Franklin's First Schizo Episode

[Magpie]

All the little turtles eventually become big serious magicians. But I gather a preliminary stage is a schizo-like paranoia. At least that was the case with me and I noticed with some other people too. What it was like in your case if you don't mind sharing?

In my case it was waking up at 3 am scared shitless of nothing in particular, waiting till 4 to get back to sleep. Weird dreams, near-dream hallucinations (just before or just after waking up). Seeing "relevant" stuff everywhere. The general feeling of unease as if all hell was about to break lose any time. Didn't last long, maybe a month from the proper opening and would have small comebacks over the course of a year or so.

 

[Firetree]

All the little turtles eventually become big serious magicians.

No ... they do not .

But I gather a preliminary stage is a schizo-like paranoia.

I would say you have a big warning sign there . If this is the case I suggest you enroll in the vary rare sensible and somewhat underground and modernly unpop tradition of first getting professionally psychiatrically balanced by someone that has expertise in both that field and magick eg Dr Israel Regardie's later work .

At least that was the case with me and I noticed with some other people too. What it was like in your case if you don't mind sharing?

NOT like what you describe at all , for starters .

In my case it was waking up at 3 am scared shitless of nothing in particular, waiting till 4 to get back to sleep. Weird dreams, near-dream hallucinations (just before or just after waking up). Seeing "relevant" stuff everywhere.

This ! ^ Do stud and research I mean, even 'the wicked Aliester Crowley' would advise people saying things like this to
''Go and do some gardening for a while ! ''

The general feeling of unease as if all hell was about to break lose any time. Didn't last long, maybe a month from the proper opening and would have small comebacks over the course of a year or so.

have you got things under control now ? Thats the main issue .