I understand your situation firmly and has been in similar situations myself. Best thing to do now is to.. so high energy.. stay low and find peace and quiet and then you'll know what to do.
Face the Haldol and scream in its face, until it submit to your will. KILL IT! Feels its energy and redirect it. Or simply refuce it all together, no matter the consequences. I think one important part of immortality is to be fearless of death and pain. Not only in mind, but in body. Pain is simply the illusion created by fear. And all fears main source is the fear of death. If you conquer the fear of the death, you will win. And it can be easy in theory, for you must only realise that life spirit is immortal initself, when you die, you return to the origin and reborn anyways, so why reborn? Why not just wait here all the time? Doesn't really matter in the end, tho. For the life was eternal always. Second part is to take theory in practise and use the dicipline to form the body after your command (suggestions). You must "force" it to feel good. You must fight very hard. As hard as you can. Until you succeed. Never give up, always keep trying until you find the peace. Do it in small steps and ignore the step-backs or "failures", they are just lies. One can only move forward. One can only win.
A good way to do this is to think; what is happening RIGHT NOW? And look around. Walk to a quiet place and just look. Nothing is happening. Everything is calm. Nature speaks most strongly. You are neither dead or alive. You just exist. You accept the pain and focus on it, until it goes away. And now you know what you must do. You will find the spirit of purpose. You can shape your reality by the purpose. Every time. It can be very easy, but must be practised regularly until it becomes a routine. And then you'll grow, blossom a golden flower.