True. I ve rededicated my life to Christ, therefore the magic and occult needs to be left behind.
Your approach is the definition of "blindly searching". There should be no such thing as "going back" because the reasons you left religion in the first place, should have been concrete and valid enough that there'd be nothing to "go back" to.
If you can actually "go back" then you never had a valid reason to "leave" in the first place, you should have just remained Christian and saved yourself all of the wasted time.
I was a Christian once, but I was always a bit of a skeptic deep down, my mind always raced with thoughts and theories of various things. It's a passive habit I can't really stop. I used to spend a lot of time debating Atheists online in my teens, and ironically at the end of it all, I became Agnostic because of their logical arguments lol. There were a few Atheists who became Agnostic too and told me I made them consider the possibility that a God might actually exist. I never quoted scripture or anything like that when arguing because that would be circular reasoning.
I stopped being a Christian because of common sense questions like:
1. How come whether I pray or not, bad/good things happen at the same "occurrence rate"? (there aren't "more bad occurrences" when I don't pray and there aren't "more good occurrences" when I do pray, it doesn't make a difference).
2. There have been around 4000 documented religions in human history, how do I 100% without a doubt know that I just happened to born in an era where I would be lucky enough to find the "one true religion" of the "one true God"?
That question holds double the weight for someone who is as unlucky as myself, because my life doesn't have a pattern of luck. So why would I happen to be lucky in that regard? (if anything the pattern would continue and that would mean I'm in the wrong religion).
3. If the Christian God has all three of these traits (All Powerful, All Knowing & Loving) as Christians claim, there is now an obvious paradox, in other words:
The Epicurean Paradox:
4. There's so many examples, including the hypocrisy and failings of most of it's modern day members, who barely even follow the rules in the holy book. Ironically at the time when I was a Christian, I was pretty much the only person I know that was seriously following the rules. Everybody else just seemed to treat "repentance" as their infinitely reusable "get out of jail free card" and didn't really take it seriously.
If the reasons you leave something behind are sound and based on logic, there is no going back, because you didn't make that life decision lightly.
The falsehoods you have noticed in your current path in life do not remove the falsehoods you discovered in your previous path in life (that made you leave Christianity in the first place). If you actually left without seeing any falsehoods, then your departure was premature, and you left without a valid reason.
The previous falsehoods still remain regardless of what you feel about your current path. You shouldn't want to go back to your past path, for the exact same reasons you shouldn't remain on your current path.
Why not try being a Buddhist or something IDK?
Your thread here is like you pretty much admitting that you left your faith for no logical reason and it was basically on a whim based on whatever emotions you were feeling at the time.
I really don't get this wishy washy approach to life, seems kinda aimless.
What's going to stop you from leaving a 2nd time and returning to the occult?