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Hello all.
I am a budding wizard, currently leaning more RHP.
I've had a rough road, I contacted Astrum Argentum back in 2018 with the aims of advancing in my music career. Idiotically, I used my personal email, effectively doxxing myself.
They responded with a reading list, Sword of Song, some Ceremonial Magic book who's title I forget.
I was pretty profane at the time, raised Roman Catholic. So, when I saw Lucifer brought up, I got rid of all the tomes.
I did read Sword of Song while meditating in the wild pretty often. After one session, I felt violently something enter from the root chakra. I didn't pay much mind to it then, but I can attribute it to the descent of my temple.
Ever since, I've been pretty badly afflicted -- years of going in and out of psych wards, violently chanting the Blood of Jesus, and feeling knots in my head and strongholds in my body react to the chants, especially when directing my breath.
The afflictions are definitely intelligent, and know how to play hide and seek.
Anyway, to the present day, I've been practicing magick again for about two months -- 72 Angels of Magick by Damon Brand and Stephen Skinner's Archangels and Demon Princes.
I own the Universal Circle (plus the Qliphoth Circle), purchased an attunement for the 72 Shem Angels from the Kolasi Coven, and I own a shew stone crystal. Never quite got the Skinner invocation to work, still experimenting. But, Damon Brand's methods of 11 Day Master Ritual have borne fruit, I see a ton of feathers everywhere (a sign of angelic contact). I've been planning to continue with Shem angels, using the Shem Grimiore and Triangle of Art, Damon Brand's method of glancing at the sigil and singing the angel's name doesn't really evoke them to visual appearance and I don't really sense any signs of their presence around me when called.
I'm considering an assortment of talismans but after reading some Quareia texts, Ms. McCarthy says talismans will weaken you. Though, she also says that enduring spiritual attacks gives you very thick skin.
Anyway, I suffer from spiritual attacks I deem to be archonic in nature. I hear voices and have for years, at first, I perceived them to be implanted thoughts. Now, I recognize them as psychic attacks and find myself trapped in an egregore (it seems as though, I have been in many differing ones as the voices I perceive change over time). There was a time where I had very strong energy behind my ears, and was very frenetic as I heard voices of artists I knew. At first, I enjoyed it, but there's no off button.
I had a period in life where I was aware I was a target for witchcraft, and tried to solicit services for aid.
Some of them worked, like the etheric parasite removal which gave me about 3 hours of freedom, before all the afflictions came rushing back.
I've read McCarthy's Exorcist Handbook pretty in-depth, and believe myself to be something of a "host" and she warns that petty spells are ineffective and I'd require an expert occultist/exorcist's assistance.
I'm pretty limited in my magickal operations, seeing as the interference blocks my pineal gland, resulting in a weaker imagination and fits of involuntary laughter while meditating or even doing simple visualizations during LBRP.
So, with all this in mind, any Quareia adepts or initiates around? Josephine advised I stay away from magick and seek out help in religion, thus rejecting me from studying in Quareia, she doesn't believe me to e of sound mind, I guess.
Anyone who thinks they can handle such a herculean task, please reach out.
Of course, I'm open to any and all advice on new books/grimiores to read that may help purify my vessel and combat spiritual attacks.
Also, looking for any occult magick orders unaffiliated with Freemasonry. Live in the Greater NY Tri-State Area, but name drop any good ones.
Let me know, thanks!
I am a budding wizard, currently leaning more RHP.
I've had a rough road, I contacted Astrum Argentum back in 2018 with the aims of advancing in my music career. Idiotically, I used my personal email, effectively doxxing myself.
They responded with a reading list, Sword of Song, some Ceremonial Magic book who's title I forget.
I was pretty profane at the time, raised Roman Catholic. So, when I saw Lucifer brought up, I got rid of all the tomes.
I did read Sword of Song while meditating in the wild pretty often. After one session, I felt violently something enter from the root chakra. I didn't pay much mind to it then, but I can attribute it to the descent of my temple.
Ever since, I've been pretty badly afflicted -- years of going in and out of psych wards, violently chanting the Blood of Jesus, and feeling knots in my head and strongholds in my body react to the chants, especially when directing my breath.
The afflictions are definitely intelligent, and know how to play hide and seek.
Anyway, to the present day, I've been practicing magick again for about two months -- 72 Angels of Magick by Damon Brand and Stephen Skinner's Archangels and Demon Princes.
I own the Universal Circle (plus the Qliphoth Circle), purchased an attunement for the 72 Shem Angels from the Kolasi Coven, and I own a shew stone crystal. Never quite got the Skinner invocation to work, still experimenting. But, Damon Brand's methods of 11 Day Master Ritual have borne fruit, I see a ton of feathers everywhere (a sign of angelic contact). I've been planning to continue with Shem angels, using the Shem Grimiore and Triangle of Art, Damon Brand's method of glancing at the sigil and singing the angel's name doesn't really evoke them to visual appearance and I don't really sense any signs of their presence around me when called.
I'm considering an assortment of talismans but after reading some Quareia texts, Ms. McCarthy says talismans will weaken you. Though, she also says that enduring spiritual attacks gives you very thick skin.
Anyway, I suffer from spiritual attacks I deem to be archonic in nature. I hear voices and have for years, at first, I perceived them to be implanted thoughts. Now, I recognize them as psychic attacks and find myself trapped in an egregore (it seems as though, I have been in many differing ones as the voices I perceive change over time). There was a time where I had very strong energy behind my ears, and was very frenetic as I heard voices of artists I knew. At first, I enjoyed it, but there's no off button.
I had a period in life where I was aware I was a target for witchcraft, and tried to solicit services for aid.
Some of them worked, like the etheric parasite removal which gave me about 3 hours of freedom, before all the afflictions came rushing back.
I've read McCarthy's Exorcist Handbook pretty in-depth, and believe myself to be something of a "host" and she warns that petty spells are ineffective and I'd require an expert occultist/exorcist's assistance.
I'm pretty limited in my magickal operations, seeing as the interference blocks my pineal gland, resulting in a weaker imagination and fits of involuntary laughter while meditating or even doing simple visualizations during LBRP.
So, with all this in mind, any Quareia adepts or initiates around? Josephine advised I stay away from magick and seek out help in religion, thus rejecting me from studying in Quareia, she doesn't believe me to e of sound mind, I guess.
Anyone who thinks they can handle such a herculean task, please reach out.
Of course, I'm open to any and all advice on new books/grimiores to read that may help purify my vessel and combat spiritual attacks.
Also, looking for any occult magick orders unaffiliated with Freemasonry. Live in the Greater NY Tri-State Area, but name drop any good ones.
Let me know, thanks!
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