The Edge

[FireBorn]

This isn’t theory or LARP. I’m talking about that moment in your practice where something shifted, hard.

Maybe you called something, and it answered. Maybe you looked too far into yourself and saw what you weren’t ready to face. Maybe you stood in the presence of something real and felt something break loose inside you.

Have you ever had a brush with that edge?

• How close did you get?
• How long did you stay there?
• What pulled you back, or did you come back changed?

We talk about madness, but often it’s just power that hasn’t integrated yet. Or trauma that magick amplifies until it screams.

What was your “too far” moment, and what did it teach you? I think more of us have been to that edge than we admit.

Obviously answering this takes courage and vulnerability.

Any takers?

 

[Anziel_Merkaba]

I once consecrated a bismuth crystal in such a way that it was The All, which really fucked me up because at that point in my practice I wasn't ready to be able to see everything and touch everything through it. I ended up putting it in a box, grounding myself for a few days, then busting the thing back out a month or two later when I had rationalized everything.

The wild thing is that I naturally ground out hard due to the specifics of my birth, so for something to completely unground me and freak me out that badly was a big deal. I used to be really big into philosophy before I got into magic, so when I had a stone that would let me be able to bypass a person's defenses completely without effort and do whatever I wanted to them, I realized that I could do anything to anyone with it without consequences and it freaked me out. It was like finding a briefcase in an alley somewhere and opening it only to find it has the president's launch codes in it or something.