There are two genders - male and female. Various thoughts, feelings and medical operations don't turn one into another. Very rarely some people get born androgynous, but I doubt that it is your case. Even if it was, if such person can produce semen then he would be considered male, otherwise female. Your gender is connected with your genitals. There is very little "genderization" in Magic unless we speak about some very modern "inventions", and if there is any, it has to do with what kind of genitals you have (or had - in case you allowed some medics to mutilate them). Perhaps you need to look more into classics to see that Magic is above all that "feminine/masculine energies" stuff. Now, I guess, I might get dislikes for what I wrote, but it becomes ridiculous to see where all this New Age stuff is going to.