Alt title: Why does chaos magick involve jacking off to sigils?
I just decided to make it more broad since I think other magical traditions involve some type of sex magick.
Yes I'm too scared too google this and I haven't touched Liber Null in a long time.
I believe Carroll had to step back from his leadership in IOT because he knew he was still seeking that "One" Sigil for a bountiful life of spiritual fulfillment.
In autumn of 2007 I authored a word/sigil out of thin air for my fictional medieval novel.
I would not know its true potential until 2015 when I read it and its counterpart backwards!
This sigil requires 2 steps...
1: the sigil(s) themselves
2: anger/anxiety suppression
Here goes...
Rule#1: aphrodisiacs start with L and end with N
Lesbian & Leiscerbettian
Leiscerbettian
->spell backwards, who you see?
->an imaginary spirit
Leiscerbette
->imaginary city
->spell backwards, who you see?
->an imaginary spirit
NOTE: "ette" sounds like "eddy"
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Rule#2: "Anger needs Oxygen"

DO NOT HOLD YOUR BREATH!
"Slow-Breathing" helps keep balanced levels of Oxygen & Carbon Dioxide.
Anger is Anxiety!
Anxiety is Anger!
Anger is Anxiety expressed outwards; Anxiety is Anger expressed inwards.
It is okay to get angry -just know the difference (see below)
"Rational Anger" (I lost my keys, my tire has a flat, etc)
"Irrational Anger" (I hate rainy days I hate the scar on my face, etc)
"Irrational Anger" is those things we have no control over.
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These things are now very simple to me. The narrative no longer belongs to the collective -but to each individual.
Good Luck!
PS- As for "Lesbian", both its imaginary spirits are Sappho & Atthis (of the greek poet, "Sappho")