But how about lust (letterally fap i mean) ?
Does lust make soul earth bound or generates negative karma?? How my sexual habbits in this life will affect my next life?
This one is really bugs me...for a long time
I feel sometimes this thing are holding me back in some way and dont let me raise my frequency...
Sex is a part of our life. If we wouldn't meant to experience what the physical world could offer to us by using our body, then there would be no point in incarnating on the material plane neither. We're here to experience this dimension, so we got a body to have all the physical senses for that matter, which are exist to feel and interact with the material world. But we got one more thing: free will.
We have to learn how to control our thoughts and actions. It is a must, so self-control is required. Obsession is unhealthy and have a lot of cons which will drag you back in terms of beneficial reincarnations.
If you overly focused in one particular thing like masturbating or having sex with others, in other words becoming "addicted", then there is a high chance that you're losing your focus about other things and even important ones may disappear from the priority list. It takes time, and we all have limited time on earth / lifespawn, so we have to use it wisely, and find right time to everything we wish to do.
An another consequence is that you are not aware of the changes what this addiction might make you to go through. If the sex addiction itself wouldn't affect your karma - but addiction by itself can and will no matter what kind of addiction we're talking about - then these changes would anyways. Responsibility above all.
I'd say that if you keep up a healthy balance, then masturbating will not bound you to Earth, nor generate negative karma. Pay attention to how it affects your life, and try to be honest with yourself, when you're observing how often you doing it, how you feel about it, or shouldn't you give this time, or at least a part of this time to a different activity, which might be useful in an another way.
In other words: You don't have to leave masturbation behind if you worry that it'll bound you. Self satisfying is healthy if you doing it without excessive obsession; it can prevent several diseases and even prostate cancer; so we can safely say that the human body itself is meant to experience this and there is a reason why we feel the need of doing it times to time. We're living on the material plane, so the rules are affecting us and our physical senses working under these laws - masturbation is not unknown even in animal life, but unlike them, we have our self-awareness -, but the responsibility of our actions will always be in the picture, and we must pay attention to that.
Or all the things i done or gain will lost and i have to do and gain from scratch ???
The more thing you manifested in your life and worked on, the more things can be gained 'back' in your next life easier but of course, it is not guaranteed and it really depends on how well manifested traits / things we're talking about. But remember, your soul have a 'main' goal, and it'll be probably aimed besides other, smaller "projects" which are really depends on how you progress.
If you was wealth focused and it driven your life, while your soul's goal would be something else, you won't get this wealth, because it'd just distract you from the aimed goal of your soul, and you'd probably carry the karmic effect of being obsessed with wealth, too. In other words, the material world is a tool, what the soul can use to drive the best lessons into our path.
As a child, you have less responsibility and self-awareness, you are more vulnerable. We can say that the way how you start your life is an early-manifestation of the karma you've created for yourself, and you have to go thought, but as you gain more knowledge, self-awareness and responsibility, you are "free to go" and work on what you got.
I think that in your early life, you basically get your "starter pack" for this life, and have less karmic consequences of your actions at the early age than later as you grow.
This "Starter Pack" is basically contains everything which meant to be manifested in your life early and achieved. Your abilities, your intelligence, your health, talents, your appearance, all of your traits and even the environment where you grow up and the type of people who'll surround you is a result of your past life / whether soar or sweet that fruit is /.
For example, having a very rough childhood can be a manifestation of several negative karma, which you have to carry. It may seem unfair and rough but we are the responsible for what we have to swallow. However, karma isn't only about "punishing", it is just a way how people seeing this. If you eager to learn and you do your best to be "better", then we can safely say that from that perspective, it is more about teaching / learning and that without karma, we wouldn't be able to reach our goal "that easily".
What can make you learn? It's all depends on you and your will to learn or try to find excuses and drown in self-pity.
Oh, the last two will definitely, not lead you too far.