the promise of connection ) with the HGA ( a MZL ), from my perspective, operates the same way.
The interplay, the pushing-and-pulling, the roles-reversing, and the acension is... solo. It's happening in the psyche. The individual is adopting both roles, active-and-passive, outreach-and-reception. This is the flow which is producing loft. Stopping at one stage, and not reversing roles, is, like you said, statis. It's a false-summit.
If you want some cool abilities of drawing information directly from books (can be done to any library etc. and just draw it like fiddlesticks in LoL), just tell me 
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I hope you and your new lover live happily ever after
